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Hi everyone welcome back shit wait. I'm sorry I
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thank God this shit's
this shit's member bro oh my God all right anyways
yeah I am I am listening to
listening to I'm actually dead serious about it I
forgot to mute it but since I was
since I was already like
waiting roomie. I couldn't
was already like waiting roomie. I couldn't change
it's always reminding myself
reminding myself like you got to mute it when you
switch screen you got to mute it
you got to mute it. Holy hell. Welcome
you got to mute it. Holy hell. Welcome. Tempest
you got to mute it. Holy hell. Welcome. To your
you got to mute it. Holy hell. Welcome. To your 15
months hello Joseph cost dude
I'm going to
be honest
right since
right since it's members I feel like there's no
reason for me to. Lie I don't
like. I'll tell you
to. Lie I don't like. I tell you that this
to. Lie I don't like. I tell you that this is so
dangerous I'm starting on danger
territory thank
territory thank you minervical cuz you're 9 months
cuz you're 9 months. Hello there and think you
patience welcome to your nine months
befitting of a
name since you're here for 9
months and I'll come simply
they're 15 months everyone here
is getting scammed for so long
scammed for so long. How is your travel
scammed for so long. How is your travels I have
stories about that actually so you
can see my mouse
but let me just tell you this
right please. Do not
just tell you this right please. Do not clip this out
of context actually do not clip
it at all it's a member like
five head right but I don't
actually like ASMR from
right but I don't actually like ASMR from. V
right but I don't actually like ASMR from. YouTube
right but I don't actually like ASMR from. Vtubers
and I don't know that like
ASMR from. Vtubers and I don't know that like. I
know I say like oh I
listen to ASMR your
mommy is comforting
you while you sleep or
whatever the fuck
you while you sleep or whatever the fuck. But I
you while you sleep or whatever the fuck. But I
don't like it I don't actually
don't actually it's a joke you know I
don't actually
don't actually like listening to asmrs like that
it's amazing for sure thank you
sure thank you. I know thank you anyways goodbye
anyways goodbye everyone. I do have a little
anyways goodbye everyone. I do have a little
bit of tea that I'll
be spicy opinion it's
spicy because
spicy because. My friends and coworkers are as they
do ASMR right
coworkers are as they do ASMR right. And a good
chunk of them are like
big with a community that is
well known to like
kill you if you judge them too
hard so. I never said it
if you judge them too hard so. I never said it I joke
about being like Oh I listen to
Mommy ASMR or whatever but
I can't I don't know why
like if I'm about to relax
to relax I'm about to go to bed. I like listen
to relax I'm about to go to bed. I like listening
to like those ear sounds you know
those sounds like
ear sounds you know those sounds like. I love those
ear sounds you know those sounds like. I love those
and. I keep saying this one of the
ASMR artists
that I absolutely
love is a person named
Ting Ting ding ding ASMR they
do like this POV role play type
of ASMR like POV I'm your
hairdresser and they're going to
hear like brushing noises
brushing noises. I love those I love brushing noises
I love rubbing noises like
noises I love rubbing noises like. Those kind of
noises I love rubbing noises like. Those kind of
sounds it is so good
like. Those kind of sounds it is so good. But the
like. Those kind of sounds it is so good. But the
moment I'm relaxing
good. But the moment I'm relaxing. And yeah like
good. But the moment I'm relaxing. And yeah like
you're licking I
kind of I'm okay
with ear licking but when I'm
about to go to bed and I
hear like how's your day
to bed and I hear like how's your day. Like
to bed and I hear like how's your day. Like. You
know like they have to role play
right so they're
like. How's your day been
How's your day been. Oh my God that sounds really
hard. Oh you've been
that sounds really hard. Oh you've been such a
strong person today
I'm so proud of you
like when people
say that it makes me like this is
going to be the insane part of
be the insane part of. Why I can't listen
be the insane part of. Why I can't listen to ASMR
like that. When someone
can't listen to ASMR like that. When someone asks
a question right when I'm
listening
question right when I'm listening to ASMR
and they're
and they're like how's your day been and for
some reason my crazy brain response
crazy brain response. Response do you know like
they're like how's your day
been and I'm like
oh well my day has been a little
crazy actually and today I met this
this and then when they want to call
respond they cut off
when they want to respond they cut off
when they want to respond they cut off. My state
when they want to respond they cut off. My statement
when they want to respond they cut off. My statement
and for some reason it breaks
my immersion it is
so stupid and it's
like I know they're not talking
to me but because I want to
feel immersed when they cut me off
mid sentence I feel like I am
having immersion break
immersion break. Which is so odd. Hol
immersion break. Which is so odd. Holy
immersion break. Which is so odd. Holy. Thank you son
immersion break. Which is so odd. Holy. Thank you
Santa not over there 14 months
Mika ass and
thank you
soccer 999 you're 4 months come welcome
welcome romantic as well and welcome it's your 22
months to any 22 wait what
the fuck. Oh my my headphones are
headphones are breaking. That is nuts
headphones are breaking. That is nuts. How many
headphones are breaking. That is nuts. How many 22
months is that a year wait no
sorry that's too
is that a year wait no sorry that's too. 24
months is 2 years
you almost 2 years that is nuts
thank you texting Booth you're
10 months 10 months of being
scammed and I love it
10 months of being scammed and I love it. A year
10 months of being scammed and I love it. A year and
10 months a year almost 2 years
that is I can't do
math that is
crazy thank you sethy Paul
sethy Paul Hunter 4 months cheers to getting scammed
in the future
cheers to getting scammed in the future. What if
cheers to getting scammed in the future. What if
there's no. 22 that's a
future. What if there's no. 22 that's a year and
10 months. You don't
know how to
that's a year and 10 months. You don't
know how to do she
did math I don't
know I'm using my brain for once
chat are you proud I came back a
smarter person I'm like
Albert Einstein or some shit thank
you Molly I wasn't your 12
months it's been a year what the
welcome to 12 months it's been a year what the heck
year what the heck. You've been giving me
year what the heck. You've been giving me money
every month for a year and I give
you nothing thank
you million
million welcome to the pack of chants how are you
today Mika I am low-key just like
I do have tea I'll say this on
members because obviously as
members like who gives a
shit. Sorry if you hear me being
quiet Suddenly It's because I
have my local ASMR in the
background and she just like moaned
or some shit and I was like oh
That
But my
But my as
But my
But my ASMR is probably the
worst
But my ASMR is probably the worst shit ever
But my ASMR is probably the worst shit ever. I
don't know if you
But my ASMR is probably the worst shit ever. I
don't know if you know what
Mike I used let me try and find
it actually
Mike I used let me try and find it actually. As
Mike I used let me try and find it actually. Asm
Mike I used let me try and find it actually. ASMR
Mike. It was like 20 bucks
it actually. ASMR Mike. It was like 20 bucks. It's
it actually. ASMR Mike. It was like 20 bucks. It is
like 20 bucks. It's it is nutty like
basically chat was
like Mika you should
attempt ASMR and I am
actually curious I am an ASMR
fan okay. So I was like
curious I am an ASMR fan okay. So I was like I'm
going to try out ASMR
So I was like I'm going to try out ASMR. But the
So I was like I'm going to try out ASMR. But the
one I got was like this by it was
binaural cuz that's
what Chad said like
we should try it by neural
what Chad said like we should try
try buy me or I'll answer more so I typed in like
binaural ASMR Mike cheap or
something. And. It's shap
Mike cheap or something. And. It's shaped like a
Mike cheap or something. And. It's shaped like a
ball with like four mics
protruding out of
it
like four mics protruding out of it. It's like 20
like four mics protruding out of it. It's like 20
bucks like a solid 20 bucks I
can't find a picture
for some reason
and now it's broken I don't
know what the fuck I did to it but
it's actually like broken
fuck I did to it but it's actually like broken. It
makes like this weird
fuck I did to it but it's actually like broken. It
makes like this weird white
buzzing sound
like this weird white buzzing sound. It is so OD
like this weird white buzzing sound. It is so odd
buzzing sound. It is so odd. Oh I can't find
buzzing sound. It is so odd. Oh I can't find it
I can't find it. Thank you infinity breach by
the way we'll
compete to your 19
months 22 that's
a year and 10 months
months 22 that's a year and 10 months. Who want
months 22 that's a year and 10 months. Who I
months 22 that's a year and 10 months. Who I
think you are wrong with an R thank
you so sorry as fuck
my life
my life. My anniversary was like last
month right
My anniversary was like last month right. I for
My anniversary was like last month right. I forg
My anniversary was like last month right. I forgory
My anniversary was like last month right. I forgory
My anniversary was like last month right. I forgoring
month right. I forgoring. How's your day
month right. I forgoring. How's your day chat
I forgoring. How's your day chat. Fuck up
How's your day chat. Fuck up. Of
I
How's your day chat. Fuck up. Of I. Fuck you li
How's your day chat. Fuck up. Of I. Fuck you liar
How's your day chat. Fuck up. Of I. Fuck you Liars
How's your day chat. Fuck up. Of I. Fuck you Liars
fuck you. Thank you
Fuck up. Of I. Fuck you Liars fuck you. Thank you
the void won't be 5
months
and hot coffee
you're 14 so much being
scammed I love it you guys are so odd
you guys are so odd. You guys are so odd for this I
feel so bad every time I have
talked about this a
lot of people I'm like I feel
bad because I don't do
members as often and I promise
a lot. And for some reason you
guys still stick by and I
don't know why thank you
Cloud meister for your 10 months I
forgot I was paying for this
your 10 months I forgot I was paying for this. Mem
paying for this. Memberships are free
paying for this. Memberships are free. Bish
paying for this. Memberships are free. Bishop
paying for this. Memberships are free. Bishops are so
paying for this. Memberships are free. Bishops are so
free and thank you Anna
for the super
are so free and thank you for the super
are so free and thank you for the super. Fuck you
are so free and thank you for the super. Fuck you
Lars and thank you
you're too much I got charged twice
for this
membership. Listen okay
twice for this membership. Listen Okay you
twice for this membership. Listen Okay you get a lot
of content you got a lot
content you got a lot. I'm telling you
content you got a lot. I'm telling you I do a lot
of cool things
telling you I do a lot of cool things. What the fuck
telling you I do a lot of cool things. What the fuck
am I lagging
cool things. What the fuck am I lagging. Ch
cool things. What the fuck am I lagging. Chat am I
cool things. What the fuck am I lagging. Chat am I
legging or am I not
legging. I hope I'm not
am I legging or am I not legging. I hope I'm not if
I am yikes
legging. I hope I'm not if I am yikes. O
legging. I hope I'm not if I am yikes. Oops I have
legging. I hope I'm not if I am yikes. Oops I have
no idea. Anyway
yikes. Oops I have no idea. Anyways
Oops I have no idea. Anyways. Free super 10
Oops I have no idea. Anyways. Free super 10 free me
memberships
Free super 10 free me memberships easy that is the
truth
memberships easy that is the truth. I don't know
memberships easy that is the truth. I don't know
if I'm lagging or not a
very little bit not
lagging a
not a very little bit not liking a bit
not a very little bit not liking a bit. You're mut
not a very little bit not liking a bit. You're
muted. It's fine for you okay
a bit. You're muted. It's fine for you okay
then I guess it's just on
my end I get a
notification
a notification from YouTube if I'm lagging a little
bit. Thanks for telling me
you're trembling what
Thanks for telling me you're trembling what. Like
my face or my stream what's
going on I'm going to I'm
going to hurt
to hurt something I'm telling you chat I do have
a little bit of tea so basically
of tea so basically. I was out I was away right
of tea so basically. I was out I was away right. From
this country
was away right. From this country. And as you guys
was away right. From this country. And as you guys
know I am in Indonesia
so if you want to go
anywhere or do
anything you kind of need a visa
anywhere or do anything you kind of need a visa. That
you have to prepare
anywhere or do anything you kind of need a visa. That
you have to prepare like 6
months in advance. So
prepare like 6 months in advance. So. Here
prepare like 6 months in advance. So. Here's
the little funny
prepare like 6 months in advance. So. Here's
the little funny
goofy thing but obviously don't
tell
anyone me telling
like the world means that you guys
can't tell anybody your model
is a bit jittery
anybody your model is a bit jittery. Oh I think
anybody your model is a bit jittery. Oh I think
it's okay I'll tell you
about this as well. Some
cost
I'll tell you about this as well. Some
cost fallacy
you about this as well. Some cost fallacy. What is
you about this as well. Some cost fallacy. What is
that. Okay I do
cost fallacy. What is that. Okay I do have a little
bit of tea but
Okay I do have a little bit of tea but. It's
kind of
Okay I do have a little bit of tea but. It's
kind of
complicated it just you know
it just story for you
I'm not going to say
this publicly but
I'm not going to say this publicly but. Basic
I'm not going to say this publicly but. Basically
publicly but. Basically. I don't know if
publicly but. Basically. I don't know if this
applies to all countries but
because I'm
an Indo if you want
to get a visa for the for like other
countries like I don't know
America cuz I've never made a
Visa for America before but from
my experience
America before but from my experience. When I made a
America before but from my experience. When I made a
Visa for the UK
experience. When I made a Visa for the UK. I'm
trying to be excess careful
as I possibly
I'm trying to be extra careful as I possibly can
as I possibly can. Now try not to expose anything
because I went on a break I come
back and I forgot
that like we were vtubers and we
have ndas anyways
we're vtubers and we have ndas anyways
we're vtubers and we have ndas anyways. Yeah I
we're vtubers and we have ndas anyways. Yeah I
made one last year right
anyways. Yeah I made one last year right. And that
was the first
anyways. Yeah I made one last year right. And that
was the first Visa I
made to go to the UK
stuff like that and because of
that it's easier to make a
Visa now because I've had
experience and I didn't have
any problems going to the UK
I didn't have any problems going to the UK. So
originally. This year like the start of
this year. I was
talking to
year like the start of this year. I was
talking to some
people and the plan was
we're going to do
the plan was we're going to do. Another off
the plan was we're going to do. Another off Club
well not off glad but we were
planning on meeting up again
glad but we were planning on meeting up again. Like
around April or May like the
same time last year it was a
plan it was like
those kind of things that you talk
about and you're like oh
let's do it. But no one
you're like oh let's do it. But no one's
you're like oh let's do it. But no one's like
actually 100% yet like we're just
yet like we're just. In the talks right
yet like we're just. In the talks right. And
yet like we're just. In the talks right. And. The
thing is. Because I want this
talks right. And. The thing is. Because I want
this is it's an
accumulation of
things right
first of all I was going
through something which I
will tell you in a bit but I was
going through shit and I am a
Shopaholic so when I'm going
through like the worst my life gets
the more money I spend which is
so confusing
money I spend which is so confusing. And I thought I
money I spend which is so confusing. And I thought I
wanted
confusing. And I thought I wanted to be cool cuz
everyone is like oh yeah
you know what we
can go we can everyone we can
meet up at in the UK yeah
let's just go to you can meet up
you can meet up. And they'll just fly there because
everyone lives in a place
that is not like I
don't know Indonesia so
if you are like let's say
you're a UK citizen or an
American citizen or whatever
or whatever. Arkansas doesn't or whatever you have
more countries that you
can travel to without
needing a Visa beforehand
travel to without needing a Visa beforehand. But for
travel to without needing a Visa beforehand. But for
me I need to plan it like 6
months in advance or like 4
months is the
fastest right. So I
4 months is the fastest right. So I thought that when
everyone was saying like oh
we can do an off collab blah blah
blah. Instantly
off collab blah blah blah. Instantly. I made a vis
off collab blah blah blah. Instantly. I made a Visa
off collab blah blah blah. Instantly. I made a Visa
and that was like
Instantly. I made a Visa and that was like. End of
that was like. End of. End of Jan
that was like. End of. End of January
that was like. End of. End of January. I
think like
that was like. End of. End of January. I
think like I made a Visa
end of January you
do need like a
plane ticket and stuff
to make a Visa but
plane ticket and stuff to make a Visa but. I have
plane ticket and stuff to make a Visa but. I have
like a I have this like travel agent
that's just like oh
you know what
it's fine like you just have the
Visa and you can sort out your plans
later so I was like cool
sort out your plans later so I was like cool. So I
sort out your plans later so I was like cool. So I
actually already made a UK Visa
was like cool. So I actually already made a UK visa
to travel like early that
year
visa to travel like early that year. And the thing is
visa to travel like early that year. And the thing is
year. And the thing is. We didn't we
year. And the thing is. We didn't we ended up
going to Japan and
ended up going to Japan and. This is so
ended up going to Japan and. This is so this is
like the most out of
touch shit ever okay I
will get but I'll
get back this I will recognize
how out of touch this shit story is
but we already plan on
going to Japan but before we went to
Japan we were like oh let's
go meet up again so I made the
Visa before going to Japan
going to Japan. Stuff like that and I didn't tell
anyone so this year like
February this year of
Japan can do this on arrival
for Indonesians you can go to
Japan with
Indonesians you can go to Japan with. For
Indonesians you can go to Japan with. Forgot it's
Indonesians you can go to Japan with. Forgot
with. Forgot the same it's not a Visa but it's
but it's a. I forgot it's a it's another
another type right you basically pay it's
easier but you
can only go to Japan for 14
days which is important like you
have to leave Japan on the 14th
day. Yeah if you have an e passport
you can get like a specific
type of visa for Japan if
you are Indonesian that's a
whole another thing there's
different types I will try
to explain it the best I can because
I am a little bit also
confusion. But yeah I already made a
visa to go to the UK because
everyone was talking about
everyone but my friends were
talking about it and I was like okay
Bet right. I didn't tell
and I was like okay Bet right. I didn't tell
didn't tell anyone that I made this Visa also
important the story
this Visa also important the story. After we went
this Visa also important the story. After we went
back from Japan blah blah blah
everyone was like
I'm so tired
I'm so sick and tired of traveling
like. What time that you know
tired of traveling like. What time that you know one
time that what what time
it's like in Indonesia we
Indonesia we have the saying words like you make a
plan with someone that never
words like you make a plan with someone
someone that never goes through it's like a watch
on Montana right I forgot the
fucking word oh my God
right I forgot the fucking word oh my God. Yeah
oh my God. Yeah. When we go back from Japan
oh my God. Yeah. When we go back from Japan. A lot of
oh my God. Yeah. When we go back from Japan. A lot of
people were setting
stuff
up and they're
like I am so tired of
traveling and obviously
so tired of traveling and obviously. Yo
so tired of traveling and obviously. Yeah what
so tired of traveling and obviously. Owatonna OB
so tired of traveling and obviously. Owatonna
obviously. Owatonna obviously I'm not going to
force them to travel cuz
that'd be even more
fucked up I'd be like if I
were to force them to travel
that's horrible. So I was like okay
we don't have to go like
to go like. It's chill it's whatever
to go like. It's chill it's whatever. And I
to go like. It's chill it's whatever. And I
tried to cancel the Visa but I
already paid it
it's already set up so now
I have a visa to go to the UK
for the next 6 months like I can
next 6 months like I can. Enter the U
next 6 months like I can. Enter the UK
next 6 months like I can. Enter the UK at any point
for the next 6 months starting
from April so that's
like Jennifer. AP
April so that's like Jennifer. April May June July
August September October right so
basically
September October right so basically I'm allowed to
be in the UK until the
October. And I didn't tell
didn't tell anyone about this because I felt so
fucking bad and I was so
stupid cuz I just wanted to be part
of the cool kids you know I
when when my friends that are
not Indonesian or like oh my God
I am so bored today I
want to go to Canada
am so bored today I want to go to Canada. And I'm
like okay cool
am so bored today I want to go to Canada. And I'm
like okay cool when do you
want to go to Canada and
they're like next
week I can't do that shit I
have to like make a visa to go to
Canada while they don't need one
so they can just book a flight
and leave and I wanted to be part
of the cool kids that look like
oh are we going next week bet
bitch purchased you know I
wanted to I want to do that but
they end up canceling and there
goes my Visa. So the
canceling and there goes my Visa. So the only person
I ended up talking about
talking about this too was messed up
talking about this too was messed up. And this was
talking about this too was messed up. And this was
during like it was brought up
as a joke in the
start where Mr said that
he's leaving but I was
like yo. I have this fuck
leaving but I was like yo. I have this fucking
leaving but I was like yo. I have this fucking visa
thing if if you want to do it
after LaBelle and we did it
so the plan in itself was
somewhat not planned out
planned out thoroughly but it's because of a
mistake and I end up using it so it's
not that bad. There is one thing
using it so it's not that bad. There is one thing
though that I was a little
bit scared of
that I was a little bit scared of. So
was a little bit scared of. So. I did end
was a little bit scared of. So. I did end up
traveling so it's not that bad
it's just like fuck
right I want for
like a week ish it wasn't even
that long I went for like a weekish
and this is I know it sounds so
out of touch I I said this to my
roomie yesterday but bro
I said this to my roomie yesterday but bro. I swear
to God
I said this to my roomie yesterday but bro. I swear
to God when people become
streamers or they become
content creators or
artists or whatever
content creators or artists or whatever. I feel like
content creators or artists or whatever. I feel like
they are just a different breed
like they are a
different
different breed like they are a different. They're
different. They're in a different world
different breed like they are a different. They're
different. They're in a different world you know
like when I stream I'm
talking about shit
that's like oh my God chat I
have problems doing this and it's
like I I hate planting all my
trees die but I want to grow a
plant like that's normal
that's normal people problems and then you have
influencer problems
and then you have influencer problems. And I don't
and then you have influencer problems. And I don't
I I don't want to sound
like that but for this
story I know I sound so
that but for this story I know I sound so. Priv
that but for this story I know I sound so. Privile
that but for this story I know I sound so. Prevalent
that but for this story I know I sound so. Privileged
you know I sound like that rich
bitch and I Loki I
want to be like that
a little bit
want to be like that a little bit. But you know
want to be like that a little bit. But you know
those streamers lately where they
going to
streamers lately where they going to break
right they go on a
break they come back and
they're like oh I'm back from my
vacation and their stories are
and I mean this is the nicest way
possible so unrelatable like
it is so Faithfully unrelatable
Faithfully unrelatable but when I'm listening to
it I'm like good on you buddy
but I can't relate they're
relate they're like so guys I was so exhausted I
woke up today like a week ago I
woke up today and I went to the
airport. And you know I had to wait
in line for 3 minutes because
I'm first class and
when I went to the first class check
right there's like three
people all dressed in gold and
they were like excuse me ma'am
can I hold your anime bag and
you're Louis Vuitton purse and
I was like oh my God the audacity
like what the fuck I'm flying
in economy besides some
besides some children for like 18 hours with a 4-Hour
Transit flight and no one
gives a shit if I died you know
flight and no one gives a shit if I died you know. No
the stories they tell are just
so unrelatable to me I
don't hate it it's
just that I can't Vibe you
know I don't your problem is
problem is literally it's a you thing like am I
supposed to be like oh my God yes
Queen I flew first class too and
the lady kept like waking me up
from my king-sized bed to
offer me my wagyu beef and that is
so annoying
wagyu beef and that is so annoying. I order
wagyu beef and that is so annoying. I ordered
wagyu beef and that is so annoying. I ordered
vegetarian food here's another
story. I'm not
going to say
food here's another story. I'm not
going to say which airline
I flew with but I flew with
an airline that
is the cheapest one I'll
just say that straight up I
opened the travel app refresh it a
fucked on the times and bought the
cheapest flight right the
cheapest cheapest as in I travel
from my country at
country at 3:00 in the morning and I leave from that
country at like 4:00 in the
morning so. Like fuck you
like 4:00 in the morning so. Like fuck you time zone
you have to be awake
Like fuck you time zone you have to be awake. And
Like fuck you time zone you have to be awake. And. I
asked them like they asked me for
like oh what kind of
food
community
for like oh what kind of food community. In English
for like oh what kind of food community. In English
for like oh what kind of food community. The lady
for like oh what kind of food community. The lady
came up and they were like do
you want chicken or beef
like do you want chicken or beef. And I was like
like do you want chicken or beef. And I was like
like do you want chicken or beef. And I was like. Oh
can I have vegetarian like
do you have a
vegetarian option
cuz usually they do
you have a vegetarian option cuz usually they do. And
they're like
you have a vegetarian option cuz usually they do. And
they're like oh yeah we have a
vegetarian
like oh yeah we have a vegetarian option I'll come
back to you later
back to you later. Girl I was flabbergasted
back to you later. Girl I was flabbergasted. It's
not like you. Never been to Premium
not like you. Never been to premium
not like you. Never been to Premium
not like you. Never been to premium flight all
the way I'll get to that in a
bit but
the way I'll get to that in a bit but. I swear to
the way I'll get to that in a bit but. I swear to
God the people beside me they
got like chicken right
and I remember this
because it is some like mashed
potatoes vegetable chicken and
you get like a pudding or
whatever this normal airline food
normal airline food. They said they
normal airline food. They said they'll come back
to me with my vegetarian option
later
me with my vegetarian option later. Option later they
did and what it came back
it's just the chicken meal without the
chicken like they just
opened the chicken meal
like they just opened the chicken meal. And remove
the chicken so I am eating
mashed potatoes steamed
vegetable and pudding
vegetable and pudding. That's it. It's not even
vegetable and pudding. That's it. It's not even
like oh they give me like
a little bit more
vegetables it's like
like more vegetables with
vegetables with mashed potatoes and like I don't
know maybe maybe milk no it's
just pudding with like
maybe milk no it's just pudding with like. Three
sad broccolis some carrots and
mashed potatoes. So
some carrots and mashed potatoes. So. I
was like
some carrots and mashed potatoes. So. I
was like
and mashed potatoes. So. I was like. Okay
like. Okay you know please I'm eating like I'm
not going to complain
that much but I
know because the people beside me
we're eating the same damn thing
with chicken and now my plate
looks half empty so I was like okay
my plate looks half empty so I was like okay. It's
not that bad and then I went to
Transit I was considering
going into the
spot like the
like the spotlight the lounge so apparently if you
are a member of something or if
you're like business first
business first class you get a lounge and I was like
oh my God chats they don't
know I'm a popular influencer
popular influencer I need a lounge for my protection
lounge for my protection. You know what
lounge for my protection. You know what if the
people in this Airport
know what if the people in this airport know who I
is. So I wanted to go to the
lounge and apparently I have to
pay like an ironically $50
to enter a lounge that had
like. A small amount of
a lounge that had like. A small amount of buffet and
like sofas. And in my head
amount of buffet and like sofas. And in my head
I'm like fuck no so I
ended up sitting on a on
the floor not even on
some chairs because all the
chairs were taken so I was
sitting on the floors watching
tiktoks with free airport Wi-Fi
for 4 hours. That's my exper
free airport Wi-Fi for 4 hours. That's my
That's my experience. That's why when people
when people tell me stories of like I'm so tired
from my direct flight
that's In First Class like I
am so exhausted I'm like bro
exhausted I'm like bro. Here's what I did right
exhausted I'm like bro. Here's what I did right
what I did right. I flew I was streaming I don't
I'm pretty sure you guys
know this but I was
streaming house flipper and I ended it
I was like guys I need to do
something in like 2 hours or 3
hours so I got to go
in like 2 hours or 3 hours so I got to go. I end
in like 2 hours or 3 hours so I got to go. I ended
in like 2 hours or 3 hours so I got to go. I ended
the stream immediately went to
the airport cuz I had my
bags packed went to
the airport checked in waited
for like an hour and a half and
flew. With that exper
hour and a half and flew. With that experience
hour and a half and flew. With that experience went
to Transit sit down on the
floor for 4 hours flew again
right I arrived bang I am at
the airport and then I take a
train to go to a train station and
from the train station I took
another train
train station I took another train. The total of the
train station I took another train. The total of the
trip was like
train. The total of the trip was like. A couple of
train. The total of the trip was like. A couple of
hours I don't even
remember I was out
of my mind with like a big bag I
didn't pack as much because
I was like it's only going
to be a week and a half and I
don't really need it I took another
train to another train to another
train. And then
another train to another train. And then I walked
because I didn't know how to
get an Uber in Indo we
don't have Ubers so I cannot download
cannot download The Uber app right so
cannot download The Uber app right so. I did not know
cannot download The Uber app right so. I did not know
how to get a taxi either so
I walked for like
20ish minutes just like
walk. And I will have I have
a story about this but I'll
tell you in a bit actually I
experience yet another case
a bit actually I experience yet another case. Of RAC
a bit actually I experience yet another case. Of
racism I know I. Leg
another case. Of racism I know I. Legit I don't
another case. Of racism I know I. Legit I don't
know how this keeps happening
but
don't know how this keeps happening but. It does
don't know how this keeps happening but. It does
so I guess because I
was walking with a massive luggage
bag
walking with a massive luggage bag. Right it's like
walking with a massive luggage bag. Right it's like
a big luggage bag and I had a
backpack on
luggage bag and I had a backpack on. I
was
luggage bag and I had a backpack on. I
was walking through
like this alley
was walking through like this alley. Al
was walking through like this alley. Alley
was walking through like this alley. Ali
was walking through like this alley. Alley way
was walking through like this alley. Alley way. I
did hurry. You're a w
alley. Alley way. I did hurry. You're a wiz
alley. Alley way. I did hurry. You're a wizard
alley. Alley way. I did hurry. You're a wizard but
yeah I was walking
through
this Alleyway
thing
walking through this Alleyway thing. And I was
walking through this Alleyway thing. And I was a bit
scared because at that time
it was like quite
late that night
already. Not that late
late that night already. Not that late that's
another thing that I'm blown
out of my mind in Indo at
6:00 p.m. it is dark as shit but
there it's like 6:00 p.m.
6:00 p.m. feels like a 3:00 p.m. kind of a thing so I
was walking past the alley
it's not that dark it's not that
late but it's like late I
don't know how to explain it
like late I don't know how to explain it. And
like late I don't know how to explain it. And. I
got called. The SE
explain it. And. I got called. The C
explain it. And. I got called. The c word
explain it. And. I got called. The c word by just a
random person chilling
there
like I was
walking and
walking and there's this random like guy just
sitting. Guy just sitting around
like guy just sitting. Guy just sitting around. And
at first it was I think it was
cat calling I'm not
very sure cuz I wear
airpods all the time and I was
listening to some music
time and I was listening to some music. And I just
time and I was listening to some music. And I just
hear like. Feet
music. And I just hear like. You know like
music. And I just hear like. You know like the
like the whistling and some stuff
like the whistling and some stuff. And because
like the whistling and some stuff. And because
ignored them
some stuff. And because ignored them. They just
some stuff. And because ignored them. They just
fall on call me the c word
and I was kind of
scared so I was like okay I
got to go I got to pick up my face
I got a phone call I got
to run. Anyways I arrived at the
place I was staying I put my luggage
down right I unpacked I
just like took a quick shower
like took a quick shower. Laid down on the bed
like took a quick shower. Laid down on the bed for
a little bit. Took my
down on the bed for a little bit. Took my phone and
like all the other
stuff for like stream head
like just be lying
to miss this place and instantly
went live like well not
instantly but wait no no actually I
laid down for a bit took a nap and
then. Afterward
bit took a nap and then. Afterwards I went
bit took a nap and then. Afterwards I went to Mrs
place cuz it's like the
next day but I arrived quite
arrived quite late it was it's a very complicated
very complicated story but it's basically just
basically just. Immediately back to back to back
you know I don't even remember
the details
the details anymore I didn't check the time I was
too scared to whip out my phone
that's the thing
to whip out my phone that's the thing. I was
to whip out my phone that's the thing. I was too
scared to whip out my phone I was
too scared to do
anything because I'm
not saying that I'm not
generalizing obviously a lot of the
places are very nice and
stuff like that but
are very nice and stuff like that but. I don't want
are very nice and stuff like that but. I don't want
to tempt people you know
what I mean I don't want
to tempt people to
like oh my God this lady has a big
bag she is all alone she has
a pot she has phone
all alone she has a pot she has phone. I'm
phone. I'm going to rob her so. I just want
phone. I'm going to rob her so. I just want
phone. I'm going to rob her so. I just want. It
want. It was like a back-to-back thing no rest no
stopping
back-to-back thing no rest no stopping. We just
back-to-back thing no rest no stopping. We just
go let's see where it
isn't a big deal in the UK
I've been calling in
the term of endearment since I was
the thing is it is a bit weird
is it is a bit weird. For me cuz Okay I'm not
going to say this in public streams
obviously
say this in public streams obviously. Aw
say this in public streams obviously. Also just
say this in public streams obviously. Also just
say this in public streams obviously. Also just. Look
say this in public streams obviously. Also just. As
say this in public streams obviously. Also just. Asm
say this in public streams obviously. Also just. ASMR
ended. But
obviously. Also just. ASMR ended. But here
obviously. Also just. ASMR ended. But here's the
thing right
obviously. Also just. ASMR ended. But here's the
thing right
ended. But here's the thing right. For me
ended. But here's the thing right. For me I I
have
talked about this
and I've hinted on
it and I've even joked
about it but you know I am
Indonesian
even joked about it but you know I am Indonesian. But
here's the thing right this
is this is the hard thing but
please do keep it in
members I don't want people to
people to like out anyone. Or anything like that
people to like out anyone. Or anything like that
anything like that. But. Here in IND
anything like that. But. Here in Indo
anything like that. But. Here in Indo. Every country
anything like that. But. Here in Indo. Every country
have their own sweet sweet
sense of
racism right
like not Brewing
intense crazy but there is
some. Like pretty
pretty do this but I do this prejudice against
certain types of ethnicities
or whatever so the ch1 or the C
the CH the c h i n
so the ch1 or the C the CH the c h i n. K
so the ch1 or the C the CH the c h i n. K1
so the ch1 or the C the CH the c h i n. K1. Yeah
so the ch1 or the C the CH the c h i n. K1. Yeah. The
the one that end
so the ch1 or the C the CH the c h i n. K1. Yeah. The
the one that
that answer the why those kind of things
so
the why those kind of things so. Here
the why those kind of things so. Here's
the thing right
the why those kind of things so. Here's
the thing right
the thing right. In indoor I'm not like hiding it
I know a lot of
people in egy are like oh yeah I am
are like oh yeah I am. I'm actually half Japanese
or people are like oh I'm
actually half Filipino and
that is so normal to say but when I
join this company I was
told not to say anything and I
understand because in my country
a little bit some people are
a little bit upset at
bit some people are a little bit upset at. Some
people right like not the whole place
like there are some
areas in the capital
city. It's not as
areas in the capital city. It's not as much but in
where I live. It's still
not as much but in where I live. It's still a
little bit there
live. It's still a little bit there. You know
It's still a little bit there. You know. Oh the
You know. All the flight home is actually very very
smooth mica's half
of me I'm not half
Filipino okay I will say this here
but please do fuck it like I know
people have known because I have
not been I don't stated but
I'm not secretive about it
either
about it either. When I debuted I said that I could
speak English Indonesian
a little bit of
Mandarin a little bit of Japanese
stuff like that. I'm Japanese
bit of Japanese stuff like that. I'm Japanese right
it's a I'm Indonesian but
Indonesian but. I'm technically Javanese mostly
Javanese mostly it's like a little thing in
Indo. But I am
it's like a little thing in Indo. But I am a mix
Indo. But I am a mix. A good chunk mix
Indo. But I am a mix. A good chunk mix. With like
Indo. But I am a mix. A good chunk mix. With like
you know it's a
fucking obvious
like it is so fucking
fucking. Like it is so fucking obvious yeah I fucking
wrote it it's like
the languages I
can speak a very little little
so I've said like oh my
Skin's pale and shit like come on
like oh my Skin's pale and shit like come on. You
know the thing is
like oh my Skin's pale and shit like come on. You
know the thing is
like come on. You know the thing is. That there are
like come on. You know the thing is. That there are
some anger right there's
still some like
I'm I'm Brazilian
Brazilian it's true I'm actually British
British. I'm actually British no I'm not
I'm not British but yeah you kind of
get it if you know you
know. But the thing is
it if you know you know. But the thing is I'd
never said it straight up just
thing is I never said it straight up just because
straight up just because. People here be hated on it
sometimes not everywhere not
everyone just there are
some people and I'm not
saying this because I'm
because I'm scared the internet has been saying
shit I have experience a lot of the
hate. Person
experience a lot of the hate. Personally I've
Personally I've talked about like when I was
younger I used to be bullied like
to be bullied like. People with dark
to be bullied like. People with darker skin tones
here are actually more favored
compared to people
with lighter skin
compared to people with lighter skin. I've exper
compared to people with lighter skin. I've
skin. I've experienced a lot of this like
skin. I've experienced a lot of this like. Hate
or not discrimination
something like that
and it usually stems from two
things and this is just me
saying from my experience so if
you guys have like a different
experience that is completely
valid this is what I experienced
right POV my story it's either
because
it's either because. My people I say my people
but. People here that are a mix like
me
People here that are a mix like me. They are
People here that are a mix like me. They are the not
the majority but the vocal my
the vocal ones
are very snobby I
will have to say that
like
very snobby I will have to say that like. I have met
very snobby I will have to say that like. I have met
a lot of people that are mixed
and they are so so
snobby cuz they're
usually Rich right like they
are usually born rich very privileged
and very out of touch you know
like they call people and they
yeah like I get it I I low key
get it I'm not saying everyone
is like this but
saying everyone is like this but. There are
saying everyone is like this but. There are right
saying everyone is like this but. There are right. So
because of
saying everyone is like this but. There are right. So
because of that some like
some Indonesians
are quite upset
at it
at it it's kind of like to eat the rich kind of
mentality but instead of eating the
rich it's like
instead of eating the rich it's like. Eat this
instead of eating the rich it's like. Eat this eat
this kind of genetic people I
don't have to explain it without
poking the bear too much so
it's either the stereotypical
stereotypical image of people like me in my country
are snobby rich born privileged
out of touch very rude indecent
stuff like that
touch very rude indecent stuff like that. Or
touch very rude indecent stuff like that. Or. Or they
just don't like
touch very rude indecent stuff like that. Or. Or they
just don't like it I
don't know why but
don't like it I don't know why but. That's not
don't like it I don't know why but. That's not
a race thing
race thing though that's a social class thing
that's a thing not
everyone that's my race is
of money right like not
like not everyone. Is rich. But the vocal group are
rich. Does that make like
the vocal group are rich. Does that make like any
sense
Does that make like any sense. It's just like
Does that make like any sense. It's just like
stereotyping basically they they
stereotype everyone
basically they they stereotype everyone. In my race
basically they they stereotype everyone. In my race
to be like that and sadly I got
lumped into it even
though I do not have
the joy of you know eating from
pearls and shit right so
because of that. Just a lot of things
that I experienced
Just a lot of things that I experienced. I DEC
Just a lot of things that I experienced. I decided
Just a lot of things that I experienced. I decided
not to tell
experienced. I decided not to tell. Public
experienced. I decided not to tell. Publicly
experienced. I decided not to tell. Publicly. My eth
experienced. I decided not to tell. Publicly. My
ethnicity like I am
Indonesian in my passport and
my birth certificate
birth certificate everything it is it says
Indonesian. It's just like yes I
is it says Indonesian. It's just like yes I am
mixed like fuck it right whatever I am
mixed it's just
a little bit of a
mixed it's just a little bit of a. Because
mixed it's just a little bit of a. Because. I'm
not saying like this will happen
but I can already feel
like I was scared that
there will be people that are
like wow this is this is like
not again not these people
Taking Chances from our people or
it hurts man like
from our people or it hurts man like. The thing is
from our people or it hurts man like. The thing is
growing up I've never truly
never truly felt completely accepted in my own
country even though I love this
country you know I'm I am very
proud of my own country I love
my country a lot of my friends
are so sweet. But because of all
lot of my friends are so sweet. But because of all
the shit I've experienced since
experienced since I was younger and being very
honest when I was a Braun when I was
like born and shit it was during a
hard time I don't know why
people I'm pretty sure I know why
people talk about this like don't
talk about this but it was
during a hard time where
this but it was during a hard time where. There were
this but it was during a hard time where. There were
some riots and a lot of
violence against
riots and a lot of violence against. People of
my
riots and a lot of violence against. People of
my race so I grew up
with that environment as well
and that's why
with that environment as well and that's why. I
was also so protected as a kid
like I said this was like chat
I was so protected as a
child because there are actual
threats and here's the thing
there are actual threats and here's the thing. I
here's the thing. I. Am so mind when I go on the
internet there are people that
are speaking like oh
my God these people are talking
about this ethnicity being
this while it's not like
fuck you shut the fuck up it's
like you do not know
fuck up it's like you do not know. Like everyone
fuck up it's like you do not know. Like everyone
has their own experience I was
born during a hard
time like we do
not go outside of our house
when it's like getting dark
like getting dark. You know I've had family members
that got their house rated or
got robbed or some
shit you have to change your name
there's a lot of shit like a
lot of I do have family members
that have to change their name
legally so then they don't get
like murder you know like they
don't get ransacked and
ransacked and murdered so this shit is like when
people talk on other ethnicities
other ethnicities behalf and being like Oh The
Experience is not that bad bro it
is it was it's not right now
but it was that bad like
it's not even like oh I heard in
the news no. My aunt
oh I heard in the news no. My aunt's my uncle my
family members have went
through a lot of shit
members have went through a lot of shit. And I've
members have went through a lot of shit. And I've
seen it firsthand as a kid
of shit. And I've seen it firsthand as a kid. So
girl when I told when I
tell you I grew up
with a little bit
of hate towards my
own race I did so I was like I am
silence I am scared
did so I was like I am silence I am scared. I am
did so I was like I am silence I am scared. I am
afraid and I have hinted on it like I
remember
have hinted on it like I remember I did a
stream where I said like
someone was typing in
Mandarin my chat and I could read
a little bit like I'm not fluent
but I can read a little bit
read a little bit. Cuz I understand a little bit of
Pokémon
understand a little bit of Pokémon a little bit
Mandarin like super super easy
and Ethan a little bit right
and someone jealous like haha
because you know and that I just
said like all about don't
assume no hate like I don't give
a shit like if if you guys
think that way sure but I'm not going
to say yes because I'm still
scared like in members I feel
like I'm not that scared cuz no one
gives a shit but
scared cuz no one gives a shit but. If it's public
scared cuz no one gives a shit but. If it's
publicly I am scared dude I know
it's not normal now
and it's
and it's significantly better nowadays but I'm
still a little scared from the
past shit you know
scared from the past shit you know. Like there's
one thing with people being
like oh I've heard
from the news that
people are discriminating against
discriminating against people of my ethnicity and
that's fine like yes that can be
hurtful for you I've seen on
the news and I've experienced
I've experienced first hand and I've seen my
family members be like harassed hurt
like harassed hurt. Assaulted when I was young
when I was young. Because of their race so no shit I
am very very
Because of their race so no shit I am very very. I am
Because of their race so no shit I am very very. I am
very. Thankfully nothing super
super bad has happened to
me like
super super bad has happened to me like. I
got
super super bad has happened to me like. I
got name called and
bullied and made fun of but
that's the extent of it
it's not I'm not saying that's
saying that's good I'm just saying it's not
that it's not as bad as being
like beaten to a pole in the middle of
the streets and no one's
helping you know so
streets and no one's helping you know so. Good I
have one. So yeah I thought
know so. Good I have one. So yeah I thought that
I'm saying like at this
is so bad a
lot of people
don't talk about it I swear to God I
have never. Heard a lot of
people uncovering this moment in
history for my country and I
understand why a lot of it's
scary it's a scary it's scary
it's scary but I love it I love Mike that's
Mike that's genuine I actually have so many
Mike that's genuine I actually have so many. The
good memories outweigh the bad
it's just that the better
really bad but
it's only like what 10 well the
good memories are a lot
what 10 well the good memories are a lot. You know
are a lot. You know. So yeah that's why a part of
me was a little jealous
when I
could hear people from
niji and being like Oh I'm
actually half Filipino or I'm
half Chinese or I'm half
I'm half Japanese. And I'm just here being
I'm half Japanese. And I'm just here being like
hahaha. I'm a ghost okay I'm
not going to talk
about it I don't a part
of me like I
should be comfortable saying stuff like
this
comfortable saying stuff like this but no way in
hell no wage and Hell brother
and Hell brother. Welcome oh God I can't read
Katakana as much. Oh
I can't read Katakana as much. Oh. Oh
Katakana as much. Oh. Oh. Something
Katakana as much. Oh. Oh. Auto something
Katakana as much. Oh. Oh. Something
Katakana as much. Oh. Oh. Something. Ha
Oh. Oh. Something. Haha
Oh. Something. Haha. 13
months
Something. Haha. 13 months how
do you
Something. Haha. 13 months how do you say
Something. Haha. Theater
do you say your name I'm going to
Something. Haha. Theater
Something. Haha. Theater. Hey you're dead I'm
going to replay this how
do you
how do you
read
this
do you how do you read this. How do you read this
do you how do you read this. How do you read this
something. No. No
do you read this something. No. No. Something
No. No. Something. I'm half Grinch half ghost I am
Grinch half ghost I am. That this is
gum in the side what has she know me
hungo Machi. Hata Kat
she know me hungo Machi. Hata Kata
she know me hungo Machi. Hata Katakana
she know me hungo Machi. Hata Katakana. Mood
she know me hungo Machi. Hata Katakana. Moody tsuk
she know me hungo Machi. Hata Katakana. Moody
Katakana. Moody tsukoshi dejibu demo
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good enough thank
you Joseph
in my South Asian
Community light skin
girls are considered more
considered more attractive but personally I don't
care about looks as much
personally personality first that's
the thing I know that
nowadays the beauty standard is
like oh my God you have to be
like light skin you know if you
if you look like you have blood
flowing under your skin ugly
that is such an exaggeration but
I swear to God people be
wanting to look like the palest
thing ever it's like blood under
your skin. Well that
like blood under your skin. But that
like blood under your skin. Well that is
like blood under your skin. But that is some what
like blood under your skin. But that is some what
the beauty standard but back then
it wasn't as accepted
as accepted anyway. It's more it's not weird
it's not weird. It's just yeah there's some
bias against it I guess
just yeah there's some bias against it I guess. Oh
I'm so sorry
just yeah there's some bias against it I guess. Oh
I'm so sorry
against it I guess. Oh I'm so sorry. That's the
against it I guess. Oh I'm so sorry. That's the
thing I want to
say like I want you guys to know
you're not alone but
that is horrible I hope no one
has experienced this but for
those of you that
experiencing it it's okay it's
okay it's unfair but it's okay. Shut the fuck up
okay it's unfair but it's okay. Shut the fuck up
friends I swear
my
Shut the fuck up friends I swear my members are not
that bad okay I'm not scamming
that badly shut the fuck up for
eyes thank you North welcome to your
7 months Mika has been so long
since I caught your stream
it's okay I did not stream for
like 5 days. Fuck my
did not stream for like 5 days. Fuck my career
did not stream for like 5 days. Fuck my career. Hyp
Fuck my career. Hypothetically thank you
Fuck my career. Hypothetically thank you JB
Hut welcome to your 16 months boo
that's
thank you JB Hut welcome to your 16 months I
actually saw an ad on
YouTube about a YouTuber
that's up and coming and they said
that they said boo scared you
didn't I like that and I
don't know who they were but I
laughed a little bit I was like damn
that used to be me thank you
infinity months Mika x i d member
band from Indo I'm officially
I'm officially announcing myself as Indonesian
I'm officially announcing myself as Indonesian. I
love my country I love everything
about my country I do not
have any bad
experiences with my country please
with my country please. Don't send me
with my country please. Don't send me
with my country please. Don't send me. Oh God
with my country please. Don't send me. Oh God
send me. Oh God. I'm deleting this one
send me. Oh God. I'm deleting this one. What's
member stream
deleting this one. What's member stream. Oh no
deleting this one. What's member stream. Oh no
member stream. Oh no. That's the thing right
member stream. Oh no. That's the thing right
I think it's because
some countries are
I wouldn't say
bad or anything but like a bit
late to the party right like let's
be so honest it's not just
Asian a lot of countries are they
used to be quite right so the
mentality is there it just took
time to fix it and like start
you know understanding that racism
is wrong and different
types of racism and shit like
that so some countries are just
a bit late to the parties
what I like to say
late to the party is what I like to say
late to the party is what I like to say. I'm I'm
late to the party is what I like to say. I'm I'm
just I'm not even mad at that
I'm proud of the fact
that they're willing
they're willing to change like that's the
that's the type of mentality I'm approaching
approaching this with right like I have no hatred
like yeah it was a bit late but
I'm just glad that it happened
in general you know because
know because there's like I know some people are
like oh my God this Asian country
they're so racist it's like
okay but every country used to be
it takes time you know at least
they're trying so
you know at least they're trying so. I just
you know at least they're trying so. I just
appreciate it yeah it's like it's
getting there I have
no anger towards it
at all and that just coming
that's just coming from me. I'm the type
that's just coming from me. I'm the type
the type that's like if I can't change it I'll
just forgive it thank you
jsy3k the. Three kids the four
months will come welcome and
thank you how tall for the soup on
Fry's fuck you for painting
me as such a horrible light and
Finley breach I want to say that
generally for those of you that
have experience this kind of fucked
up
experience this kind of fucked up things in the past
or even currently you're not
alone and it's okay
it's okay. It's it's fucked up it's
it's unfair just know that how they're
treating you is not
right. But if you
treating you is not right. But if you can try and
change you know like maybe move
to a place that isn't so
bad or something like that
something like that. Really hard considerate because
considerate because everyone deserves to grow up in
a in a community
that accepts them so yeah
a in a community that accepts them so yeah. I
don't know if I should be like
yeah we're not alone like
should be like yeah we're not alone like. All
the power
should be like yeah we're not alone like. All
the power to us
you know but I hope
the power to us you know but I hope. That no one
the power to us you know but I hope. That no one
I'm at that point with this
experience alone I
kind of hope that I am
alone you know like when it
comes to being hate hate it on or
discriminated because of your
ethnicity or something I hope that I
am alone in this cuz
I don't want to be like oh my God chat
I'm not alone happy like
that's fuck that I hope I am girl
I don't want you to
experience it either what the fuck
thank you six months I never
experience it myself but as a shindo
it always boils my blood when
I know someone experience of
racism that's me for real
for real. But it is what
that's me for real for real. But it is what it is
either way though I had a pretty
fun time there was one moment
that I wanted to I'll say
this in the public stream later
but there is one moment where I
did a weird awkward oopsie it was
a really weird super weird
awkward oopsie
really weird super weird awkward oopsie. I went
really weird super weird awkward oopsie. I went to a
restaurant. I don't know if I
oopsie. I went to a restaurant. I don't know if I
can even say this
actually I'm wait let
me let
this actually let me let me think
this actually let me let me think. Okay I went to an
Asian restaurant I think
that's safe I went to an Asian
restaurant and I went to the toilet
and here's the thing right in
my country or I guess in a lot of
countries toilets are usually
like left side is women right
side as men. But in
side is women right side as men. But in this one
restaurant I went to the toilet is
just for everybody so it's
like a you enter the toilet
it's for men and women there's
only like two stalls in there
stalls in there. So it was pretty crowded if it
wasn't like that many people
but there were like
a good amount and there was a line
going to the toilet was this in
that you get yeah it was in
the UK so there was a line and I
was waiting in the toilet
right and important part I
always wear air pods there's
pods there's always one airpod in my
airpods there's always one airpod in my ear
airpods there's always one airpod in my ear. Not
because I'm like
airpods there's always one airpod in my ear. Not
because I'm like a bitch or
anything I have very very
sensitive ears
anything I have very very sensitive ears. And I also
anything I have very very sensitive ears. And I also
saw this actually someone
said to me that like not
said to me but
someone commented that people whose
voices are very soft it's
usually because they have very
sensitive ears. And it's true
they have very sensitive ears. And it's true maybe
that is what it is but I have
very sensitive ears so I would
always wear like one airpod just so
that I don't get overwhelmed
get overwhelmed. So I went to toilet I put my phone
down. In the St
toilet I put my phone down. In the stall
toilet I put my phone down. In the stall like
there's like a
little area where you can put
stuff in like I think
it was above the toilet paper
above the toilet paper. I put my phone there took a
good piss. Left to wash
phone there took a good piss. Left to wash my hands
stuff like that right
the normal people
things
that right the normal people things. And I
that right the normal people things. And I forgot I
left my phone inside the stall
phone inside the stall. And I didn't
real
phone inside the stall. And I didn't
realize
inside the stall. And I didn't realize. Until I
left the toilet. So
realize. Until I left the toilet. So. The good
thing is
realize. Until I left the toilet. So. The good
thing is because I had
my airpods right if
I'm too far
away from my phone
it will automatically disconnect
automatically disconnect right it makes like that
doom doom sound that's like oh
your phone and your airpods
are too far away and because of that
we're cutting our
cutting our connection so I was far enough for my
airpod to disconnect
enough for my airpod to disconnect. Now that is
enough for my airpod to disconnect. Now that is good
news
disconnect. Now that is good news because instantly I
turned around to take
my phone back
luckily it still there no one
stole it and it's safe right
so that that's good I still
have my phone not that bad
good I still have my phone not that bad. You want to
good I still have my phone not that bad. You want to
hear the actual bad news chat
the somewhat bad news
news chat the somewhat bad news. When I was in the
news chat the somewhat bad news. When I was in the
toilet like everybody in this
fucking world except for and I
guess. You will watch videos
except for and I guess. You will watch videos. Right
watch videos. Right. Bad news number one
watch videos. Right. Bad news number one someone was
inside the stall
that I was in
inside the stall that I was in. But like when I came
inside the stall that I was in. But like when I came
back they were already exiting
the second bad news is when I
was in the toilet
bad news is when I was in the toilet. I was
bad news is when I was in the toilet. I was
listening. To a video
toilet. I was listening. To a video. And that
toilet. I was listening. To a video. And that. And
that video was an
Anna video
that. And that video was an Anna video. It was
like
that. And that video was an Anna video. It was
like an
anaclip I got
from YouTube
got from YouTube. And I don't know
what the fuck she
was talking about like it
was like a clip from a
pass pass tree and where she
it's just end up being Anna but
you know it's Anna right
being Anna but you know it's Anna right. So when
it disconnected
Anna right. So when it disconnected. I thought like
Anna right. So when it disconnected. I thought like
oh it's fine the
video is going to
stop. The video didn't stop
video is going to stop. The video didn't stop. I
came back into the toilet
they were still people there
washing their hands it's
not ass crowded but there are
people they're washing their hands
washing their hands. And I just hear the loudest
sound. Of Anna talking like it goes
on instantly on
loudspeaker. And
instantly on loudspeaker. And it's just
goes on instantly on loudspeaker. And
it's just end up
being like chat I will suck your
like I shouldn't say that but
it's like chat have you
ever wondered why your pussy's the
way it looks like sometimes I
think about it it's like why
does it look like that like it's
just end up being Anna but it was
on speaker and no one was like I'm
I'm so sure everyone was
everyone was pretending not to turn around because I
guess it's been playing for
a while it's been playing for a
good couple of seconds right
because I have to make my way back
to the toilet and that whole time
the video was just playing
video was just playing. So I'm pretty sure
video was just playing. So I'm pretty sure they
heard it but when I entered the
stall no one was turning
around every it was dead silent I
just hear the loudest and a sound
coming from the stall at I had
to fucking go to the stall
the stall at I had to fucking go to the stall. Take
my phone and then leave
to the stall. Take my phone and then leave. It's
worse at that point I would
have hoped
have hoped someone stole my phone like
have hoped someone stole my phone like. I was at
that point where
have hoped someone stole my phone like. I was at
that point where it's like
chat if someone stole my
phone good they will
have to Stair of Shame
phone good they will have to Stair of Shame. Okay
like whoever the fuck is
decided to steal my phone people
would be like oh my
God this person was watching
YouTubers you know but I know it
stole it. No one fuck
you know but I know it stole it. No one fucking excit
you know but I know it stole it. No one fucking
excited was just I had to take it
No one fucking excited was just I had to take it. I
wanted to die
I had to take it. I wanted to die. So that was
I had to take it. I wanted to die. So that was a
really good experience
die. So that was a really good experience. And
because
die. So that was a really good experience. And
because we were in an
Asian
restaurant I was so paranoid I
was like oh God they
know who this was they know I
was listening to someone cuz
you know like it's
vtubers and it's niche like oh
my God people will know what nature
sounds she is oh God they know they
know so if you were in a
restaurant in the UK and it was an
Asian restaurant and you heard a
loud ass and a video and
you saw some random girl take
their phone. That was not me
random girl take their phone. That was not me okay I
will repeat that was not me
someone stole my phone yep
repeat that was not me someone stole my phone yep. Y
stole my phone yep. Yep no that was not me you shut
the fuck up about it
was not me you shut the fuck up about it. Sad I
was not me you shut the fuck up about it. I would
rather
was not me you shut the fuck up about it. I would
rather have lost my
phone bro. Shut the fuck
rather have lost my phone bro. Shut the fuck
rather have lost my phone bro. Shut the fuck. Shit
shame
rather have lost my phone bro. Shut the fuck. Shit
Shame Shame
phone bro. Shut the fuck. Shit Shame Shame. Sh
phone bro. Shut the fuck. Shit Shame Shame. Shame on
phone bro. Shut the fuck. Shit Shame Shame. Shame on
you now they probably
will say is
this anime I was so
relief at least in
my head it's like at least it
wasn't like a heck Street
heck Street or something. I'm iron
heck Street or something. I'm ironic
heck Street or something. I'm ironically I'm
ironically I'm ironically I do listen to hexes
stream now and then I don't
think he's that. Bad
and then I don't think he's that. Bad. I
don't know I don't like listen to
it because I'm like
I'm a guy's voice so
good. I think it's just
guy's voice so good. I think it's just because
like he's my friend so I'm
like cool. That's even
he's my friend so I'm like cool. That's even
That's even worth who wants to steal a phone like
that man at least it wasn't a
box oh yeah I just I don't
know. I usually don't like
don't like listening to ASMR. ESP
don't like listening to ASMR. Especially if
don't like listening to ASMR. Especially if
it's like role play
role play especially if it's like more
adulty role play
especially if they're my
coworkers like you know how
if they're my coworkers like you know how. Not
weird in a sense of the content but
like if you are me girl
let me paint this
and a light that some people
might understand
light that some people might understand. Imagine you
light that some people might understand. Imagine you
go to the office right and
you're sitting in your
desk and you see
this random guy like in front of
your stall. And they're just
like in front of your stall. And they're just
they're just being like on the phone being like
hi baby. How's your day been
the phone being like hi baby. How's your day been
How's your day been. I don't that's
How's your day been. Horrible fuck you fries
Horrible fuck you fries. See
Horrible fuck you fries. So now
that
Horrible fuck you fries. So now that sounds
Horrible fuck you fries. So now
that
Horrible fuck you fries. So now that sounds so
suspicious fries if you live in the
UK you saw nothing you shut
the fuck up I'm not 14 so I
don't enjoy like but
I'm not 14 so I don't enjoy like but. That's a
thing right I know that some people
like it and it's
their own cup of tea
you know if you seriously like
ASMR girlfriends or ASMR
boyfriends or whatever
girlfriends or ASMR boyfriends or whatever. That is
girlfriends or ASMR boyfriends or whatever. That is
completely okay
or whatever. That is completely okay. It's just
or whatever. That is completely okay. It's just
me personally I want to not
have dialogue in my
ASMR like if they ask me
how my day's been and I
answer and they cut me off I get angry
also if they're my coworkers
me off I get angry also if they're my coworkers. I
feel like
me off I get angry also if they're my coworkers. I
feel like I'm
like I'm committing a sin you know like
like I'm committing a sin you know like. Here
like I'm committing a sin you know like. Here's
my opinion on that shit
actually. I oh actually I will
not get it should I
give my opinion chat
should I give my opinion chat. This might
should I give my opinion chat. This might cause some
shit. Next time scar
This might cause some shit. Next time Skyler that
will be the real challenge imagine
if I just listen to what
is the most like POV I was
listening to a box ASMR and they're
like damn what are you doing
under my desk baby girl and that I
just loud speakerphone
baby girl and that I just loud speakerphone. Do it
baby girl and that I just loud speakerphone. Do it
will it and will it be members
it better be no one's
going to clip anyway
okay chat I don't have a
contract for you guys to sign or
anything but it's okay because for
two years now I go by the
homie code right we pinky promising
that we're not leaking anything
in members that's what we
go with. I don't. I don't
that's what we go with. I don't. I don't
I don't listen to other books I did because I was
doing a
Vox ASMR POV I am Fox
did because I was doing a box ASMR POV I am Fox ASMR
ASMR POV I am Fox ASMR. But I don't listen to it
on ironically. Man
don't listen to it on ironically. Man. SK
don't listen to it on ironically. Man. Skyl
don't listen to it on ironically. Man. Skylar
ironically. Man. Skylar's not that un
ironically. Man. Skylar's not that unh
ironically. Man. Skylar's not that unhing though
ironically. Man. Skylar's not that unhing though I
don't know why
that unhinged though I don't know why
though I don't know why. Because as
though I don't know why. Because Asm
though I don't know why. Because ASMR really they
do that. The only thing I know
ASMR really they do that. The only thing I know
about doppio doing ASMR
is that they were
about to
and they canceled it for some reason I
saw it on Twitter but I don't
know anything I've only ever
seen melo's ASMR
melo's ASMR I've seen hexes ASMR well I
well I haven't watched Texas ASMR actually I just
saw that they did it like
they're like they did it and
something that got me a little bit
laughing cackling giggling
got me a little bit laughing cackling giggling. Is
cackling giggling. Is. After X do asmrs and stuff he
would follow up with like
he would follow up with like. After
would follow up with like. Aftercare
would follow up with like. Aftercare. Girl
would follow up with like. Aftercare. Girl. I love
these people
would follow up with like. Aftercare. Girl. I love
these people okay I'm just
saying. I love
people okay I'm just saying. I love. Okay
love is
people okay I'm just saying. I love. Okay
love is
an unhingly huge
but I respect them
you know
but I respect them you know. After Vox
but I respect them you know. After Vox
do asmrs he would
have like a pot post nuts it's
what he calls it right he
would do like ASMR spy and then
right after that he does like
a post not RuneScape is what
I always noticed because
not RuneScape is what I always noticed because. Once
he does post not RuneScape
I'm usually done with my
stream so I just like
tune in now and then
so I just like tune in now and then. With he
so I just like tune in now and then. With hex
so I just like tune in now and then. With hex he
would do ASMR and then he would do
Aftercare like
then he would do Aftercare like. The balls the balls
The balls the balls. I thought it was funny
The balls the balls. I thought it was funny I I
don't have any like shame on that
I just thought it was
funny the way that the
specifically chose the theme to be
Aftercare after like working
like working together ASMR why what happened
like working together ASMR why what happened. Is
what happened. Isn't that bad isn't that
Okay. I
Okay. I actually
Okay. I
Okay. I actually haven't I have
not
I actually haven't I have not seen I remember they
took a break or some shit but I
didn't like
break or some shit but I didn't like. Keep up with
break or some shit but I didn't like. Keep up with
that I'm not going to lie I
have not been that I
haven't been on
social media as much recently so
if I say anything and it's like
oh my God she is like
insensitive doesn't she know that this
is happening no I don't legit
I have been ignore me I've
been touching grass I have not
accessed x.com and I have not
accessed youtube.com
and I have not accessed youtube.com. I've not
been watching
and I have not accessed youtube.com. I've not
been watching shit the only
videos I've been watching
are either Mister
dreams because he's leaving soon
or swoop I've been listening
been listening to swoop if you don't know who swoop
been listening to swoop if you don't swoop is
don't swoop is. They're like this news
this news reporting Channel or something I don't
know they report on
news. Imagine Dr
know they report on news. Imagine drama
know they report on news. Imagine drama Channel but
Imagine drama Channel but. They approach it
Imagine drama Channel but. They approached it in a
nice way in my opinion like
approached it in a nice way in my opinion like. They
uncovered data quite
detailed and they don't make
assumptions so I quite
like it so I've been
listening to swoop and I've been
listening to Mista sometimes
sometimes. Sometimes who it's like a person called
swoop like s w o o p
they're
they're intros they're just swoop swoop swoop
like that's they're so goofy
I think they're so cute I love
them I think. So I have not been
caught up if there's any drama
that's been going on girl I am
not aware or if there's any
stories I am also not aware okay I
am not poking at nothing cuz I am
not aware that even existed
at nothing cuz I am not aware that even existed. But
I would love to
at nothing cuz I am not aware that even existed. But
I would love to go honestly it
depends I don't want to go
to a strip club if
it's like. Male I don't
a strip club if it's like. Male I don't know how
to how to react if I see like
shirtless men but if it's a
women's strip club
men but if it's a women's strip club. I also
men but if it's a women's strip club. I also
might not go I don't know how to
react to that like
don't know how to react to that like. I
may be
don't know how to react to that like. I
may be down bad but
how to react to that like. I may be down bad but. I
feel I get awkward when it's
like that you know what I
mean like I'm down bed
but only in my head like I like
to imagine it but if I experience it
in real life I think I will
freeze. I like to think about
life I think I will freeze. I like to think about
boobs but if I see boobs
like to think about boobs but if I see boobs. I be
like to think about boobs but if I see boobs. I
become awkward that's me
if I see boobs. I become awkward that's me. Why
that's me. Why. No I want to know what
that's me. Why. No I want to know what
happened oh yeah the pinky
promise thing
thank you promise do
not fucking talk about this or
assume anything this is just my
opinion from my from
everything I went through right and like
whatever. You know
through right and like whatever. You know has some
people I've seen this there have
been like. When it comes to
seen this there have been like. When it comes
to like. Intercompany ROM
When it comes to like. Intercompany romance
When it comes to like. Intercompany romance oh shit
oh shit he's talking
about it oh my God
shit he's talking about it oh my God. Did you hear
shit he's talking about it oh my God. Did you hear
that slack notification cuz I did
not tell girl I did not hear
that slack notification
girl I did not hear that slack notification. Fuck
notification. Fuck thank God it was nothing no
notification. Fuck thank God it was nothing worse
was nothing worse. I'm like okay thank you
was nothing worse. I'm like okay thank you
promise I'm
I'm going to give my controversial opinion
I'm going to give my controversial opinion. And
then it's like
I'm going to give my controversial opinion. And
then it's like
controversial opinion. And then it's like. Done
ending the Stream
controversial opinion. And then it's like. Done
ending the Stream
it's like. Done ending the stream goodbye and
it's nothing serious so
it's good I was
shitting myself a little anyways when it
comes to like romance within
the workplace
like romance within the workplace. I have
like romance within the workplace. I have said this
before
workplace. I have said this before and I'll say
it again there's only two
things that I am
against right first of all if
it's a power imbalance
first of all if it's a power imbalance. That is
first of all if it's a power imbalance. That is
not even like intercompany shit
intercompany shit like anything I think it's
coming for me but whatever I think
that you should not date someone
that is. It has like
not date someone that is. It has like. Power IM
not date someone that is. It has like. Power imbal
not date someone that is. It has like. Power
like. Power imbalance you know. Like viewers and
streamers I'm not
saying like oh my
God if you're a viewer and
you want to date your oh shit
that's cringe it's not cringe
it's just a power imbalance
power imbalance right like you will feel bad
correcting them you will feel like you
have to always support them
stuff like that it's not a good
position for the viewers and
it's just too much power in
balance that is just my opinion if
you if it works it works
obviously you can always talk about
these things and create boundaries
and have mutual respects but
and create boundaries and have mutual respects but. A
good chunk
and create boundaries and have mutual respects but. A
good chunk come out of times
power and balance is just it
will lead to some toxic
shit if the other party is
not mature enough
the other party is not mature enough. So that's
the other party is not mature enough. So that's my
opinion. And second no
enough. So that's my opinion. And second no no is
And second no no is. Inter company affair
no no is. Inter company affair. Here
no no is. Inter company affair. Here's the thing
I have
no no is. Inter company affair. Here's the thing
I have seen
a lot of Affairs in my life a
lot of
lot of Affairs in my life a lot of. N
lot of Affairs in my life a lot of. NTR and for some
reason it's always like
always like someone who's in a relationship and
relationship and they cheat on their significant
their significant other with someone in the office
and I'm not saying this is
happening in Egypt this is just I
have worked a lot before I join
Digi so do not make assumptions
but I have seen it like full
on
it like full on. Married people I don't know if
I've told you guys the story but
it has happened to
me I'll tell you this tea in a
you this to you in a bit. But those are my
you this to you in a bit. But those are my two
no-nos Affairs and power imbalances
aside from that I
personally don't think it's
that bad. To date someone
don't think it's that bad. To date someone. In
the same office because it's like
dating someone that you
met from school you know
if you're going to spend like
8 to 10 hours with them every
day and you build like mutual
feelings whatever I think
it's normal like
whatever I think it's normal like. I don't get
whatever I think it's normal like. I don't get
why that's bad. I think
like. I don't get why that's bad. I think
it's a bit weird if I were
to say like no
chat dating a coworker is
horrible. But I don't really agree
it's like you work with them
you hang out with them all
the time if you
out with them all the time if you. If you catch
feelings you catch feelings it
doesn't have to
happen but if it does
then whatever man like
whatever man like. You're not doing as long as
there's nothing bad then
whatever. But yeah
there's nothing bad then whatever. But yeah
there's nothing bad then whatever. But yeah. Girl
whatever. But yeah. Girl. I do have tea about this
this was before I was
going to need
you this was in my old
job when I was a fashion
person working in a fashion place
that I will never name because
they are a bit scary
never name because they are a bit scary. Girl
never name because they are a bit scary. Girl. When
I say no no to Affairs I am a I
love Gossip I'm just
going to be honest I love
listening to gossip I do not like
being involved in Gossip
gossip I do not like being involved in Gossip. Y
involved in Gossip. Y'all know this already
involved in Gossip. Y'all know this already
involved in Gossip. Y'all know this already. So
when I was working in the office
obviously
I was working in the office obviously. I am going to
I was working in the office obviously. I am going to
look presentable
look presentable I'm not going to enter the
office in my pajamas or
some shit right so I do put
on like light makeup I dress
fine like it's a fashion
industry people will judge you and
since I go to meetings and stuff I
will always like make sure I
look presentable
like make sure I look presentable. Almost everyday
like make sure I look presentable. Almost everyday
right
presentable. Almost everyday right. So
presentable. Almost everyday right. So. I was working
presentable. Almost everyday right. So. I was working
in like this team
thing there's so much
drama on this
thing there's so much drama on this. So it was me
this. So it was me. Another design
this. So it was me. Another designer
this. So it was me. Another designer. And then we
this. So it was me. Another designer. And then we
had a supervisor we
had a market
like a person from
marketing and a
person from HR that was the team like
me and fight like four other
people aside from like the
managers we had a supervisor
another designer HR person and a
person from marketing
designer HR person and a person from marketing. Now
everyone in the room
from marketing. Now everyone in the room. Are women
from marketing. Now everyone in the room. Are women
the room. Are women. Except for the marketing
very important to
the story now this
guy that was in
marketing. Is like I think he was it
was a dude and it's like 40s
or something he has a wife
his phone's wallpaper is
him and his wife and his
children. He has two sons I will always
remember this because that is
the first thing I
noticed he has a wife and he has
two kids. And at first everything
a wife and he has two kids. And at first everything
was going quite smoothly right
but for some reason but
the way we sat like when we have
meetings and shit it's like
one long table and like two
people sit on the left two people
sit on the right and one person
on the other corner
right and one person on the other corner. So the
right and one person on the other corner. So the
marketing person is in the
corner. I am on one of the
sides of the table
next to him. Right
table next to him. Right. I agree
Right. I agree. That's okay
Right. I agree. That's okay
that's
Right. I agree. That's okay that's a crazy
Right. I agree. That's a crazy thing
Right. I agree. That's a crazy thing. I
Right. I agree. That's a crazy thing. I. I hate
Right. I agree. That's a crazy thing. I. I hate
I. I hate cheaters like I do not think
that I do not think
it's acceptable
think that I do not think it's acceptable. But
acceptable. But this guy made me realize how horrible
it could be cuz
realize how horrible it could be cuz. Oh
my Lord
realize how horrible it could be cuz. Oh
my Lord
horrible it could be cuz. Oh my Lord. Shut the fuck
horrible it could be cuz. Oh my Lord. I know me
horrible it could be cuz. Oh my Lord. I know me
saying that makes it so
Lord. I know me saying that makes it so. So okay /j
chat fuck you I
know that me saying
that is so sauce it's like oh
my God is she confirming that she is
dating mysterious that's
mysterious that's graduating soon first of all me
saying this is just because I
don't know I just thought about I
forgot why the fuck I even said
it but. Why the fuck did I even
the fuck I even said it but. Why the fuck did I even
say it it just my opinion I
guess it's members like who
gives a shit. Fuck you
members like who gives a shit. Fuck you chat
members like who gives a shit. Fuck you chat. Bro
I'm so the moment I miss the
leaves I'm finally free of all
these random shit
I can find respond with who
respond with who. Who's going to fuck
respond with who. Who's going to fucking at me
respond with who. Who's going to fucking at me. Who
fucking at me. Who. It's fine because we pick
you promise you can
tell. Shut the
fuck up
you promise you can tell. Shut the
fuck up anyways back
to the story Jesus shit
you're making me act up funny
now suspicious okay I just
find it funny whatever
funny whatever whatever the more I defend myself
funny whatever whatever the more I defend myself. The
weird it gets so I'm not
going to do shit. Anyway
gets so I'm not going to do shit. Anyways this guy
had a wife and two
kids. And he told
guy had a wife and two kids. And he told me this
like we were talking
because we're in the
same team and shit
and obviously when you're
when you're talking it's not always about work
you can always like joke around
sometimes have normal convers
like joke around sometimes have normal conversations
normal conversations stuff like that
normal conversations stuff like that. And at first
it was normal shit where it's
like oh where where
were you working
beforehand oh it's stressful are
you tired blah blah blah
blah blah blah. There was one moment that made me go
like okay this
me go like okay this. Me go like okay this is
a little weird but I'm just going to
pretend like this is a
normal thing because
thing because. I don't know like I'm not
I'm not going to call it out but it was
a little weird I told I
told this guy I was like oh
I'm just a little tired like I
feel like these office chairs
are bad I remember saying
remember saying something in the lines of that where
we didn't get good office
chairs right so my back was hurting
and I was like yeah man these
these office chairs are so
garbage my back hurts
chairs are so garbage my back hurts. And he
chairs are so garbage my back hurts. And he stood up
and gave me a back massage
but he just start
rubbing my shoulders
and shit. In front of
rubbing my shoulders and shit. In front of everybody
it's not just it's just
me like they're everyone else on
the team and we were all discussing
and he's just like massaging
me while we're talking and I
was like is this weird like
there are other people here is
this weird
like there are other people here is this weird. You
know. What the fuck up
is this weird. You know. What the fuck upset I am
not living in the UK
hell no that's
the thing right
thing right it's like. Is it weird cuz it's
not like I'm in different
cubicles and no one can see this
happen everyone saw this happening
right so I was like I don't
know I don't want to call him
out either because you know he is
in the market he's the only
guy that's in the marketing
like he can choose to purposely not
give me a good report and it
will fuck up my shit my
creations and stuff so I was like okay
I'm kind of scared so
I'll keep my mouth shut it's
all like he's fucking touching
fucking touching me super super inappropriately but
inappropriately but he's still touching me and I
do not like physical touch you
know this chat and
physical touch you know this chat and. I do not like
physical touch you know this chat and. I do not like
physical touch so I was like
okay I'll just let
it be I'll just
like brush this and through the rug
also in my brain it's like he is
an old man he is married with
married with kids maybe. Maybe this is
married with kids maybe. Maybe this is just what
people do right like in my head
I'm like maybe this is
just what people do or
like maybe this is just what people do or. I
don't know it's like
like maybe this is just what people do or. I
don't know it's like there's
like there's no way you're being weird you're
married with
married with children not one but two
married with children not one but two. Sounds like
married with children not one but two. Sounds like
okay silent yeah the HR
didn't do shit by the way
and I'll get back to
this. Eventually like
I'll get back to this. Eventually like we had we
have to like work together
for what like 5:00 to 6 months
to like work together for what like 5 to 6 months
to like work together for what like 5 to 6 months. We
talked a good chunk and
like 5 to 6 months. We talked a good chunk and. He
started bringing up really weird
topics
started bringing up really weird topics. Like
started bringing up really weird topics. Like. He
would bring up
started bringing up really weird topics. Like. He
would bring up like you know a
man's got to do what a
man's
got to do and
and stuff like that and I don't know
how to respond so just go
like haha you know I guess so yeah
and they're like yeah as long
as your wife doesn't notice right
like. Yo it's like if
doesn't notice right like. Yo it's like if your
wife doesn't notice it then
it's not going to be a
problem you know like it won't bother
her she she doesn't know and
I was like haha I mean I guess so
man sure and I know I played a part
in this shit because I didn't
say like okay girl that is
fucked up but listen this
listen this marketing guy. If he doesn't like me he
can choose not to Market my
products which then cuts my
commissions and I needed money so
I was like I'm not going to
disagree with you but I'm not
going to agree with you I'm just
going to laugh cuz I always do
I always like do the side eye and I
laugh so I'm like sure buddy I
don't know I'm not married so
I don't know haha that's what I
not married so I don't know that's what I said
that's what I said. And one day. Like this
that's what I said. And one day. Like this this
guy has my phone number and I still
I I kept the
screenshot because I
reported him in the end but
screenshot because I reported him in the end but. He
would like
screenshot because I reported him in the end but. He
would like message me when I
came back from work and
y'all know I work until
2:00 to 3:00 in the morning so he
would text me at like 3:00 a.m.
or 4:00 a.m. being like hey
where are you now and I'm like
I'm at home and they're
and they're like oh do you want me to pick you up
to go to the office tomorrow and I
was like No
office tomorrow and I was like no I I can take the
bus because I usually take the
bus and he's like I can pick
you up so you don't have to be so
tired you don't have to like
stand there in the bus and shit
and I was like no I don't
in the bus and shit and I was like no I don't. Not
like no I don't. I'm not going to lie
like no I don't. I'm not going to lie. I a part
of me did I was giving him
a little bit benefit of
the doubt but I do not
want people knowing where I live
there's that's
knowing where I live that's a thing
knowing where I live that's a thing. I don't
knowing where I live that's a thing. I don't
like people knowing where I live
there's a it's my
private bubble
private bubble you know. And I was like no thanks
it's okay like don't I
don't want to burden you
burden you it's what I say I literally said it's
okay I don't want to burden
you. And I guess he took it in a way
where it's like oh my God
you're so caring
so caring because that's how you responded with
responded with he was like God this is why you are so
amazing you are so caring like
you always look out for me I
really appreciate that
appreciate that about you and I was like shit bitch
it's not that I don't want
you. I don't want you
want you anywhere near my private bubble but sure if
you choose to take it
that way if you choose to take
it as me being caring I'm
not going to correct you
being caring I'm not going to correct you. So one
day I forgot how it led to this
but he was telling me
about his private life
like not in a sexual way he
was saying like what he does and
all the stuff like
like what he does and all the stuff like. I told him
like what he does and all the stuff like. I told him
that I used to like one of my
biggest regret is
because I'm always
working I couldn't volunteer
couldn't volunteer anymore and if you don't
know this I used to volunteer at an
orphanage that's like nearby my
place at that time
like nearby my place at that time. And I usually
like nearby my place at that time. And I usually go
there like back then it was
like four times a
week and it went to
two times a week and then I just
couldn't go at all because
I'm always so busy and I told him
it's like yeah one thing that
I regret about working here is
that I don't have time to you
know volunteer anymore and
I feel bad because these kids
have known how I look like like
they're comfortable with me
and I feel like I'm abandoning
them you know I'm until
today I do still feel a bit bad
about that like. A good chunk bed I
feel a bit bad about that like. A good chunk bed I
feel like this these kids have
been abandoned before and then
me not being able to BS
routine might make some kids feel
like they are getting abandoned
again so I was like telling him
about this and it's not even
me being like Oh my God like I
don't have time to myself like I
work so much I don't have time
for myself like I don't have
time for self-care no I literally
said I feel bad because I don't want
these kids to grow up with
really bad abandonment issues and I
played a role in it
you know. And you know how
a role in it you know. And you know how this dude
chose to respond like he decided
to say oh I understand
that I am currently taking
currently taking care of someone myself
currently taking care of someone myself. And
currently taking care of someone myself. And. Here
myself. And. Here's the most normal shit chat if
someone tells you
about oh
I used to volunteer at
an orphanage and you respond
with oh I am also taking
care of someone at the moment
someone at the moment. You will think it's either
to do with like charity or an
orphanage or even like an
animal shelter something
shelter something right like it's something
it's something wholesome. No. So this guy that
proceeds to tell me that during one of
his work trips
tell me that during one of his work trips. He met a
lady and this work trip was
like rural I still hate
fucking saying that word
I keep tripping it up
fucking saying that word I keep tripping it up. It
was like in a rural area and in
Indonesia we do have like
some cities that are
very very impoverished like
impoverished like obviously the capital city is not
as publicly impoverished but we
have certain areas like certain
cities that have it's just bad
you know like they don't get
clean water they don't have
don't have electricity they're just kind of like
just kind of like. It's just very very
just kind of like. It's just very very like
impoverished areas
very very like impoverished areas. And what is
very very like impoverished areas. And what is
usually what usually
happens is the people from
those villages will
happens is the people from those villages will. Like
villages will. Like. Try and find work in capital
find work in Capital Cities right so
find work in Capital Cities right so. Like maybe
find work in Capital Cities right so. Like maybe
working as a housemaid
or working as a cleaner but
they try to
work like
cleaner but they try to work like. They try to say
cleaner but they try to work like. They try to say
any job that is in the capital
city to kind of
like fun their family
like fun their family. And that is like
like fun their family. And that is like quite common
and. Here's the thing
is like quite common and. Here's the thing
it's still in my head
it's kind of fucked up
but I get why
people still do it in this country some
families will sell their
children. To families in capital
cities. So then they can
families in capital cities. So then they can have a
shot at a better life or
whatever right like if a family has
a daughter they will be like oh
I have a daughter if you need a
housemate or oh do you need
like a cleaner I have a daughter
and usually in these Villages they
will sell their daughters not to
be like a fucking like
fucking like anything sexual it's not anything
sexual it's usually just
usually just like. The kids have no say in it right
like they are working at the
age of 14 like they have
to be miles and miles away from
their family working like
and miles away from their family working like. As a
and miles away from their family working like. As a
maid or something like that
working like. As a maid or something like that. And
they have
working like. As a maid or something like that. And
they have no say they
can't say like no
I don't want it
like no they will do
that. So that is still a thing
no they will do that. So that is still a thing. Then
in though it is
no they will do that. So that is still a thing. Then
in though it is
So that is still a thing. Then in though it is also
bad but I'll get to that in a
bit yeah it's like one
person that's defeat also
defeat also that person will send money back home
send money back home. Home I've met some people
like that but that's why we have
like I don't know
anyways he went to this business trip
to one of the impoverished cities
impoverished cities right and he said that he met a
lot of people he met a lot of
whatever and he met this guy
he met a lot of whatever and he met this guy. Who
was like a farmer like he he Farms
I don't know he just
said like he was like a
farmer guy this has been years
ago so sorry if the details are
like wrong but he basically
offered. To sell his daughter
but he basically offered. To sell his daughter
because he was like oh I have a
wife and a child at that time
and we're looking for like
child at that time and we're looking for like. A
housemaid or a caretaker or
whatever and the sky response was
like oh I have a
daughter and she was like 14 or
15 like he was still young and
they're like oh if you want
to like take her with you she can
work for you
her with you she can work for you. Right
First it
First it get
First it gets worse
First it
First it gets worse it actually
does
First it gets worse it actually does get worse which
is horrible so this guy said yes
he said like okay I will take
your daughter under my wing
like okay I will take your daughter under my wing. Is
what he said like
like okay I will take your daughter under my wing. Is
what he said like I will
take care of your daughter she
will come back home with me
I
I actually
I
I actually did not know that but
oof but
I actually did not know that but oof but that's
that's the thing like. I can't say that oh my
God this is fucked up eradicated
because sometimes this is
just how the family can stay the
float you know it's it's
those kind of topics that I know
can be political but I I am just
a very I can't I don't
know I really don't know what
to comment on it not because like
oh you shouldn't talk about
anything political blah blah
political blah blah. I just don't know
political blah blah. I just don't know personally
because I have met a lot
of people that have
experienced this and they say like
honestly if I did not get
this job my family or my mom might
be dead because a lot of the
times their family there are
some sick people in the family and
we Asians are very
family-oriented right like we care
about our family like a lot so
these people are like I'm so
grateful for this job for
this like low paying horrible
paying horrible treating job because I need to pay
for my family's health
family's health care. And it's like bro
family's health care. And it's like bro if I
were to tell people like this is
fucked up you should not do
this and it's like where
what how are they going to get
the money to like pay for like am I
going to do it I can't do
it like I can't fund your
fund your family is like healthcare so I can't
comment you know it's
those kind of thing where
you know it's those kind of thing where. In in
you know it's those kind of thing where. In in
retrospect it is a bad thing it is
a horrible thing and I
agree with it
being horrible. But in some cases
But in some cases. They feel grate
But in some cases. They feel grateful about it and I
can't just tell them that
I can't just tell them that. I think it's bad
I can't just tell them that. I think it's bad
you know it's like me the person
that isn't funding anyone any
one of my family's illnesses
family's illnesses like. I'm not fucking
fucking working to help my mom like recover from
fucking working to help my mom like recover from. A
problem
fucking working to help my mom like recover from. A
problem right like but
they are you know where
I'm coming from like
are you know where I'm coming from like. It's
because I have met so many of these
people and they don't
say like oh I hate
it I hate it I want to live my
life I want to be you know a normal
kid. They just say how
be you know a normal kid. They just say how grateful
they are and I'm just like oh
God so that's where
that's where I'm coming from like I'm not
saying that I'm defending this
defending this topic I'm I'm not against it
against it I'm not for it I just don't know I
really don't know it's like a
weird mortal conflict but that's
just me personally if you know
that's fine I'm not
judging right if you're against it
that's fine if you're with
you're with it I don't know no comment
comment literally do not know cuz it's just like
those topics that are just hard
for me also I used to work as a
child like when I was 13 I told you
guys this I've been
working since I was like 13 14 16
was like 13 14 16. I would have like school
was like 13 14 16. I would have like School courses
job School courses job right
and I needed that money
if people turned me down because
I was a child and yes you know
child labor is bad if you just
put it into words it is bad
but if they turn to be down
because I was a child I would be
starving to death
child I would be starving to death. So I'm like I
don't know what to say like
I would not have
enough money to pay for my
books I wouldn't have enough
money to pay for lunch
wouldn't have enough money to pay for lunch. What
was I supposed to do
wouldn't have enough money to pay for lunch. What
was I supposed to do
pay for lunch. What was I supposed to do. You know
pay for lunch. What was I supposed to do. You know
supposed to do. You know. You know so it's a
weird topic it's not
even like you are
morally flood it's
just. Because of experience
of experience both sides of the Cohen I am confused
but anyways this guy
decides to agree to the dad I'm
assuming the dad that he will
take his daughter to work for
him. All the way
daughter to work for him. All the way in his home
the way in his home. However. He did not
the way in his home. However. He did not tell his
wife about this
However. He did not tell his wife about this. He he
However. He did not tell his wife about this. He he
was like I did not
tell my wife I brought
her back. And
this girl who was like
underage at the time she did
not end up like she
didn't end up turning into a maid
or anything. He DEC
turning into a maid or anything. He decided
turning into a maid or anything. He decided Well the
way I'm not going to assume
shit so I'm just going to tell you
what he said but it this is the
first time I was like holy shit
you are so fucking weird like
that is creepy but whatever
fucking weird like that is creepy but whatever. So he
fucking weird like that is creepy but whatever. So he
has like a a small
apartment in that in the city I used
to work in he
had a small apartment and he
decided to house her right and it
does sound nice like it does
sound like he he provides
her with a house he gives her
like a monthly allowance and
gives her like a monthly allowance and. Well he
gives her like a monthly allowance and. Well he
didn't send her to school
or anything but he said like
he is free to
find a job of her own
like he is free to find a job of her own. So not a
like he is free to find a job of her own. So not a
maid but I guess he gave her a call
quote Freedom
right and he he worded
it in a good way in a sense
good way in a sense. Like he said oh I'm not I
didn't end up making her a
maid or anything
end up making her a maid or anything. I am not just
end up making her a maid or anything. I am not just
taking care of her you know
she's like my third
child or whatever
and. The way he said
child or whatever and. The way he said it sounded
really nice but I was like that is
odd like
really nice but I was like that is odd like. If
you're that nice why don't you
just send money over to them
like
you just send money over to them like. You can just
you just send money over to them like. You can just
send all of that money to the
family. But okay
whatever like me I who
am I to judge a call Uncle
kind act right he
didn't say anything he didn't say
like oh we do anything bad he just
said like oh I'm going to
take care of her and house or
whatever. And I said aw that's
that's kind of nice right
because again he didn't say anything
bad and I did not have a solid
reason to assume that this man
is doing anything bad so I
responded with aw that's nice
that's it. That same night chat he
texted me. Right he text
same night chat he texted me. Right he texted me
same night chat he texted me. Right he texted me
when I got back from work
got back from work. And he was like
hey
back from work. And he was like hey. Listen and
I've told this man about like
my issues with money
at that time I did
it's all honestly it's
honestly it's because I had a spending habit but I
told him like yeah I have to
work a lot I take up a lot of
extra shifts and I have complained
to him about the fact that I
work overtime and don't get
paid I told you guys this
where I would work until 3:00 in
the morning and I do not get paid
for the extra like 5 hours I
have to work just for a project
right so I have confide in
him. About money and shit and he
texted me he's like hey
remember that story I
told you about this girl I'm taking
care of I can do it for you too
you know
for you too you know. And I responded I was like
for you too you know. And I responded I was like. Oh
it's okay I'm not
I'm not doing that bad
like I have a roof over my head I can
like I can pay for food
it's. You don't have to
can pay for food it's. You don't have to do
that like it is fine but thanks for the
offer man that's so
sweet. I know I know
offer man that's so sweet. I know I know I said
it's so sweet but like chat
listen Okay in retrospect
in retrospect. I didn't think it was that bad but I
was like no it's fine like
I don't want
to take that chance from someone that
truly needs it it's what I'm
coming off of also. I thought
it's what I'm coming off of also. I thought
that if he were to have like two
women he's taking
care of without
his wife knowing that be so weird so
I was like no thank you anyways
bye like no thanks
no thank you anyways bye like no thanks. And
no thank you anyways bye like no thanks. And. He said
no thank you anyways bye like no thanks. And. He said
like. Listen mik
thanks. And. He said like. Listen Mika you don't
have to be shy like I
care
about you now
like I care about you
I want you to have you know an
easier life. Like you don't
to have you know an easier life. Like you don't
have to be coy about it you can
just take it it's fine
about it you can just take it it's fine. And
about it you can just take it it's fine. And. I
was young right I was quite
young and I wasn't like
that's
more so I
more so I literally said I was like man wouldn't
that start shit with your wife
haha like something like in that
line I didn't mean
didn't mean seriously but I'm trying to like
make him go oh yeah fuck never mind
you know but I was like
wouldn't that start shit with your
wife and he said she doesn't
have to know. And I was like
said she doesn't have to know. And I was like oh
here's the thing I am a big
person about communication I always
think communicating is a great
thing. Is a great thing and
I was like not a board with
that train. So it's like
not a board with that train. So it's like oh I I
don't think I'm I think it
makes me slightly more uncomfortable
more uncomfortable if your wife didn't know
didn't know actually hahaha that's what I said
that's what I said. And he's like
that's what I said. And he's like. Let me
that's what I said. And he's like. Let me
remember what he said fuck I'm like
losing some details
fuck I'm like losing some details. Oh I remember
fuck I'm like losing some details. Oh I remember I
also said
details. Oh I remember I also said. I will feel bad
details. Oh I remember I also said. I will feel bad
I said I will feel
in debt to you if
one day I have a good life and
I'm successful and stuff
like that I will always feel in
debt to you and I don't want
you know I don't want to put
that burden on you is what I say
I'm trying to be nice here okay
it's from my experience and
experience and working and companies that are run by
men I have known that some
older generation men can be very
sensitive
generation men can be very sensitive about stuff like
this so oh my God my
model like glitch the shit out of I
don't know why but yeah
I was trying to play it safe
you know I know some of y'all want
me to be like listen you creep I
can't say that because he is
in a position of someone power
compared to me and I was a bit
nervous so I was like I don't
want to be in debt to you like
to you like. You know if I take you up on the offer
and I just fucking do
nothing and lay around
all day and whatever
and whatever I don't want to I don't want to
feel in debt and it's fine I have
my roomie and I have like people
that care for me so don't worry
about it but thanks for the
offer
don't worry about it but thanks for the offer. You
know what he responds with
for the offer. You know what he responds with. You
literally said
for the offer. You know what he responds with. You
literally said
responds with. You literally said. Oh well you
can do something
though like you will be working
like so you don't
feel in debt he literally said oh
that makes sense hum
he literally said oh that makes sense hum that I
sense that I have a solution. Literally like I
don't know what made him think
this is a great thing but he literally
said on text by the way I have
text proof about this
text by the way I have text proof about this. He
said if you're concerned is
being in depth
you're concerned is being in depth. Then all I have
the solution for you
you just have to be a sex
worker like legit he
said. He literally said
worker like legit he said. He literally said
worker like legit he said. He literally said. I will
worker like legit he said. He literally said. I will
pay basically I'll be like
his sugar baby like I will
return the offer
like his sugar baby like I will return the offer. By
selling my services
return the offer. By selling my services. To him
return the offer. By selling my services. To him
services. To him. And. I thought he was
services. To him. And. I thought he was joking at
first
And. I thought he was joking at first. I thought he
was joking
And. I thought he was joking at first. I thought he
was joking
right
first. I thought he was joking right. So
first. I thought he was joking right. So. I did not
respond immediately I took like an
hour before
responding but keep in mind
chat the next day I have
to come into the office and see
him so I couldn't just Gose
them right. So I ended up
couldn't just Gose them right. So I ended up
responding with like a sticker and it
was like WhatsApp so I
responded with a sticker
WhatsApp so I responded with a sticker. Cuz I
WhatsApp so I responded with a sticker. Cuz I saw the
man was joking as in like haha
I'm trying to
align the mood so you
like whatever
align the mood so you like whatever. I sent a stick
align the mood so you like whatever. I sent a sticker
and you know what he
responds with it he
literally says you're
a virgin right
right question mark that's already a good money
like that like he said Indo but
it's basically said like
that's worth more like you
are selling more. So you wouldn't
more like you are selling more. So you wouldn't be
in debt to me for the next year
for the next year. Because you're a virgin
for the next year. Because you're a virgin. When he
for the next year. Because you're a virgin. When he
said that I was like bro
you are serious no fucking
what you're serious
you're serious what. What. The fuck
you're serious what. What. The fuck. So
you're serious what. What. The fuck. So. I did not
you're serious what. What. The fuck. So. I did not
respond to him I took a
screenshot of
that and I
sent
it to HR that was
the first time I sent anything like
a complaint to HR so I sent it
to HR so I sent it. To the same lady that I was
working with cuz keep in mind I
said this during
that like team project we have one
HR lady and she's like an like
a married lady or whatever
she's like an like a married lady or whatever. She
was pretty old
she's like an like a married lady or whatever. She
was pretty old so I sent it to
the HR and the HR ghosted me
literally no report
the next day I woke up still not
responded yet and I met them
like we I end up going to the
office it was the same group of
people he was there the HR lady
was there. And like we were
there the HR lady was there. And like we were all
talking like nothing happened right
and I was more quiet
that day but everyone was like
pretending like nothing happened he
was making jokes to everyone
like nothing happened
nothing happened blah blah. And obvious
nothing happened blah blah. And obviously I can't
just be like in front of everyone
being like hey you HR have
you seen my text I can't just
do that so I was like waiting I
was like maybe she didn't
check her phone like maybe
like maybe she'll maybe she's going to file
something like under
under. Profile something like under the table or
something I don't
know right
table or something I don't know right. So I
table or something I don't know right. So I
didn't bring it up the whole day
the whole day. Next day came like like
the next day
happened still no response
from HR
day happened still no response from HR. So at that
day happened still no response from HR. So at that
point I thought like maybe I got
the number wrong
right because here's
a thing chat I will not be
like you're a horrible person
horrible person because of this one mistake like I
like to give people the benefit
of the doubt and you know that I
know I know I shouldn't but
back that I was more giving people
the better of the doubt
more giving people the better of the doubt. So the
more giving people the better of the doubt. So the
next day I decided to ask her
during our lunch break I
was like hey can you
accompany me to the toilet and
here's the thing like girls do that
but she is what like 40 50 years
old so that's a bit weird so
I was like hey can you
company me to the toilet I need you to
check you know check me down
there like. That's what
know check me down there like. That's what the
excuse I use I I said that I was
like basically I was trying to
pretend like I'm on my period And I
need someone to like you know
company me to the toilet in case
whatever like I was just pulling
something out of my ass I
wasn't even on my period she's like
sure we went to the toilet and
I told her I was like hey did you
see my text blah blah blah blah
blah. Did you see it
blah blah blah blah blah. Did you see it and I was
like trying to ask her face to
face and she literally said
like oh sorry I haven't
opened my text but I'll open it
later. And I was like okay
but I'll open it later. And I was like okay just
you know respond to me okay cuz
like it's about this
guy and he's making me he said
some really weird things and she
said like oh I'm pretty sure
he's just joking like
joking like he's always he's always that kind
of guy like he's always joking
about stuff like this like he
has a wife you know
like this like he has a wife you know. He Li
like this like he has a wife you know. He literally
like this like he has a wife you know. He literally
basically she didn't say this
to my face but she says like the
Elder John Deere like don't be
so. Self. -lo
Deere like don't be so. Self. -loving I don't
Deere like don't be so. Self. -loving I don't
know what gets like
-loving I don't know what gets like. What is gay
-loving I don't know what gets like. What is
-loving I don't know what gets like. What is an
Indonesian term
it's like
it's like don't be so self obsessed
like he's he has
a wife he has children like you
think he's flirting with you
get your head out of your ass girl
like you're not that hot like
not that hot like. Something like that he didn't
say it that way but she's
like she laughed about it
yeah like arrogant conceited
arrogant conceited something like that she's like
get your head out of your ass
like he is married with
married with Children you know like he's just
joking I can't believe you took
it seriously. That's what she
believe you took it seriously. That's what she
basically told me right but with
the tone like as if I'm the one
that's trying to start some
shit. With this guy trying to like
make myself oh so important or
something or trying to
do it for like a check
something or trying to do it for like a check. So I
something or trying to do it for like a check. So I
was like oh I see haha okay
you like Get over yourself
basically yeah and I was
like I see I see
basically yeah and I was like I see I see. And plus
point he never like tried to
reach out again nothing
ever happens I try
to distance myself as much as
possible with this guy because it
was so obvious nothing was done
no reports were filed HR
did nothing right this lady
did nothing he never
contacted me contacted me again and
I don't talk to him
anymore it became so awkward
talk to him anymore it became so awkward. So ch
talk to him anymore it became so awkward. So chat
talk to him anymore it became so awkward. So chat
talk to him anymore it became so awkward. So chat. I
awkward. So chat. I. I don't know what
awkward. So chat. I. I don't know what the fuck
happened this was like
the
weirdest coincidence right
weirdest coincidence right. A couple of weeks
weirdest coincidence right. A couple of weeks later
it's not even like a day
later it was a couple of weeks later
I had a meeting with a bunch
of like this board member
because we were send signing a
brand deal and here's the nice
story. Usually with brand
deals. The boss would come like
the manager and the owner
boss would come like the manager and the owner. Will
attend because
boss would come like the manager and the owner. Will
attend because these are
like I'm not saying small
buckaroonie deals these
are like the deals are
contracts that last a couple of months
they usually get paid like
a month it's a very big
money kind of deal
it's a very big money kind of deal. Well not at my
it's a very big money kind of deal. Well not at my
mom maybe but I don't know but
big money bucks
so the boss will
always be there and the what is it
the manager will always come so
it's me another person another
project manager the manager
and the boss. We have this
manager the manager and the boss. We have this
meeting and after the meeting
usually we will all
like go back to the
office by ourselves like we will
either take a taxi or take
the bus or any public transport
and the boss will be in his
bougie car also that's my
Discord notification I'll
notification I'll whatever but. Yeah the boss
notification I'll whatever but. Yeah the boss will
be in his own bougie what is it
like those Square cars that look
like a limo but shorter those
all part right I'm not a
big. I'm not a big car person
so I don't know but
big car person so I don't know but. He will be in
big car person so I don't know but. He will be in
his own I'll part
with his own private driver and
shit I didn't hear
okay that's fine but yeah
fine but yeah. Boss with his own car all the
employees going back on their own
employees going back on their own. And for
employees going back on their own. And for some
reason during that meeting
own. And for some reason during that meeting. I as
per usual I always try and do my best
chat but I think I
did a really really
good job that day
did a really really good job that day. Cuz these
clients are not Indonesian so
it's like a overseas
company trying
to start a business with us
and stuff like that so they had
a lot of questions right and
questions right and. A lot of their questions were
not the ones that are commonly
asked during these
meetings so my project manager at
that time was kind of caught
off guard and they don't know
how to respond like they're
like they're asking about the technicalities of
technicalities of our business like how are the
clothes made how are they going to
be produced blah blah like who
are you working with
you working with. And when my project manager
project manager didn't say anything he was like
oh I'll check
on that you know I'll I'll
I'll I'll respond to you later in an email
I'll check on these details I knew I
know because every single deal
that's been signed for the past
couple of months it was with me
right I'm always in
always in attendance I'm always there so instantly
I gave them the date I was like
this is the one we work with our
gross chart has been like this
this this this this is our
workflow roughly this is what's
going to happen you know I
am representing like the design
team
representing like the design team so usually we take
a couple of weeks yada yada
yada we never miss a deadline we
will always update you so I gave
a lot of data just straight out
of my head and then I
responded with I will be emailing you
all of these numbers because I
am neat I'm a very neat
bitch I have all of these files in
like one file on my laptop so I
was like once I'm back at the
office I will be emailing you all
these numbers all these data with
the facts and shit but yeah
all these data with the facts and shit but yeah. The
recap this
all these data with the facts and shit but yeah. The
recap this is how it is and
it's pretty good right so
because I responded that
way it's clear I don't
I mean I don't know if they
were happy but they ended up
signing the deal which is great
like they signed it shook hands
good. And for some reason
signed it shook hands good. And for some reason I
guess the boss was a very happy guy
that day he decided to take
us out for lunch so he was
like you know what all of you
guys all five of you guys hop
on in my out parts that was the
first time I got into an
Albert holy that shit is bougie
they had LED lights
that shit is bougie they had LED lights. They have l
that shit is bougie they had LED lights. They have
LED lights on the bottom of the
car that was like
oh it was so bougie
but it was like all of you guys
jump into my out part four of
you can fit in the back I'll
be in like someone in the front
or whatever we are going for
lunch my treats and I was like damn
at this point I did not talk to
the boss as much like the
only time I've ever talked to the
boss is for either like big big
data stuff I need his approval on
or he was the one that
interviewed me as well which ooh but
whatever so I have an okay
relationship with the owner but it's
not like we're besties right
like we've met sometimes he
knows that I'm a pretty
a pretty responsible person but that's kind of
the extent of it. We got into the
that's kind of the extent of it. We got into the
Albert. And I was sitting
We got into the Albert. And I was sitting. If you
We got into the Albert. And I was sitting. If you
don't know how part looks like
there is a driver seat
the seat beside it like
the shotgun seat behind there
are two seats right it looks like
sofas there's two sofas and in
the back of the sofa
it's like a long couch so I was
sitting in the middle on the sofa
and the big ass sofa seat
beside me was the owner my big man
boss. And for some reason in the
car like obviously that the
other employees were like
talking about stuff and we were
all talking we're like
yeah oh my God
talking we're like yeah oh my god let's all eat
here yeah oh my God this is so
I'm like thank you so much
my God this is so I'm like thank you so much. I
you so much. I. Decided. To like I forgot what we
were talking about
I forgot what we were talking about. But I
literally
I forgot what we were talking about. But I
literally
like oh he asked me he
was like so Mika you
know how's work been
like how's work been for
been for everyone because I wasn't very talkative
but I would respond with
like a laughter here and there he
ended up asking me being
like Oh so how's work been
how's these projects like is it
going smoothly
projects like is it going smoothly. Yeah the car has
projects like is it going smoothly. Yeah the car has
three rows right it's
right it's like a 223 so there's seven seats
seats but whatever and. I said like oh work is good
but there is a guy in the office
that's making me feel
a bit weird but I don't
know like maybe it's because
I'm still. An experience bro
experience bro I didn't mean to but I guess I was
playing like this innocent card
in a way I was like work has
been great you know but
you know but. There's this guy but you know maybe
it's just me being a bit
over you know over
the top like maybe I got I should
not be this sensitive I should
not be you know this awkward or
whatever whatever and
whatever and here's the thing. Bitch I know about
whatever and here's the thing. Bitch I know about
my boss like I am a hard-working
person and yes I will suck up if
that means more buckaroons so I
know that he is married
more buckaroons so I know that he is married. And he
has a daughter
he is married. And he has a daughter. And two sons
he is married. And he has a daughter. And two sons
right but he only has one
daughter
sons right but he only has one daughter. I know that
sons right but he only has one daughter. I know that
and the daughter was
like high school at that time
so it's like young
and shit so I was like oh I
don't know maybe it's just me
being like a bit awkward or anything
but like you know it's just a
guy like there's just one guy
that I'm working with
working with that's making me feel a little
nervous. And I play
feel a little nervous. And I played on that
heartstring bro I know I located it on
purpose this part but I
was doing the most oh my God
I'm a innocent young
innocent young child I was like innocent young child
card. And I brought him
innocent young child card. And I brought him up I was
like yeah this guy I think he
was offering to become my
sugar daddy and I don't know
I just felt bad because
you know I just thought that's a
bit appropriate and yeah I
didn't tell anyone about it I did tell
HR but HR didn't do anything
and blah blah like I just
remembered that my father
like I just remembered that my father. I said
like I just remembered that my father. I said I
remembered that. When I was younger
father. I said I remembered that. When I was younger
my dad told me
was younger my dad told me. That this is
was younger my dad told me. That this is a really
really wrong so
me. That this is a really really wrong so. I don't
me. That this is a really really wrong so. I don't
know. Right but my dad would be
a heartbroken
but my dad would be a heartbroken. If he
but my dad would be a heartbroken. If he
knew that his
daughter
heartbroken. If he knew that his daughter. Bitch shit
heartbroken. If he knew that his daughter. Bitch shit
like this. I brought
that shit
daughter. Bitch shit like this. I brought
that shit so
instantly my boss was like wait do you
have proof when did this
happen blah blah blah and
bitch he deleted the message but
listen chat I have been in
I've been working with people
since I was young
working with people since I was young. And I'm a
working with people since I was young. And I'm
working with people since I was young. And I'm a
I'm a stalker I'm not a
a stalker but I keep my receipts so I had it
screenshot it literally with the same
profile picture same name I
had it screenshotted
picture same name I had it screenshotted. So I showed
my boss the screenshot
like I purposely I knew he
deleted it he
deleted the next day so I
purposely showed my boss our
messages and it was like message
deleted message delete it
and I was like oh he deleted it I
guess I did take a screenshot one
second. So he knew that it was
sussy like he knows that it's
sassy like why would you
delete these messages
like why would you delete these messages. I show
like why would you delete these messages. I showed
like why would you delete these messages. I showed
him the screenshot
messages. I showed him the screenshot. And I was like
messages. I showed him the screenshot. And I was like
yeah and I even
told HR but she didn't
respond to me and I
don't know like she said that maybe
I was being a bit too confident
because you know he has a wife and
kids right sir like he has a
wife and kids so you know
maybe it's just me haha I don't
know it just personally made me
feel uncomfortable because I did
go through something in
the past and stuff so maybe
it's just me being a bit
awkward and I don't know how to say it
know how to say it. Girl next day
know how to say it. Girl next day. Bro with
know how to say it. Girl next day. Bro with
suspended suspended I've never seen
him again but
he was suspended and
allegedly he quits but whatever
that's like. No but
quits but whatever that's like. No but the next
day I did not see him I never saw
him again ever
see him I never saw him again ever. Bad news though
see him I never saw him again ever. Bad news though
the HR lady is still there but
I never work
with HR lady again but
HR lady is still in the job
but the man is
is still in the job but the man is. Got like
is still in the job but the man is. Got like he was
suspended for a while and I
heard he quit his
job
while and I heard he quit his job. I never got
while and I heard he quit his job. I never got any
like compensation for it but
ever since then though
compensation for it but ever since then though. Plus
point the
compensation for it but ever since then though. Plus
point the boss treated me
the boss treated me. So much better he would give me
like these like
personal projects like his daughter
had prom I remembered this
his daughter had prom and he
wanted me to make the dress
for her and stuff so
me to make the dress for her and stuff so. I kind of
me to make the dress for her and stuff so. I kind of
had like a bit of a better
connection with my boss
and shit
better connection with my boss and shit. Not in
better connection with my boss and shit. Not insan
better connection with my boss and shit. Not insanely
better connection with my boss and shit. Not insanely
good but I had a slightly
better opportunity like
he would hire me and
he would pay me for this so
that's nice. But yeah ch
pay me for this so that's nice. But yeah Chad
that was. That was I never I didn't
stand up for myself I just
kind of went
went. I just kind of went the route of like
I'm just innocent lady I
don't know
don't know what's going on. So that is so sus
don't know what's going on. So that is so
sus that he's married with kids and
it's so creepy
married with kids and it's so creepy. Yeah
creepy. Yeah. That's the thing right
Yeah. That's the thing right
chat
Yeah. That's the thing right chat that's why I
keep saying power and
balance very
very bad power and balance horrible
and balance horrible. That's what I
and balance horrible. That's what I keep saying
it relationship in the workplace
is fine as long as no
power and balance and no affair
fine as long as no power and balance and no Affair
and chat this is not the only
time I've experienced this
this is not the only time I've experienced this. I
have experienced a lot of creepy
creepo people
experienced a lot of creepy creepo people right and
you all know this I
have a lot of Stories the fashion
industry can be really weird
because a lot of times they are
alcoholics and they we work
really late so. Oh
and they we work really late so. Oh. That's
Oh. That's another until today I
do
Oh. That's another until today I do not know what
happens because like I'm going to
be on a chat I am too scared of
reaching out to him I'm so sure he
knows that it's me
him I'm so sure he knows that it's me. But I
him I'm so sure he knows that it's me. But I
was the one reporting him
it's me. But I was the one reporting him. No
thank you Anton
But I was the one reporting him. No thank you Anton I
don't believe you but
that's the thing it's Bryce
it's Bryce send that message like 15 minutes I
pause the notifications for a bit
so I don't forget my story
but I'm experienced a good
amount of shit
experienced a good amount of shit. The work
experienced a good amount of shit. The workplace
experienced a good amount of shit. The workplace is
shit. The workplace is. I feel like it
shit. The workplace is. I feel like it would not have
been bad if I
would not have been bad if I. Were not stupid
would not have been bad if I. Were not stupid
like if I was not as
Okay
Okay. Okay
Okay. Okay. Thank you in
Okay. Okay. Thank you infin
Okay. Okay. Thank you oh my God
that's
Okay. Okay. Thank you oh my God that's a split it
into three different like
nine bucks
split it into three different like nine bucks. I do
split it into three different like nine bucks. I
don't know that
I don't know that. Okay
I don't know that. Okay. Who's
I don't know that. Okay. Where's the examp
I don't know that. Okay. Where's the example
I don't know that. Okay. Where's the example
Okay. Where's the example. Thank
you
Okay. Where's the example. Thank you for
Okay. Where's the example. Thank
you
Okay. Where's the example. Thank you friends coming
you friends coming. I'm sorry for as
you donated like
twice I posted no no
like twice I posted no no. I still don't know
like twice I posted no no. I still don't know how I
feel bad there's so many
things like when I go through
this there's always a shred of
guilt okay I say this like girl
boss but I do feel guilty for the
Okay. Really
Really
Really. There's
Really. This is so nice
Really. This is so nice yeah I'm so sorry for us
I'm so sorry okay so
don't be
sorry fuck you I should have I should
have told you guys
you guys that I was supposing donations
donations oh I'm so sorry I feel like a dick
donations oh I'm so sorry I feel like a dick. Un
donations oh I'm so sorry I feel like a dick. UNC
Uncanny valley. Are
Are you
Are you thinking that
Are
Are you
Are you thinking that I might be
on
Are you thinking that I might be on the Spectrum
Are you thinking that I might be on the Spectrum. Oh
that's a thing
Are you thinking that I might be on the Spectrum. Oh
that's a thing
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I've never been taken seriously
by HR before ever so oops
I
I have
I have never
I
I have
I have never really got that
shit
I have never really got that shit but I don't
Think I am. Thank you for the
Think I am. Thank you for the
info though I
did
Thank you for the info though I did not know that
Thank you for the info though I did not know that. I
did not know
Thank you for the info though I did not know that. I
did not know that but
did not know that. I did not know that but. Okay
first of all I've never gotten
myself checked
however I will say this
it's a I got diagnosed wrongly like
multiple times
diagnosed wrongly like multiple times. It is IND
diagnosed wrongly like multiple times. It is indo
diagnosed wrongly like multiple times. It is indo
like I appreciate the fact they
diagnosed
appreciate the fact they diagnosed me in
general
fact they diagnosed me in general. Yes oh sadly that
happens
general. Yes oh sadly that happens. That's a thing
general. Yes oh sadly that happens. That's a thing
I have
That's a thing I have. Friends that have told me
stories like personally to me of
like the shit that
goes down and it can be really
really bad thankfully I do have I
met people that had like just
good stories like oh I'm
working for this family they
pay me good they provide me with
like a room for myself a nice
place blah blah blah blah like
there are good stories
good stories thankfully but I've heard the bad ones
like two. It's so bad it's
heard the bad ones like two. It's so bad it's
all too. Did I swear I've
It's so bad it's all too. Did I swear I've
swear I've never gone diagnosed for this shit but
do you know all the shit
I've been diagnosed with in
the past oh my God
diagnosed with in the past oh my God. Damn sull
diagnosed with in the past oh my God. Damn sulliv
diagnosed with in the past oh my God. Damn Sullivan
diagnosed with in the past oh my God. Damn Sullivan
I'm so glad you brought that
up because that is
something that I
can't really say myself in public
streams right cuz obviously if
you the moment you bring up a
company people will think
it's a company I'm working
I'm working for at the moment even though it's
not like. You know when people
even though it's not like. You know when people
ask me like oh do you have any
advice for if you want to start
working do you have any advice
you want to start working do you have any advice. I
have years and years of
experience in Industries not just
fashion a lot right
I have to take up odd jobs
well not odd but some jobs
part-time and shit ever since I was
young. So this is actually an
advice that I would love to say but I
don't want to brew
the speculations of like I'm
talking about my own
company but most of the time that is
true so for my members just know
members just know. When you are in the workplace
unless you are working for
in the workplace unless you are working for. A
family mem
unless you are working for. A family member
in the workplace unless you are working for. A
family member or
someone you trust and know that care
for you most of the time
companies want to protect their own
reputation and throw you under
the bus they will
and throw you under the bus they will. You
and throw you under the bus they will. You're so
You're so sweet. Thank you thank
you
You're so sweet. Thank you thank
you
You're so sweet. Thank you thank you for this thing
you for this thing. Sadly it's very common
that's something
that's something I picked up when I was
quite Young
something I picked up when I was quite young if I
were to have a complaint or
complaint or something that I want to be brought to
light. This is so fuck
want to be brought to light. This is so fucked up
want to be brought to light. This is so fucked up but
always on my brain it's
like will this problem if this
problem will be resolved will it
benefit the company if it's no
then I don't report it
company if it's no then I don't report it. Sad
company if it's no then I don't report it. Sadly
that's just what
company if it's no then I don't report it. Sadly
that's just what I do cuz chat
what I do cuz chat. What from my exper
what I do cuz chat. What from my experience
I've experience
I've experience a lot of bad shit but
the ones that
actually get resolved are the ones that
will stain the reputation
of the company or the business
that they're having like
if I complain like oh yeah no
this guy has been kind of
like really weird like he's
been kind of weird and flirty and
most of the time owners will
look away from it on ironically I
think the only reason from my
story this guy ended up getting
suspended or whatever
guy ended up getting suspended or whatever. Is
because first of all
or whatever. Is because first of all. I had a lot of
or whatever. Is because first of all. I had a lot of
connections with their
business partners
right I am always there when
deals are signed I'm I'm
usually the person to go to when
it comes to like advice or not
advice but. What is it if you
like advice or not advice but. What is it if you if
you want to know more about the
design process I know the most
cuz I've been working here
and I know a lot so that's first
I'm like if you if I decide
to shit talk this company one time to
a big partner you're
partner you're fucked second I guess this
guess this. I guess this guy has gone reports before
that is what I always
assume I assume
that this guy I'm not the
first person to have this kind of
shit happen to them
have this kind of shit happen to them. So maybe
have this kind of shit happen to them. So maybe that
them. So maybe that. So since when do you know a lot
here's the thing
chat
you know a lot here's the thing chat. I may
not look like
you know a lot here's the thing chat. I may
not look like it but
I am a sweaty try hard I have told
you guys this you've
seen how sweaty and try Hardy
I can be right and I said this
before my mentality is always
I will give you my 110%
mentality is always I will give you my 110%. If you
mentality is always I will give you my 110%. If you
give me the same so a lot of the
times every time I work
in a job I usually get
quite good
in a job I usually get quite good. After like a
in a job I usually get quite good. After like a
couple of months
good. After like a couple of months. I swe
good. After like a couple of months. I sweat
good. After like a couple of months. I sweat
I sweat. Hon
I sweat. Honestly I
I sweat. Honestly
Honestly I am also curious about
that
Honestly I am also curious about that because
Honestly I am also curious about that because. If my
Honestly I am also curious about that because. If my
complaint doesn't benefit the
company HR don't file them
so
the company HR don't file them so. My ER
the company HR don't file them so. My erect
the company HR don't file them so. My erectile
the company HR don't file them so. My erectile
dysfunction. Thank you
and
My erectile dysfunction. Thank
you
My erectile dysfunction. Thank you infinity bridge I
mean I'm not going to
self-diagnose or speculate but if
one day I ever go back to my
therapist I'll ask but here's
the thing chat with
chat with businesses most of the time if you think
like oh this business looks like
they're like a nice accepting
family business. Chat people are
inherently
business. Chat people are inherently usually selfish
okay that's what
I've learned
I've learned people are usually inherently quite
inherently quite selfish and even though in the
public eye they try to portray
this image of like oh we care
about our employees we care about
the people working for us we
do care. If they could
people working for us we do care. If they could
sacrifice one worker
care. If they could sacrifice one worker. To fix
care. If they could sacrifice one worker. To fix
their reputation
bitch they will
worker. To fix their reputation bitch they will. If
it's a big company
the bigger they
are the more heartless
they can be they will
sacrifice more people because they
don't need it
people because they don't need it. That's why
people because they don't need it. That's why
when I say this like if you're
if you're working for an organization or a
company that has a lot of employees
has a lot of employees. And if you're like just an
employee you don't have any
employee you don't have any. Power with your
employee you don't have any. Power with your
position. Oh yeah so it's not the
work and the working industry
is not the nicest like if you
think people will the only people
that will generally care about
you are your friends and family
your friends and family. That's all I can say
your friends and family. That's all I can say
about that okay. It's not
all I can say about that okay. It's not all jobs
but a good amount the
bigger the company gets
the colder they
can be the more people working
for them the more you are just
more people working for them the more you are just. I
don't know you're just
you're just nothing like the less you've like
the value you have in
the company because you can be
easily replaced
because you can be easily replaced. And that's
because you can be easily replaced. And that's
like the shit reality but
that's what I've
experienced so most of the
times a lot of your bad things happen
to me and I never say anything
about it because I don't want
to start shit I don't want
to be the one fired but there
are some situations where I try my
luck and it's just like
the cards align you know like
the universe is telling me here
is your opportunity I'll take it
bitch but if I don't
get the opportunity I won't like
I'm going to be honest
if the boss never if I never had
like a one-on-one with that
boss not a 101 but if they
never offered to like pay for our
lunch or whatever I wouldn't have
said anything
whatever I wouldn't have said anything. That guy
whatever I wouldn't have said anything. That guy
would have still been working I
would have kept my
mouth shut
working I would have kept my mouth shut. But it was
working I would have kept my mouth shut. But it was
because like good things
happen back to back to back
to back that I
was like I'm going to take
this I'm going to take this chance
take this chance. Start sweating ner
take this chance. Start sweating nervous
take this chance. Start sweating nervously and
nervously and looking around while listening at
work not all jobs
just. It's those kind of
at work not all jobs just. It's those kind of
things that legally people will be
like oh we have laws to
protect you but. Anyway
we have laws to protect you but. Anyways
we have laws to protect you but. Anyways. Me EXP
we have laws to protect you but. Anyways. Me exper
we have laws to protect you but. Anyways. Me
Anyways. Me experiencing that. I don't know I
Anyways. Me experiencing that. I don't know I feel
like me being a little bit naive
inherently also makes me it
puts me in weird
situations something about
me in weird situations something about. Weird people
me in weird situations something about. Weird people
thinking that me being naive is
equal to being
easily manipulated
being naive is equal to being easily manipulated. I
have experience I just choose
to give people the benefit
of the doubt which is it
makes me feel extra stupid but
that's just a type of
person that I am I'm the type
that's like I will give you like
your. Like your 10th chance and I'll
be like oh it's okay
you'll change after your
11th chance I'm that kind of
person like I am fully aware of
what's happening I think
sometimes but I usually understand
that this is a bit weird or I
have a gut feeling that's like
oh this a bit odd
feeling that's like oh this a bit odd. But I
feeling that's like oh this a bit odd. But I
choose to think that you are a better
person. I know it's
not
that you are a better person. I know it's
not good but
what can I say it's hard to get
rid of them mentality
of them mentality. You can fix us Mika just another
us Mika just another. Just one more chance
us Mika just another. Just one more chance but
that's
but that's something right I've told you
guys I've been
open about shit like this in my
member streams I have BPD
like this in my member streams I have BPD. Or
that's what I'm diagnosed with and
it's actually helping so
I've been
diagnosed with BPD like a while back
if you don't know what it is
it's borderline personality
personality disorder it's not me having multiple
having multiple. But not personal
having multiple. But not personality I forgot
identities it's not that and
it's not me being
bipolar people like to mix up
BPD with bipolar or
like to mix up BPD with bipolar or. Oh oh
like to mix up BPD with bipolar or. Oh oh what was
it something it used to be called
multiple personality disorder but
it's not that anymore I
keep forgetting did right people
like to mix up BPD with
did or bipolar but it's not
bipolar but it's not. It's. It's own thing
don't special bubble. Oh man
Oh
Oh man
Oh man. I
Oh man. I don't know what
Oh man. I
Oh man. I don't know what you're
talking
Oh man. I don't know what you're talking about
talking about Infinity Bridge thank
God I am not working in
those conditions now
I am not working in those conditions Now
I am not working in those conditions now how
introverted you I'm not
introverted I'm extroverted actually
extroverted actually I just don't like
confrontation
actually I just don't like confrontation. Yeah I
actually I just don't like confrontation. Yeah I
just don't like
like confrontation at all. Laughter laughing
and fired
laughing and fired. Really when I type in the chat
box and chat it says
chat as a subscribe and paid
user. See chat being a member
means that you get to chat as a
subscribe and pay to user
I am an extrovert I
actually like talking to people I just
don't like arguing I
don't like fighting I don't like
confrontation
fighting I don't like confrontation and I don't
like loud noises
loud noises that's something. I get very scared of
get very scared of. People being loud this is
something that I I don't know
if I've ever told
you guys the story but
I've ever told you guys the story but. I should
I've ever told you guys the story but. I shit
I've ever told you guys the story but. I
should talk some people a good chunk as
a joke. But my
people a good chunk as a joke. But my
friends are literally so
sweet actually. Yes
Actually
Actually I'll tell you about the
friend
Actually I'll tell you about the friend thing I
will tell you about my diagnosis first
because we were talking
about it and I forgot
we were talking about it and I forgot. Yeah I
forgot. Yeah I. That's why I've always told my
I'm the type of person
that like
I'm the type of person that like. If one day
I'm the type of person that like. If one day I
become super successful
like. If one day I become super successful. I will
like. If one day I become super successful. I will
always give back like even now
even though I can't
back like even now even though I can't. Like
part
even now even though I can't. Like part-time
back like even now even though I can't. Like
part-time not
part-time I can't volunteer work
as much anymore I still like
pay I still give them money I
just don't talk about it I I
know that there have been people
like vtubers streamers out
there that are like hi guys
every month I donate to charity like
and they say it out loud I
just never say it I do every month
I do still donate to the same or
finish that I used to work for
more like the more money I
get in a month I donate a
percentage basically so it's like
different amounts every
amounts every month but I still do it I'm a good
Law Abiding Citizen it's just I
don't ever talk about it
cuz I what's the point also I feel
uncomfortable putting children out
there is a topic most of the
time like children I work with
these kids are very very sweet
so actually something super good
happened like a couple of
months ago that I was so happy
hearing this cuz I
I. Hearing this cuz I still talk to the
I. Hearing this cuz I still talk to the. What head
I. Hearing this cuz I still talk to the. What head
mother what is it called like the
owner of the orphanage they're
orphanage they're like the head mother
orphanage they're like the head mother. Something
mother. Something really sweet actually she told me
that one of the
kids graduated school and
got a job and they're
and they're going to move out on their own like
they never got adopted sadly but
they're like starting their own
life and I'm like holy shit I
know this kid I know this kid since
she like since they were in what
like early middle school
they were in what like early middle school. Fuck good
they were in what like early middle school. Fuck good
that is so so good so
middle school. Fuck good that is so so good so. Yeah
I like to listen to
updates on them I get really
happy on the updates
on them I get really happy on the updates. But yeah
I still do it
the updates. But yeah I still do it. I've always
the updates. But yeah I still do it. I've always
told myself that if one day
I become
successful like insanely successful
insanely successful I don't want to lose touch of
like my roots you know I used to
struggle I don't want to forget
it I don't want to become
like oh what chat a first class I just
have to pay what $4,000 easy
like I can afford for $1,000
what $4,000 easy like I can afford for
afford for $1,000 whatever. And even though some
afford for $1,000 whatever. And even though some
situations maybe I do or maybe I
can't I don't know but
don't know but. Even if I can I always think like
okay but the 4K can be used
for something else
you know I do not want to One Day
become like that
not want to One Day become like that. Just because
not want to One Day become like that. Just because
I've seen a lot of it's not
me being humble it's
just I have seen
a lot of friends that used to be
really cool and then they
become like rich or popular and
they become like really weird
you know they they just like
there's no shame in living in
luxury I'll just say that if you want
to improve your life quality
and live in luxury good on you
buddy that's fine that's
fine that's literally fine it's just
just when you come you become an asshole
just when you come you become an asshole. It does
just when you come you become an asshole. It does
actually but I again please do not
tell this information to anyone right
I'm saying this
saying this because it's members but please
saying this because it's members but please. Do
not tell this to the public I
don't want people to donate to
me and be like oh my
God I'm donating to charity
I want people to donate because
they enjoyed the content
and gave me money in their own
accord I don't want them to
think like it's a charity so
I have to give her money like I
am taking some part of the money
it's all like your whole
your whole donation is going to charity so
charity so I don't want people to think that way
and I just want people to donate
because they enjoy their time
so this is a secret you pinky
promise chat big secret
big secret. Didn't you already say this on a
public stream no I never said
anything about the
donating charity thing but I have
said about me volunteering
in the past but I have never
said anything about charity
I'm pretty sure there's
the first time ever said it I
think. That's all
time ever said it I think. That's also in
time ever said it I think. Insane
time ever said it I think. Insane. But
time ever said it I think. Insane. Or whatever
time ever said it I think. Insane. But whatever I
like to make people think that
make people think that. They don't know
make people think that. They don't know
I want people
to think of an asshole that's a
that's ideal for
me actually I want people to
that's ideal for me I want people to think
people to think. I'm an asshole it makes me feel
like a stronger person you know
you don't want to
pick a fight with the asshole of
the company you know
with the asshole of the company you know. What was I
with the asshole of the company you know. What was I
saying fuck I was saying
something and I forgot
I was saying something and I forgot. F
saying something and I forgot. Fuck
saying something and I forgot. Fuck. All his last
saying something and I forgot. Fuck. All the last
saying something and I forgot. Fuck. All the last
thing oh yeah a lot of my friends
became popular
and rich or one of them
and become an ass it's
sad to see. Kay thank you Michael
Randon lamb till this day I still
don't know what
know what you're spelling can we donate for both
reasons. No kidding
donate for both reasons. No kidding. I will ref
donate for both reasons. No kidding. I will refund
your Super Chat
kidding. I will refund your Super Chat. I will say
kidding. I will refund your Super Chat. I will say
does that one of in a
more selfish term I
don't say that I do this with
my income just because
that I do this with my income just because. I can
that I do this with my income just because. I cannot
that I do this with my income just because. I cannot
show proof because then I
will be exposing a lot of
things
I will be exposing a lot of things. Yeah that's
I will be exposing a lot of things. Yeah that's
things. Yeah that's. That's how I feel about my
diagnosis at least
in the past
whole chat do you know
I was diagnosed with
diagnosed with schizophrenia at one point in my
life
schizophrenia at one point in my life. Yeah
life. Yeah. That's nuts. I take care of
life. Yeah. That's nuts. I take care of like the
people that I care about
okay I'm not
going to forget
them and that's kind of fucked up
and these are kids I don't have
a soft spot for kids that sounds
odd and the most wholesome way
possible okay and I'm not legal
way it did not illegal way
illegal way. Not illegal way sweats
illegal way. Not illegal way sweats. It better be
illegal way. Not illegal way sweats. It better be I
do not want this to come
out I swear if
this comes out publicly I
will just pretend like you're
fucking about
pretend like you're fucking about. I ain't
pretend like you're fucking about. I ain't
going to watch it. Dodge that shit
about. I ain't going to watch it. Dodge that shit
thank you frizz but
that's the thing
right one of the biggest
reasons not biggest but one of the
reasons I considered is if I
told publicly that I do this every
month. Some people might
that I do this every month. Some people might want to
see proof which is which makes
sense. They are not free
proof which is which makes sense. They are not free
supers are not free get the
fuck out of here
free get the fuck out of here. Faking news
free get the fuck out of here. Faking news but yeah
most obviously people will ask
proof and I just can't
give it because I have an NDA so
I just don't say that I do
I have an NDA so I just don't say that I do. Sup
say that I do. Supers are not free but thank you for
the stupid Jazz and
thank you so for the
Super Chat as well
thank you so for the Super Chat as well. That's
why it's so shit like
as well. That's why it's so shit like. If I
as well. That's why it's so shit like. If I
could show proof I am very
very willing to show
proof but I can't because
can't because legally NBA also if I do that then
you will know like oh she said
this was near her area so I know
where she lives and shit and yeah
I just can't do it I'll
be doxing myself and
can't do it I'll Be doxing Myself and
can't do it I'll be doxing myself and I signed an
NBA to keep this shit a
secret and stuff
keep this shit a secret and stuff. So
keep this shit a secret and stuff. So. Yeah I just
keep this shit a secret and stuff. So. Yeah I just
can't have it publicly
it's just too much like
bad
publicly it's just too much like bad. I don't
publicly it's just too much like bad. I don't
see the plus point in it actually so
but you know what
I will let them know I
have told them actually I've
told the people cuz I don't
have talking about money can be
sensitive though but
about money can be sensitive though but. There is a
about money can be sensitive though but. There is a
wholesome story
though but. There is a wholesome story. I don't
know anything about types
of donations
I'm going to pause the donation
for a quick second cuz I want to
give you somewhat of a
wholesome news the orphanage that
orphanage that I've been donating to and I've
been donating to them for
like. 5 years
donating to them for like. But 5 years I think
donating to them for like. But 5 years I think like
years basically and back then I
didn't earn as much so
I would donate like
earn as much so I would donate like. A couple of
earn as much so I would donate like. A couple of
dollars right every month I only
give them like a
couple of bucks
because that's how much I earned
like 5 years ago
how much I earned like 5 years ago. When I got
how much I earned like 5 years ago. When I got into
niji I gave them a bit more
because I started
earning a bit more it
wasn't like
earning a bit more it wasn't like. Thous
earning a bit more it wasn't like. Thousand
earning a bit more it wasn't like. Thousands of
earning a bit more it wasn't like. Thousands of
dollars or hundreds of dollars it
was still less
than a hundred bucks but
it was like doubled what I
usually give them
like doubled what I usually give them. And
like doubled what I usually give them. And. I used to
like doubled what I usually give them. And. I used to
work there and stuff volunteer
there and stuff
so
when I did they were
like oh my God thank you so
much you know the more they are
somewhat they're not like
insanely religious but
they're not like insanely religious but. They do
they're not like insanely religious but. They do
bring up like God and shit
now and then they're like
you know we pray
that God will continue to bless you
because of all the things
you've done I'm like bitch shut
the fuck up and I just take my money
like whatever
I just take my money like whatever. And at one point
in my career as I started
growing I started
earning more right so
and this was like so fast like
everything grew up so fast like
I start earning more money so I
started donating like it
went from like a couple of like
less than a hundred to more than
hundreds right like it started
giving a lot and the thing is
like $100 might not seem a lot a
lot for some people but I said
this once and I say it again
five bucks is a lot here
and I say it again five bucks is a lot here. So when
and I say it again five bucks is a lot here. So when
I start giving them like you
know like hundreds every
month
you know like hundreds every month. Leg
you know like hundreds every month. Legit the the
lady was like yo you do not
have to like you know
you don't have to
give us more than what you can
but like please take care of
yourself as well stuff like that
so I I told them I was like hey
I got a new job and it's been
doing really well and I've
been earning more money so this is
actually the same personage I've
always given you guys like
same percentage. I'm not like
you guys like same percentage. I'm not like
you guys like same percentage. I'm not like. Break
I'm not like. Breaking my back and like giving you
like 80% like this is
still the same percentage
it's just I've been
I've been learning more. So like like you said
you know like God has blessed me or
whatever the fuck right
and so they did ask their
like whoa I'm so proud of you
what job is it so I did tell them I
didn't tell them I'm a
streamer but I said I have I have a
wholesome group of people like I have
my own Community now so my job is
that people will donate
to me if they are like they enjoy
whatever so people are donating
to me yada yada yada so they know
that they don't I'm pretty
sure she is too whole stuff to
think I'm a cam girl girl but
girl girl but. They know that. This money is
girl girl but. They know that. This money is actually
actually your. Actually your guys' money like oh
we're so
happy that so many people are
people are supporting us is what. I remember she
people are supporting us is what. I remember she
said and this was like last
year. I was I was
like had a happy fuck
what the fuck. Er
had a happy fuck what the fuck. I
had a happy fuck what the fuck. Er I
had a happy fuck what the fuck. I will pay for
had a happy fuck what the fuck. I will pay for
it Michael random
land for real just said okay
land for real just said okay. Damn
land for real just said okay. Damn. They're so
land for real just said okay. Damn. They're so
awesome she's such an old lady
old lady. Thank you infinity but here's the thing
I'm not trying to be
humble or anything
but this is just how I've grown
up so I don't think this is
like a huge feat it's not
like I'm. Doing this like
feat it's not like I'm. Doing this like oh this
is so new. You're so
this like oh this is so new. Pictures of me being
humble I I know that this
sounds so icky
it sounds like oh my
God she's pretending like she
sounds like yeah we get it
you're so humble it's not that
it's just this is how I'm raised
and I'm just keeping up a habit
like. I think it's normal
keeping up a habit like. I think it's normal
it's normal because this is what I've always
done if that makes any sense
right like it's not like I'm
it's new to me so if you think
it's nice good good I want you to
think I'm better if you think it's
normal good too I don't know
too I don't know. I don't know how to re
too I don't know. I don't know how to react
too I don't know. I don't know how to react to
them I'm better reacting to these
things you know
this oh God
these things you know this oh God. I only have
these things you know this oh God. I only have one
tooth that's not a collection
is it only have
one I do like my weird
more big things
I do like my weird more big things. God damn ch
I do like my weird more big things. God damn chat
call that my Gap away
things. God damn chat call that my way
things. God damn chat call that my way. I did not
things. God damn chat call that my way. I did not
know that
what. What. Can we play
I did not know that what. What. Can we play second
I did not know that what. What. Can we play a second
I did not know that what. What. Can we play
second age. With you guys
What. Can we play second age. With you guys. Okay
Can we play second age. With you guys. Okay. I love
Can we play second age. With you guys. Okay. I love
her she's so sweet
Okay. I love her she's so sweet. Wait what
Okay. I love her she's so sweet. Wait what her
what her stream money goes straight back into the
stream oh yeah no we do that
we separate income
income it's like a common thing an endo though
an endo though. Thank you Michael went like usually
your income you separate
like a percentage
for tax a percentage for
percentage for reinvesting in the business in
this case stream and then whatever
percentage I do that too A lot of
my. Pretty sure like so many
people do that. Thank you Michael
sure like so many people do that. Thank you Michael
Randleman for the
aqua super holy but yeah
I'm you know
you know exposing my friends for being good friends
I'm pretty sure
being good friends I'm pretty sure. Res
being good friends I'm pretty sure. Resu and
being good friends I'm pretty sure. Resu and Zetta
have talked about this before as
well it's very
very comma it's
like normal indoor practices so
indoor practices so. It's like resp
indoor practices so. It's like respons
indoor practices so. It's like responsible spending
responsible spending it's like a responsible
responsible adults
responsible adults are some shit like
responsible adults like that. I will thank you I am
an amazing person chat I am the
most humble most amazing
person chat I am the most humble most amazing. Thank
you my chunky bird and Barbara
swallowed your
chunky bird and Barbara swallowed your 16 months
Barbara swallowed your 16 months. Three bucks
Barbara swallowed your 16 months. Three bucks and
one. It's not just me
months. Three bucks and one. It's not just me so
many people also
donate
just me so many people also donate. I am not
just me so many people also donate. I am not I'm
not saying I'm
saying I'm part of the autism spectrum okay
of the autism spectrum okay. Holy shit chat do you
know something
of the autism spectrum okay. Holy shit chat do you
know something I have so many
you guys are making me want
to talk about so many things
fuck
to talk about so many things fuck. Remind me Chad
to talk about so many things fuck. Remind me
chat okay diagnosis and ASMR
fuck. Remind me chat okay diagnosis and ASMR. They
will never
fuck. Remind me chat okay diagnosis and ASMR. They
will never know
that that's where
the money comes from
where the money comes from. They will they won't
know they will think that I am a
smart person chat I used to
teach the kids English dude
kids English dude. Fuck you when I volunteer work I
would help them with like
English I would teach them
with like so be just see
I remember that I would try to
that I would try to. I would try to not mix it up
because when you mix it up the
kids get confused what
does a thousand USD Buy
kids get confused what does a thousand us
kids get confused what does a thousand USA English
thousand USA English. $1,000 in Indonesia buys you a
fucked on how much does 1,000 bucks like okay this
is my rough spending for food a
day right just so you guys
know. Food okay but
that's just me I eat once a day I
would have one meal and eat it like
half in the morning half at
night. What does 15 do
15 do that buy you an Android like
15 do that buy you an Android like. Okay
15 do that buy you an Android like. Okay. This is
something
15 do that buy you an Android like. Okay. This is
something that came to
mind because Ruby is
getting
married like in a couple
of days oh fuck
oh fuck everyone's leaving me but
oh fuck everyone's leaving me but. So Rumi had
like the engagement party
but. So Rumi had like the engagement party. So
engagement party I'm
not going to give
you like genuine like
I'm going to
give you the money but all I
can say is with a thousand bucks
a thousand bucks. Her engagement was less than that
like significantly less
was less than that like significantly less. And
that was like
inviting 300 people by the way 300
people with an MC with all the
food with all the decorations
all of that shit less than
1,000 bucks. For her engagement
that's what I can remember
For her engagement that's what I can remember. Shut
the fuck up my chunky bird we
don't tolerate negativity
here thank you more
I love how you can casually real
talk with us you're really
nurtured oh you really nurtured
really nurtured a Bonkers but wonderful community
really nurtured a Bonkers but wonderful community. I
hate my computer I got her in
those it's cracked but like
ASMR I'm going to
say this I was listening to melocos
ASMR the whole time as it ended
right and I saw on her title
she was like ASMR
I saw on her title she was like ASMR. Something 100
I saw on her title she was like ASMR. Something 100
like. Was it k
ASMR. Something 100 like. Was it K you 100
ASMR. Something 100 like. Was it K you 100. I did not
ASMR. Something 100 like. Was it K you 100. I did not
know what K you
100 was
100. I did not know what K you 100 was. App
100. I did not know what K you 100 was. Apparent
100. I did not know what K you 100 was. Apparently
it's a mic
what K you 100 was. Apparently it's a
mic it's a type of ASMR
Mike the ones with
ears but this one
has a face bro. When I heard it
ears but this one has a face bro. When I heard it
I'm not going to lie I
thought that I'm like oh
my God
lie I thought that I'm like oh my God. I want to
lie I thought that I'm like oh my God. I want to
do this like I want I've always
wanted to try ASMR
but at that time I
was I forgot the name of the mic
but it's just ears it's
not there's no face it's just
like a pair of ears and they're
white and that was like
ears and they're white and that was like. Supposed
to do that like 10
was like. Supposed to do that like then you think
what is how much is
that that's like
you think what is how much is that that's like. I
don't know 700 bucks right
$700 to 600 to 700 bucks a 3D oh
yes I wanted to buy
a 3DO back then
yes I wanted to buy a 3DO back then. And it was
yes I wanted to buy a 3DO back then. And it was
around like 600 to 700 bucks and I
was like bruh no
way am I paying
$7,600 to 700 bucks for a pair of
Mike with ears and I don't
even know if I can make good ASMR
like I have short breath I have
short shallow breath but it's
not obvious with this mic
because I have wasn't a
obvious with this mic because I have a Noise Gate
have a Noise Gate. But with ASMR you will hear me go
like like very loud because I
have bad lungs
I have bad internal organs so I was
like man let me try with
something more affordable first
I thought 600 to 700 bucks was
expensive I Googled you 100
believe and believe bye in
Indonesian cuz I wanted to see where
I can buy it in Indonesia and
maybe it's not that expensive
in Indonesia and maybe it's not that expensive. It
was the video was $600 it was like
10 Indonesian meal right
like 10 Indonesian meal right. Stand Utah
like 10 Indonesian meal right. Stand Utah
like 10 Indonesian meal right. Stand Utah. This
okay you 100 was 100
Stand Utah. This okay you 100 was 100. Utah
Stand Utah. This okay you 100 was 100. Utah. Like
was 100. Utah. Like. What is a 10K
was 100. Utah. Like. What is a 10K. 10
was 100. Utah. Like. What is a 10K. 10,
was 100. Utah. Like. What is a 10K. $10,
was 100. Utah. Like. What is a 10K. 10,000
bucks
was 100. Utah. Like. What is a 10K. 10,000
bucks
Like. What is a 10K. 10,000 bucks. You are fuck
Like. What is a 10K. 10,000 bucks. You are fucking
kidding me
it's
10,000 bucks for
a mic with a
face and a pair of
ears. Hot the fuck
face and a pair of ears. Hot the fuck. Seven seven
face and a pair of ears. Hot the fuck. Seven seven
fuck. Seven seven. Chats I don't even earn that
much. I'm iron
I don't even earn that much. I'm ironic
I don't even earn that much. I'm ironically I
don't even
earn that
much to afford this shit
like at least for the
3D or I'm like okay I'll
be scraping but I can't afford
can't afford it like. I probably would not eat as
luxuriously but I can afford it I
guess
luxuriously but I can afford it I guess. Girl I'm
luxuriously but I can afford it I guess. Girl I'm
not going to expose how much
money I make but I do not
get no deals all right
like a lot of times people
think oh. I will think oh
streamer means you become richer and
you become richer and. Some of that you be
you become richer and. Some of that you become
you become richer and. Some of that you become like
rich rich you can move to New
York City and get a
loft and a house and a boat and a
and a yacht and a private
plane bro I don't get none of
that literally 100% of my income
is from donations all right
sometimes from like merge and
voice packs but I don't do
voice backs and merge so I like 99%
of my income is donations I do
merge so I like 99% of my income is donations
merge so I like 99% of my income is donations. Bro
with that amount of money I could
just fly to you guys and
do this shit to your
face like. I can just go
do this shit to your face like. I can just go to
your house and go like
I can just go to your house and go like. How's
your day then you want me to
scratch your ears. Is that
good
want me to scratch your ears. Is that
good a little bit to
the right. You can do that
good a little bit to the right. You can do that
good a little bit to the right. You can do that. You
good a little bit to the right. You can do that. I
was shock
right. You can do that. I was shocked why
good a little bit to the right. You can do that. I
was shocked why my heart
dropped girl I was
like oh damn girl
right. You can do that. I was shocked wife
wife now if I have to spend 7K for
I was shocked wife now if I have to spend 7K for a
mic every day is ASMR Day bitch
to spend 7K for a mic every day is ASMR Day bitch. I
was I was so shocked at the fan
myself. That's nut
so shocked at the fan myself. That's nutty but
so shocked at the fan myself. That's nutty but
hey a thousand bucks
in Indo you could get
like a wedding and an
engagement party
a wedding and an engagement party. And you would
a wedding and an engagement party. And you would
still have some like I mean
probably it will max
out a thousand bucks
but a thousand bucks is a lot no
for comparison every day
for food I spend like
comparison every day for food I spend like. $2 five
bucks two to five dollars a day
for food right
dollars a day for food right. Electric
dollars a day for food right. Electricity it depend
dollars a day for food right. Electricity it depends
dollars a day for food right. Electricity it depends
on how much you use but
Electricity it depends on how much you use but. I
get cold very easily so I
don't usually use a fan and I
don't usually use
AC. Water bill is what I'm the
most expensive money I've spent
expensive money I've spent. I'll say that this
expensive money I've spent. I'll say that this is
like you know what since I'm like
transparent I will be
completely transparent about
transparent about this shit I spend like two to five
bucks a day for food right
day for food right. Water because you can't drink
from the Taps you pay to
have like a
from the Taps you pay to have like a. A guy send
from the Taps you pay to have like a. A guy
sent over like a gallon of water and I
drink a lot so I
get a gallon of water
every like week
a gallon of water every like week. But it's me and
a gallon of water every like week. But it's me and
my roommate so both of us
drink like a good
chunk of water so we
have to pay for the subscription
of that that's around like a
dollar. A dollar a dish
a dollar a couple of cents every
gallon or something I don't
remember. You see long
something I don't remember. Google
something I don't remember. Google. But in
something I don't remember. Google. But in in my
apartment right now we have like
a person that
everyone pays to send them
water so I just go with
that one that's around like a
dollar-ish let's just say
two bucks right two bucks per gallon
but if you pay a bunch then
it's less. Water and Electric
pay a bunch then it's less. Water and electricity
bill it really depends on your
usage I don't use a lot of
electricity I only use it for my
computer. I don't usually
only use it for my computer. I don't usually turn
my lights on either so
don't usually turn my lights on either so. Like
on either so. Like. Really. Shit is that you're
on either so. Like. Really. Shit is that you're
telling me these ASMR artists
are
just
being
creative
ASMR artists are just being creative. You're so
ASMR artists are just being creative. You're so
expensive too what the
creative. You're so expensive to what the fuck
what the fuck. You're one of the top I
am not one of the top
streamers in Indo
I'm like
one of the top streamers in Indo I'm like. Comp
one of the top streamers in Indo I'm like. Compar
one of the top streamers in Indo I'm like. Compared
to so many people
one of the top streamers in Indo I'm like. Compared
to so many people I am a nobody
Andy to be very fair I
didn't see along
Mora. I don't do Lo
didn't see along Mora. I don't do lawyer
didn't see along Mora. I don't do lawyers
didn't see along Mora. I don't do lawyers
do lawyers. What's your water brand
I don't do lawyers. What's your water brand
I don't do lawyers. What's your water Brad
What's your water Brad. Ley
What's your water Brad. I am actually living
What's your water Brad. Ley
What's your water Brad. I am actually living the
rich people live
I am actually living the rich people live
I am actually living the rich people live. Okay in 4
I am actually living the rich people live. Okay in
Okay in 45 minutes. Maybe because I don't pay it
because I don't pay it. So I don't
Maybe because I don't pay it. So I don't got that
language
So I don't got that language. So
So I don't got that language. Like 20
So I don't got that language. Like 20
So I don't got that language. But yeah I roughly
But yeah I roughly. What this is for me and Rumi
though ever since I got into niji
I'm the one that
pays for electricity and
electricity and water because you know roomy has
been taking care of me for so long
I feel like this is a nothing
Burgers so I do that so water
electricity
so I do that so water electricity here is
so I do that so water electricity here is. We SP
so I do that so water electricity here is. We spend
like
so I do that so water electricity here is. We spend
like
electricity here is. We spend like whatever
electricity here is. We spend like whatever. $9
electricity here is. We spend like whatever. 900
electricity here is. We spend like whatever. $900
electricity here is. We spend like whatever. 900,000
like whatever. 900,000. 9800-900 for two people
like whatever. 900,000. 9800-900 for two people but
we do live in an
apartment. And
room
do live in an apartment. And roomy
but we do live in an apartment. And
roomy gets hot very
easily she always has her AC on
24/7 so that's roomy
that's roomy right. But yeah it's like
that's roomy right. But yeah it's like 800
that's roomy right. But yeah it's like 800
900 if I decide that's like Water
it's like 800 900 if I decide that's like water
and electricity so
electricity so that's around like what $50 $60
electricity so that's around like what $50 $60. So
yeah at 1,000 bucks gives a
lot I know that the talk of
money can be sensitive
but I'm just saying this
because you asked if they're on
60k every 8 days
asked if they're on 60k every 8 days. For 4 gall
asked if they're on 60k every 8 days. For 4
gallons. How much is that I wanted
days. For 4 gallons. How much is that I wanted. Oh
shit. Okay can you
send me
that I wanted. Oh shit. Okay can you
send me your
room
Okay can you send me your room. Oh yes
Okay can you send me your room. Oh yes diagnosis
thank you. Yet
Oh yes diagnosis thank you. Get the
Oh yes diagnosis thank you. Get along
Oh yes diagnosis thank you. Get the wrong INF
Oh yes diagnosis thank you. Get along INF
Oh yes diagnosis thank you. Get
the wrong info
Oh yes diagnosis thank you. Get the wrong info info
number. In my family of
the wrong info info number. In my family of three we
change together three days
we change it every like 5 days
to week. Cuz I usually drink from
like one bottle
usually drink from like one bottle. Is
usually drink from like one bottle. You see all
usually drink from like one bottle. You see how long
usually drink from like one bottle. You see how long
You see how long. Anyways
You see how long. Anyway
Anyway but let me just forget
about
Anyway but let me just forget about the topic of
money cuz I don't want to make
anyone yucky yuck but yeah
insane. A lot of fucked a fucking ton
of money here but
fucking ton of money here but. Yes what is it again
oh diagnosis back then
actually do you
know there was a
good chunk of my life where I
was taking meds for schizophrenia
like I'm not saying like I
got Skittle and an insulting way I
actually was a diagnosed with
schizophrenia
was a diagnosed with schizophrenia. News flash I do
was a diagnosed with schizophrenia. News flash I do
not
schizophrenia. News flash I do not have schizophrenia
so back then
not have schizophrenia so back then. For a long
while
not have schizophrenia so back then. For a long
while I had
insomnia right now you guys know
but I have really bad
sleeping problems I can't fall
asleep for some reason
problems I can't fall asleep for some reason. And
because I don't have enough
have enough sleep. I had a moment in my
life like I was
overworked and I was quite
under a lot of mental
pressure I have told you guys
stories of like oh bad shit has
happened but obviously I'm
not going to go super in depth
about all the bad shit right
because y'all are not here for a
horrible trauma dumping time but there
was a time in my life where
everything was piling up and I
was going through a good trunk
and because I couldn't sleep
I started hallucinating
I couldn't sleep I started hallucinating. Ann
I couldn't sleep I started hallucinating. Ariana
I couldn't sleep I started hallucinating. Iron
hallucinating. Ironically and that was one of the
biggest Triggers on why I
got sent to a
therapist in the first place cuz at
first I would start like
start like hallucinating not even a way like I
can't loves me it's a real
like it started with audio
audio hallucinations right I would be like oh did
anyone call me did anyone like
need anything and like no one said
anything. Or I would have like
and like no one said anything. Or I would have like
these audio hallucinations of
hallucinations of like footsteps or like random
things. Weirdly enough I would have
or like random things. Weirdly enough I would have I
would hear like sirens really
loud sirens but
it's it no one's hearing it
hearing it it's just me so it started from there
but I didn't say anything
say anything people already thought I was going a
bit weird because I'm like
oh shit there's a siren
a siren outside and they're like no that's like
but I was trying my best to be very
normal okay. And keep in mind
my best to be very normal okay. And keep in mind
it's also because back then
And keep in mind it's also because back then. I was
And keep in mind it's also because back then. I was
not. Back to fin
because back then. I was not. Back to finance
because back then. I was not. Back to finance but
just a little bit I was not like
financially
little bit I was not like financially wealthy so I
didn't want to worry
people that were taking care of me
financially that was why I never
said anything I Never
that was why I never said anything I never told
anyone that I was experiencing
these. Sounds and like I can
that I was experiencing these. Sounds and like I can
Sounds and like I can. Sounds and like I can hear
voices in my head and shit I
didn't tell anyone
because I don't want them to
feel like oh shit I'm
shit I'm going to pay more for your health bills
so I kept it shut
your health bills so I kept it shut. But it got worse
your health bills so I kept it shut. But it got worse
and it became visual
became visual hallucinations like I
would see Shadows like I
would see shadowy figures I
would see like hands people
like if the lights are off I would
start seeing shit like things
would start moving and stuff
would start moving everything
was just like weird
start moving everything was just like weird. And I
start moving everything was just like weird. And I
couldn't sleep monkey I also
thought like I was on a
Indigo indigo is like I
had a sixth sense wait is it
5 cents or six cents I forgot
I have I had an extra sense
or six cents I forgot I have I had an extra sense. I
forgot which
or six cents I forgot I have I had an extra sense. I
forgot which how many senses we
actually
which how many senses we actually have either the 5th
cents or The
we actually have either the 5th cents or the
sixth sense or. Whatever I thought I
cents or the sixth sense or. Whatever I thought I
could see ghosts right but
the thing is I never seen that many
ghosts before so I was like oh
this might be a bit wrong oh
six okay six sense I thought
I was like I'm seeing ghosts
I'm seeing ghosts. But no it was to the point where
because I couldn't sleep all
night in the morning
when I would talk to people
their faces look like there was
a liquifying filter on it like
some chairs sometimes their eyes
would be dropping down for me
and shit and I was like okay
this is a bit weird so tldr
I'm sorry short we went to a
therapist and they were like news
flash bestie you are
you are schizophrenic. And I was like
you are schizophrenic. And I was like. Really I did
not know a lot and you are a
professional so I
will just say okay girl I
trust you they put me on meds
for people with actual
with actual schizophrenia they put me on those and it
did nothing for me like
put me on those and it did nothing for me like. It
made me feel
put me on those and it did nothing for me like. It
made me feel worse like I
can't actually do anything it
made me feel so icky
and my brain feels like it's
short circuiting anytime
circuiting anytime it's like 3 seconds until
seconds until conversation short circuit
seconds until conversation short circuit. And I was
seconds until conversation short circuit. And I was
on these meds for 3 months because
for 3 months because. Every time I ask
for 3 months because. Every time I ask
my therapist I
was like is this normal and
they're like oh yeah
your body is just
is just readjusting and you know these are side
effects but you'll feel better soon
you'll feel better soon
feel better soon. 3 months every day I would take
feel better soon. 3 months every day I
day I would take hard schizophrenic drugs
day I would take hard schizophrenic drugs. And
it didn't go
day I would take hard schizophrenic drugs. And
it didn't go away at
all and eventually they were
like oh we will give you sleep
meds actually we're going to
give you some sleep meds
and you can drink your sleep meds
with your anti schizophrenia
anti schizophrenia meds. And the first night I took
my first ever sleeping medication
I slept for 8 hours
for the first time in years I was
able to sleep for 8 hours
undisturbed I heard no noise I
didn't wake up from like random
things I slept and I woke up but
those also like I had really weird
dreams but I woke up feeling
fine and ever since that day I
never hallucinated ever again
so I guess it was just the
lack of sleep like my brain
was just so deprived of rest
that I am hallucinating but I have
not schizophrenic I was just
exhausted
schizophrenic I was just exhausted. So they gave me
that and I told my
therapist I was like bro I
don't need to take
my schizo meds like I can just
take my sleep meds like it's
fine. And then but there
were like other stuff they diagnosed
me with schizophrenia and
then apparently that's
apparently that's wrong and then they diagnosed me
with bipolar. But that was also
they diagnosed me with bipolar. But that was also
wrong. I had to go
But that was also wrong. I had to go through a lot of
diagnosis so I had to
literally I felt my
I felt my roommate's mom set this to me she was
like Mika you are literally the
guinea pig of medicine right now
like you are being tested on cuz
I was on so much shit
being tested on cuz I was on so much shit. And the
being tested on cuz I was on so much shit. And the
thing is because I already bought
meds and I bought
like a bottle I
would always finish it first before
going to another treatment so
yeah it took a while but
roomy's mom kept saying like
you're letting these therapists
these therapists treat you like a like a like a
scientific rabbit cuz I took so much
blood has everything wrong
with her brain I did
has everything wrong with her brain I did. The only
has everything wrong with her brain I did. The only
thing they told me that I do
not have for sure was
ADHD or some shit
they're like you do not have ADHD
I'm like okay cool I don't know
anything about this and at that time I
also didn't want to Google
anything because I don't want to
like myself and I don't want to
freak myself out more
I don't want to freak myself out more. So I legit
do not know what's going on but
the first time I got
diagnosed with DVD
everything
got diagnosed with DVD everything made sense and they
put
everything made sense and they put me on like meds
for it and it actually helped for
the first time in so long it
made like a lot of things made
sense cuz back then it's like
people with bipolar have like
you know manic swings that can last
days. Days and blah blah blah I
don't feel like I have that
like. It doesn't fit you know
it doesn't fully make sense
doesn't fully make sense. But I don't know so
the moment I got the proper diagnosis
I just kind of stuck to it
and I never I don't want to
mess it up anymore I don't want
to try other things but I
will try and ask about the whole
autism thing but I don't think
I have autism I'm so sure
because I don't know I'm not I
I'm not I don't want to say like I might be
part of the spectrum no chat
I might be part of the spectrum. One of the
I might be part of the spectrum. One of the one of my
therapists said that I was a
said that I was a. What is it it's not
said that I was a. What is it it's not a
psychopath a sociopath
it's not a psychopath a sociopath. They said that
to me
it's not a psychopath a sociopath. They said that
to me they were like we
think you might have
like you I think we
should give you to a
like you I think we should give you to a. Not a the
like you I think we should give you to a. Not a
therapist that gives you mad like a
physician. I don't
know someone
gives you mad like a physician. I don't
know someone for
like a rehab rehab center to help
you fit in because we
think you have. You are so
fit in because we think you have. You are
sociopathic. Legit. It's not like
have. You are sociopathic. Legit. It's not like I
forgot like I went
to the guy that can
give you
meds they gave me
you meds they gave me. A guy that doesn't like
they don't have the
certificate to prescribe medicine
prescribe medicine they're just there to give you
therapy like an actual therapy
therapist. Because they were
an actual therapy therapist. Because they were so
convinced I was a sociopath
Because they were so convinced I was a sociopath. And
I googled that one because I
was like I mean guilty is
charged I did not know
a lot of things so when they
said anything with pathic they
were like
anything with Patrick they were like sociopathic
anything with Patrick they were like sociopathic. I
thought I was
anything with Patrick they were like sociopathic. I
thought I was a murderer yes I
know that is a very big
misconception a lot of
people think oh if you're
psychotic You're a murderer
a murderer it's not that but. Guil
a murderer it's not that but. Guilt
a murderer it's not that but. Guilty is char
a murderer it's not that but. Guilty is charged I
a murderer it's not that but. Guilty is charged I
did not know anything so
anything so obviously I got it from movies right and
movies are like the Joker was a
social The Joker was a
psychopath and he's a murderer so
every murderer is a social psychopath
or whatever so when they said
that I was like oh am I murderer I
don't think I have a
murderous tendency
think I have a murderous tendency. I Google
think I have a murderous tendency. I Googled
think I have a murderous tendency. I Googled it and
it seems wrong let me let
me Google it again
actually right now
let me let me Google it again actually right now. So
actually right now. Sociopath. Ant
actually right now. Sociopath. Antis
actually right now. Sociopath. Antiso
actually right now. Sociopath. Antisocial personal
actually right now. Sociopath. Antisocial personality
actually right now. Sociopath. Antisocial personality
Antisocial personality disorder sometimes called
sociopathy so
sociopathy thank you
very rich. It's okay
sociopathy thank you very rich. It's okay I
think I think I'm
okay
It's okay I think I think I'm okay to like I
already have my own set of diagnosis
and I think it fits hello dark
hello Pharaoh yuck it's fair
thank you my channel
yeah it's fair thank you my channel
don't. I do care. What the fuck. Sorry chats OBS
crashed for a good
second my bad
crashed for a good second my bad. O
crashed for a good second my bad. Oops it's
crashed for a good second my bad. Oops it's you
fair you crashed
my stream my bad obvious give me
the notification of
like a stream crash no stream
back. But yeah sociopathy a
mental health condition in which a
person consistently
person consistently shows no regard for right and
wrong and ignores the rights and
feelings of others
of others. I don't have that I I downplay a lot
of what I do but I know
deep down I care a lot
about the feelings of others
down I care a lot about the feelings of others. Like
I know what is right I know
what is wrong and I care about
people's feelings I
am fully aware about their
feelings and I do sincerely care
about them so I'm like oh shit
maybe when I was talking about
myself my my psychiatrist thought
psychiatrist thought that like holy shit this person
doesn't give a shit about
other people do they I know I just
don't know how to like
do they I know I just don't know how to like. Comp
how to like. Compliment myself like am I supposed to
sit here and be like oh
like am I supposed to sit here and be like Oh
like am I supposed to sit here and be like oh
I care about this
oh I care about this. No it's not I'm
oh I care about this. No it's not I'm like oh
this person made me angry I want to
kill him
person made me angry I want to kill him. Like
person made me angry I want to kill him. But
kill him. Like you're my therapist of course
I'm going to fucking tell
you that I'm
angry at someone like not hell
you that I'm angry at someone like not hell. You
really seem pretty far
you that I'm angry at someone like not hell. You
really seem pretty far from what I
understand
pretty far from what I understand a social has
to be yeah that's
why I was like oh in in those
sometimes you get misdiagnosed very
misdiagnosed very frequently and I got this diagnosed
a lot so. I don't I would get
myself. Get myself checked for
the like a lot of things but
myself checked for the like a lot of things but. I
might ask I might ask first
during my day like routine
check-up eventually my
routines check up in like a
couple of months but
check up in like a couple of months but. If I have to
check up in like a couple of months but. If I have to
like pay more to take a
test I don't trust them as
I don't trust
them as much as much don't
much don't tell them too much that's how you
end up in jail me after completely
after completely opening up to my therapist
after completely opening up to my therapist. How
after completely opening up to my therapist. I was
crazy once I was trapped in the
room a white room filled
with rats oh guys
Mika is not associate but she
cares about roomy enough to let
her go Romy is getting married
in a couple of days that's why
I can't do it streams soon
streams soon. Literally I want to do more
streams soon. Literally I want to do more streams but
Mrs graduating a couple
of days later
roomie is getting married
getting married she's still going to be here until
like the first week of
September but just not with me like
it's a slow transition and then
she's going to leave
transition and then she's going to leave. Fuck
Fuck. Yeah hon
Fuck. Yeah honestly
Yeah
Yeah honestly I have went
through
Yeah honestly I have went through a good chunk of
trauma but I'm not going to
like this this is a fucked up
thing right I know some people
say that like Mika trauma dumps on
her free talks every single day
this is the fucked up thing
I'm still trying to
the fucked up thing I'm still trying to. Complet
trying to. Completely differentiate talking and
Trauma dumping I'm not
saying this is like a
I completely see the concern I
know
completely see the concern I know trauma dumping is
bad it's just I have gone
through so much that the things I
tell you guys are so tame in my
brain like in my brain
are so tame in my brain like in my brain. All the
are so tame in my brain like in my brain. All the
stories I've ever told you guys
are very tame I've only
remembered
remembered actually trauma dumping like telling you
guys shit that was really
bad like twice
shit that was really bad like twice. In 2 years
shit that was really bad like twice. In 2 years and
I'm not going to account
them like they still
affects me but
account them like they still affects me but. I in my
brain I don't consider it
as trauma dumping because
it as trauma dumping because. From my exper
it as trauma dumping because. From my experience
these are so minuscule that I did
not consider them actual trauma
consider them actual trauma. So when people
consider them actual trauma. So when people like
me cuz comma dumping it again I
was like. Oh shit am I
shit am I am so sorry. Oops. Oh God
Oh shit am I am so sorry. Oops. Oh God. Oh
Oh. Oh
Oh. Oh I'm glad you got the
treatment you need it that's good I don't
think you've been trauma dumping I
think I can't speak on this cuz
I do not know as I don't know
as much okay I like
as I don't know as much okay all I can say is
that I don't know a lot I'm so
navigating what what is considered
is considered trauma dumping and what is considered
just being open to your community
open to your community. Still thre
open to your community. Still thread
open to your community. Still threading on that
open to your community. Still threading on that we
learn as we go something
something learn as you go but
I'm glad you got the treatment
you needed grow back that's
really good. I think I
grow back that's really good. I think I don't
know my organs are kind of funny they
do a little bit of a cha cha
now and then but I have
really I am a very breathy person so
that's why I'm like I
want to be an ASM artist but ASMR
breathing is what I can do and
ironically actual ASMR for me would
be like breathing
actual ASMR for me would be like Breathing heavily
Breathing heavily while rubbing your ears is what
I'll probably I'll be like
your ears is what I'll probably I'll be like. I
don't think it's not
your ears is what I'll probably I'll be like. I
don't think it's not bad I
not bad I tried to like tell you good
stories too I don't
know. Something that wasn't
brought up but I want to talk
about this real quick I need your
advice to be fair chat I
don't know if I should bring this
up publicly or not
should bring this up publicly or not. But I recently
saw something and I feel
insanely guilty so I
need your genuine advice
do not sugar coat it right you
don't have to like defend
like defend anything or sugarcoat anything I need
your honest honest advice
you are my PR team now
PR team now. Literally today I was on YouTube for
a little bit and I saw
someone that made a clip
of me and it was like a it
was a picture of me with like a
text beside me being like
how Mika truly feels about
needy Sunday or some shit like
truly feels about that like. I know I have I have
spoken very very frankly about
niji Sanji before I have no
problems with it being clipped I
have no problems of people
problems of people. Of people making anything about
it or quoting me on what I say
because again
it or quoting me on what I say because again. When I
it or quoting me on what I say because again. When I
talk about my experience being
an engine shit it's not a
malicious clip
malicious clip it's not it's just when I talk
about my friend need you it's very
it's already public you know
I'm just reiterating public
Sing
Sing being like
Sing
Sing being like wow you know I
hate
Sing being like wow you know I hate this YouTuber
like somebody but
hate this YouTuber like somebody but. We just
but. We're just very very common there were people
that were saying either like oh
she reaped what she sow you
know and stuff and there were
it's just a normal fucking hate like
the normal hate that I get
where it's like she did not
act like a good indoor girl
and she did not even try to care
about her Indo viewers so she
deserves this but normal shit I'm
I'm going to be very honest I
don't mind it like I do not mind
those comments I've gotten it from
like a year ago okay if I'm
not resistant to it after a year
it after a year. Girl I am the dumb one so I have no
problems with the comments
being like that but I
think like I saw comment that
the Clipper made the Clipper said
like hi to clear this up this
was the context she was just
joking I will start deleting
the negative comments now so yeah
The Flipper is trying to delete
like negative comments from this
clip well I'm going to
assume that most of the negative
comments are towards me
are towards me. That's why I'm saying like
are towards me. That's why I'm saying like
saying like there's no malicious intent like
there were some
comments that didn't get deleted
yet so I saw it and a girl I
didn't don't feel bad like I do
not care like it is so normal
people are going to always think
about me in this light right from all
the collabs I did all the shit
I've done in the past people
don't not everyone is going to
continue to watch what I do so
even if I've grown as a person
not everyone will be aware and
it's completely normal for
people to stick to like their
opinions of me from like a year
ago and girl if I still did what
I did a year ago I would low key
think about myself that way too
so I don't mind it I have
completely accepted it however they
made the Clipper made a
comment being like
the Clipper made a comment being like. I will start
the Clipper made a comment being like. I will start
deleting the negative comments
negative comments and some people were responding to
the Clipper being like
you're doing a shit job you are
horrible blah but like there were
comments hating the clipper
hating the clipper. Being like you are doing a
horrible job of deleting these
negative comments do
better you're bad at this
stuff like that and I felt so
bad. I literally feel so guilty I
do not feel bad because
of the hate I feel bad because
they are getting hate
getting hate because I've said this before and I
said again. I am used to it like
I'm okay with that I am used
to it but not everyone is like
when I first start getting
first started getting hate. Bro I
first started getting hate. Bro I. Felt like shit
first started getting hate. Bro I. Felt like shit
and I don't want people to feel
that way I don't
care who you are I
don't want people to feel that
way. I don't know if I should
people to feel that way. I don't know if I should
address this publicly because
I'm scared if I had dressed
as publicly some people might feel
like they have to defend me or
something being like okay the
clip is out of context and they
deserve this shit like
of context and they deserve this shit like. I
don't want that mentality I I want
the Clifford to be left
alone just like let them
clip like this is
like this is. They're not usually clip like
they're not like a experience
Coco you know like
Coco you know like. I feel so bad I feel so so bad
for like the backlash they're
getting for what
I've said and it also made me
realize that. I really appreci
also made me realize that. I really appreciate anyone
that does anything in the
community like fan artist
Clippers editors anyone right
like fan artist Clippers editors anyone right. But
the thing is. It made me
anyone right. But the thing is. It made me realize
that if I said something
controversial I
might think that I can
tank the hate but if someone
decides to clip it or quote it
and they get hate
clip it or quote it and they get hate. Now I'm
clip it or quote it and they get hate. Now I'm
thinking more like I've never
never considered this and I lucky for a little
selfish but I never considered
never considered like if someone were to recote me on
something and they get hate like
what do I do so now I don't
know what to do
That's
That's the thing
That's
That's the thing I it would be
so
That's the thing I it would be so much easier if
I'm like oh the Clippers is
doing this to hate me I generally
think the Clipper was just
trying to put my opinion on YouTube
because they think it's
interesting like I don't think
that they have any malicious
malicious intentions I think they're just a sweet
person that usually Clips
usually Clips Luka and then clipped me saying
something borderline controversial
borderline controversial and now people are angry at
me and then they they try to
delete it and now people are upset
at them because obviously they
can't just spend their
whole day deleting comments like
that is unhealthy so sometimes
when they're not on
YouTube there will be hate
comments and they haven't deleted it
and now people are mad at them
people are mad at them. Now people are mad at them
and I feel so guilty like now
I'm thinking like are
there any other Clippers out there
that have experienced the
same because they clipped what
I said. Not I feel like I
because they clipped what I said. Not I feel like I
should give a warning it's
warning it's like for my clippers just know you
know just be safe on what you
clip because I don't want you
to get into shit yourself like
I don't want you to get into shit yourself like. Am
I a controversial figure now
it's like it's like
cliffing someone that is
controversial you know you kind of
know you're going to get hate
going to get hate. Should I give like that warning I
don't know what to do I
wanted to address it
publicly but I thought like I didn't
want to bring any more
attention to this. But I also
bring any more attention to this. But I also
don't want the Clipper to get
hate or even think that I dislike
them I think they're doing
their best like I'm so
sorry I have to experience this
experience this buddy. You know. I feel bad
experience this buddy. You know. I feel bad
I feel bad. That's yeah
I feel bad. That's yeah that's
that's
That's yeah that's that's something that I
was considering too I didn't want
people to be like I'm
like I'm bringing more attention being like why
he just defending this one person
it's just because this is the one
person I've seen you know
but I can be very
Frank. And that's the
thing I think
you know but I can be very Frank. And that's the
thing I think like here's
like the what I think
about right like
this is how my brain process
works I don't know if this is
the truth but this is what I
think feel free to correct me if
I'm wrong. But in the past I
used to be very collabby right very
loud Tracy or whatever the
fuck so I would collab with
a lot of people and I got backlash
for it because it was
either the if your ID why are you
speaking so much English it's
either that or even your
even your collabing with like everyone and blah
even your clubbing with like everyone and
even your clubbing with like everyone and. It's
just the normal we got used to
it Queen we got used to it
to it Queen we got used to it. But because
to it Queen we got used to it. But because of all of
that. I used to take care of
But because of all of that. I used to take care of
what I say obviously I used to
be more careful with the
things I say and the things I do
because I knew that I was doing
this to get like more
attention or something so I didn't
want people to what is it
watch my streams and listen to
me complain right like if you
are new to my stream and
at that time 80% of my viewers
were new to my stream I want
to give a better impression and
I've stopped doing that Clips are like Clips are
being posted of what I do now and
now I just talk very frankly I
talk very frankly I. Say what I feel I tell Chad
about like oh this is the situation
that you can
check on Twitter yourself
Twitter yourself I'm not making up a situation
you know you can just fact check it
yourself I'm just highlighting
just highlighting it. And because of that
just highlighting it. And because of that people
think like oh my God she's
not only is she
she cut out Tracy she is now so shitty like she says
a lot of shitty things and
stuff so the merge the mix of it if
you don't follow me as
I've like grown over the past couple
of months and that's
completely understandable. You probably think
completely understandable. You probably think I'm
an asshole right I get it
it's it's not something
not something that I'm like oh my God I can't
fathom where this hate is coming
from I knew I know the moment I
decided to be more verbal and more
open on stream I knew this shit
was going to happen like
it's not that hard to not
assume things right so I already
knew I just don't want like
right so I already knew I just don't want like. I
don't want people
right so I already knew I just don't want like. I
don't want people attacking
people attacking other people just because it's
not malicious I
know that clip in my opinion a large
part want their fandom purely
positive for them they don't
want to hear anything else
them they don't want to hear anything else. I
don't mind people hating on me or
something like that I just
don't want the
Clipper to get hate cuz chat they
have like 400 Subs like they
they're not experienced with this
this is like one of their
first Clips kind of blew up and
they got negative attention I
don't want them to experience
it I don't know honestly
know honestly don't think it's your fault at
all the people who watch your stream
would understand the context but
the Clipper Watcher would
not. Yeah that's why I
Clipper Watcher would not. Yeah that's why I was
like should I bring it up
publicly and be like hey
and be like hey. Don't do that. Don't attack
and be like hey. Don't do that. Don't attack
Don't attack other people. Okay. Okay
Don't attack other people. Okay. Okay. The thing is
Don't attack other people. Okay. Okay. The thing is
because I'm
I'm going to company I can't freely
message people right
company I can't freely message people right. All I
company I can't freely message people right. All I
can say is there was this drama
that happened back then
not with me with
Not with me with someone else and I kind of learned
from it. First of all
and I kind of learned from it. First of all in our
contracts were not technically
allowed to just DM random
people without. What is it
just DM random people without. What is it
just DM random people without. What is it. I don't
just DM random people without. What is it. I
don't know. Talking to
What is it. I don't know. Talking to your internal
people about it right
it's between you
and me
about it right it's between you and me. So we
about it right it's between you and me. So we do
have a little bit of restriction
also like I have said
this before but
staff can access some things so
exactly my YouTube Right
YouTube Right you've you know that I've asked
staff to make waiting rooms or
change waiting rooms for me so
staff can access it
rooms for me so staff can access it. And
rooms for me so staff can access it. And. Yes stuff
rooms for me so staff can access it. And. Yes stuff
like that so it's not I
I can't just easily DM them also there was drama in
the past where
there was drama in the past where. A stream
there was drama in the past where. A streamer
there was drama in the past where. A streamer I can
say a streamer got caught
like stalking their
fans or some shit well
not stalking
I
I just
I just don't know how
I
I just
I just don't know how to word my
feelings
feelings sometimes but you have a solid Point like
a solid Point like. I don't want people to think
like I'm like okay buddy you know
you know the
risk I'm hands off I just want
them to knock a hate like that is
all I'm saying you know like I
don't I want people on the internet
to have a good time I don't
want them to be exposed to what I
was exposed to but I can't I
don't know how to word it
properly God it's so difficult but
difficult but thank you you're actually coming from
a solid point I'll try and
like think about better words
to put sometimes you all know
this I don't have bad
intentions but I am a really dumb
speaker I'm not good at talking
good at talking. Weirdly enough because I do
good at talking. Weirdly enough because I do like 5
hours free talking streams
but I'm not good at
talking. Maybe Focus
I'm not good at talking. Maybe focus on
I'm not good at talking. Maybe focus on encouraging
others you have a solid point
that will yeah that I
think that will convey my
message a bit better
will convey my message a bit better. Yeah me
will convey my message a bit better. Yeah me. But
yeah that's. I can't
better. Yeah me. But yeah that's. I can't DM
people there was a bit of
a drama
because a streamer
decided to
bit of a drama because a streamer decided to. Like
they would look at
people's Twitter accounts like
their viewers Twitter accounts
and like like some pictures
or whatever
like like some pictures or whatever. And people are
like like some pictures or whatever. And people are
like holy shit the streamer
the streamer is so parasocial to their viewers
the streamer is so parasocial to their viewers. And
it got a whole whole thing I'm
pretty sure they didn't
mean to do that right
they were just trying to show like
oh I want to support the
support the community back and stuff like that I will
notice you you know they have
good intentions it's just
some people on the internet
can see problems with everything so I
am becoming a bit more careful
about it. I don't think it's
a bit more careful about it. I don't think it's
a good way to directly talk
directly talk about cuz it might got more attention
and be more controversial but
controversial but really sweet to know you care about
yeah that's why okay
I I'll probably think about a
statement that won't bring them up
won't bring them up. That's the thing from my
experience I have tried
doing something like that
where someone did something and
they got backlash but I
decided to like show my support
like show my support. If I did that people are going
to spam more hate because
to spam more hate because. First of all I'm giving
to spam more hate because. First of all I'm giving
them like wreck like I noticed
this thing exist right and
people like the people that are
already spamming hate
spamming hate comments that are trying to be deleted
will start directly commenting
directly commenting under my comments and now the
Clipper needs to delete more
message and the thing is I
don't want the Clipper to be
burdened by deleting messages and I
also don't want the Clipper
to read the negative
the negative messages right I don't want them to
feel like oh my God I made it
so much worse like she noticed she
read all these negative
these negative comments I have to make sure it's
deleted fast like stuff like that
I'm just worried about it but
people will start acting me
being like you got bad
start acting me being like you got bad you know
I'm okay I have said multiple
said multiple times that like I am okay with hate
like I have become so irrelevant
that I don't get hate anymore
but I do get a little bit
but a little like
get a little bit but a little like. This is going to
get a little bit but a little like. This is going to
sound so out of touch but
out of touch but. With the amount of
out of touch but. With the amount of
people that are
subscribed to me and stuff
are subscribed to me and stuff. Five people are
are subscribed to me and stuff. Five people are so
little right like five people to
someone that has 400 Subs is
a lot five people with someone like
me is not that much so
it's easier for me but for them
it's like this is that's a lot
of people and yeah acknowledging
yeah acknowledging it would be backfiring myself
yeah acknowledging it would be backfiring myself. Ad
yeah acknowledging it would be backfiring myself. ADM
backfiring myself. Admitting it would be
backfiring myself. Admitting it would be backfiring
like I don't like I'm not
trying to protect
to protect myself like I'm trying to protect the
Clipper I don't want the
Clipper to feel worse
don't want the Clipper to feel worse. I might just
approach. I might just approach
it in a way that's
like hi guys you
know if the spread
love if you see some hate you know
maybe instead of making that extra
effort to send hate to make the
extra effort to spread
positivity maybe I'll go with
that generic stream
maybe I'll go with that generic streamer
streamer around God via influence or sucks bro I
don't want to be that I
just want to stream I want to say
what I have to say
stream I want to say what I have to say. Say the word
stream I want to say what I have to say. Say the word
Queen and we can all be your
haters you are already my haters what
do you mean
already my haters what do you mean. To be honest we
already my haters what do you mean. To be honest we
could just warm it with
positive comments the
thing is there are
a lot of positive comments
thing is there are a lot of positive comments. On
the clip itself
positive comments. On the clip itself. Is this I want
positive comments. On the clip itself. Is this I want
the Clipper to know that
they are not doing a
bad job like yes
I'm going to have to admit they
did clip me a little bit out of
contacts they didn't put the
contacts that I was talking about
clearing up the misunderstanding
the misunderstanding with Mista they kind of just
they kind of just. Cut it halfway through so it
sounded like out of thin air I
brought up mister and
I said that I was using him for
cloud it sounded like that
so. I get it they
it sounded like that so. I get it they did try to
clear up the misunderstanding and
their own comment
section but you know people
don't fucking read sometimes
read sometimes people just watch the video get angry
and comment so
the video get angry and comment so. I get it
the video get angry and comment so. I get it I just
don't want them to feel like I
hate them I don't mind I get it
Yeah I
Yeah I mean
Yeah
Yeah I
Yeah I mean I'm already thinking
about
Yeah I mean I'm already thinking about that
about that actually like I'm thinking of not
being so like I might be sugar
coating things publicly more now just
just because now I know like
back then I thought if I
didn't sugar coat it I will
get backlash and I didn't want
backlash so then the moment I'm
like I don't give a shit about
backlash I will just say what I have to
say right but
just say what I have to say right but. Now now that
I know that if I were to do
that and someone
decides to quote me or
clip me they will get backlash
I will be more careful cuz
like I want to give a shit about
this this is I felt really bad when
I saw it I was like oops
felt really bad when I saw it I was like oops. Y
felt really bad when I saw it I was like oops. Yik
felt really bad when I saw it I was like oops. Yikes
I will probably just use the
the see now you know now you
know how it like the
inner workings of this whole
PR
how it like the inner workings of this whole PR. Like
PR statements and why they
are the way they are it's
like sometimes I wish I
can address it but addressing it
it's just going to make it
worse for not me but them right so I
have to be like oh maybe
I'll just give the pr statement
of being like Oh instead of using
your energy on spreading hey
let's spread love like the most
PR State whatever
love like the most PR State whatever. I'll think
love like the most PR State whatever. I'll think
about it you know I'll try
and talk to some friends
about it
I'll try and talk to some friends about it. But
yeah you right I just don't
want the Clipper to get more
negative attention
want the Clipper to get more negative attention. I
think many libraries of female
viewers Skyrocket skyrockets
it because of
viewers Skyrocket skyrocketed because of lexium
viewers Skyrocket skyrocketed because of lexium. I
will have to ad
because of lexium. I will have to admit
viewers Skyrocket skyrocketed because of lexium. I
will have to admit that somewhat
true like loxian being the
first male wave
and they blew up so much garnered
so many female viewers but
female viewers but. That is a good thing
female viewers but. That is a good thing you know I
I hate PR talk same girl as
you can tell I don't
do a lot of PR I don't have a
PR team but. The only time
I don't have a PR team but. The only time like
nowadays back then I gave a lot of
shit about my reputation oh my
God I was like oh no some person
called me a leech I'm
going to cry now but nowadays I
nowadays I don't give a shit but if it affects my
community or the people I care
about. I will be careful
the people I care about. I will be careful like the
only time I pull out my PR
wallet is if it might
potentially harm other people
if it might potentially harm other people. So I still
have to be more Peoria about
it you don't even have
a team shut the
fuck up. Okay that's a
have a team shut the fuck up. Okay that's a stress
I do not make call because
make call because. That's true she sucks have you
not seen my cool
schedule is this the quality content
you were looking for
were looking for. It's okay the heretic I mean
heretic I mean. One day. Girl we are
heretic I mean. One day. Girl we aren't
independent
One day. Girl we aren't independent. Queen
One day. Girl we aren't independent. Queen. Is
independent. Queen. That's what I
independent. Queen. Is what I was but we are
independent. Queen. Is what I was but we are an
independent Queen
chats this is the
quality content
everyone was talking about I see
science and not a thank you for
the donation you're so right I
do make high quality
quality. Buddy creative out of this world
quality. Creative out of this world streams
quality. Creative out of this world streams. House
slipper problems and
stuff
streams. House flipper problems and stuff
streams. House flipper problems and stuff. Good
and stuff. Good. Independent true
Good. Independent true. I say SM
Good. Independent true. I say smile
Good. Independent true. I say
smiley face
I say smiley face. I will
I say smiley face. I will hold back that much but
when it comes to I'll I'll
think about it a bit
more you know I'll have something to
consider so I'll do my
best but I'm not going to be
perfect immediately so I can say like
I'll fuck up eventually but we
try we be tried it's good to
have something to consider
though it's not limiting at
all if it's if it's to
make sure that things don't get too
out of hand or hurt other people
don't get too out of hand or hurt other people. I
think it's worth it right
content is fun but the moment it
becomes harmful I
always think it's not worth the
sacrifice but that's
that's amazing I don't know haha the walls have
ears it's okay. I am Sur
the walls have ears it's okay. I am surround
the walls have ears it's okay. I am surrounded
the walls have ears it's okay. I am surrounded by
walls that are facing the other way
are facing the other way. Threading I'm thread
are facing the other way. Threading I'm threading
my job. But not come
Threading I'm threading my job. But not come back
on the Huntsville Virginia
Huntsville Virginia months where are your car facts
shaking no Carfax banned them
scam a lie but I said I was about
to tell you guys a story again
but yeah I'll just say it I
remember saying that I am very
sensitive to loud noises early
in the Stream and I said I'll
talk about that but I
forgot. But I remember now
about that but I forgot. But I remember now but a
lot of my friends are actually
very very sweet like I know
a lot of people might look at
their public Persona and be like
oh they're not that
nice are they they're
they're actually very very very sweet I'll say
this one experience I have with
Nina and another experience I
had with Mista that really like
Mista that really like. Made me go like
Mista that really like. Made me go like oh wow they
went out of their way to make me
feel more comfortable so
with Nina I remember we were
eating somewhere and then like I
didn't say anything but
it was quite late and there was a
lot of people like it was
really loud and it was like a pub
it was like a year ago but it
was like a pub thing people
are watching like a sport game
and people were would go like you
know and I get really scared
like I get shaken up from loud
noises very very easily so I
remember during this time I
didn't say anything cuz I didn't
want to ruin the mood but
cuz I didn't want to ruin the mood but. N
cuz I didn't want to ruin the mood but. Nina off
cuz I didn't want to ruin the mood but. Nina offer
cuz I didn't want to ruin the mood but. Nina
offered to like hey let's sit
outside right and at that
time chat it wasn't
like it's warm outside like
it was cold outside and people
would already comfortable being
comfortable being inside of the restaurants but
restaurants but Nina's like I want to sit outside
because I feel a bit stuffy but
I knew she was doing it for me
was doing it for me. I knew. Nina doesn't feel
was doing it for me. I knew. Nina doesn't feel
stuffy. Thank you thanks that
you like my
house flipper and stuff
streams yeah I knew she
was doing it for me cuz she
never felt stuffy at all
Damn
Damn girl
Damn girl I wish I had a hug
Damn girl I wish I had a hug. Mom is so
Damn girl I wish I had a hug. Mom is supposed to
Damn girl I wish I had a hug. Mom is so saying it is
so sweet. Yeah you're right
Mom is so saying it is so sweet. Yeah you're right
I'm just going to oh my God
sorry chat. What what does that
to oh my God sorry chat. What what does that mean
what does that mean. Exactly chat I play dumb I'm
not dumb I'm just
pretending to be dumb to avoid
controversy that's true
dumb to avoid controversy that's true. Yes
true. Yes believe that actually believe that but
yeah Nina have done a lot of stuff
like that I can't remember
can't remember immediately but I still remember
still remember that one time it was just a loud
place and she's like I'm
like I'm feeling a bit stuffy and here guys
let's go outside like I just want to
be outside but I know that Nina
knows that I'm very sensitive
to loud noises so I thought that
was so sweet. And another thing
I thought that was so sweet. And another thing with
this something was messed up that
I never said this out
loud because I know
I know. Out loud because I know that I can get some
backlash for it but
I remember during
the off collab last year as well
last year as well. Okay Mrs not allowed person right
like a lot of people have
said this he said it
so he is not allowed person
not allowed person. Offstream off stream he is very
quiet and. Not en
off stream he is very quiet and. Not ener
off stream he is very quiet and. Not energet
off stream he is very quiet and. Not energetic at all
he's like a dead
person like I speak
softly but I still speak as
much Mr doesn't speak so
but I still speak as much Mr doesn't speak so. Yeah
but I remember
but I still speak as much Mr doesn't speak so. Yeah
but I remembered he was like
remembered he was like. Setting up stuff
remembered he was like. Setting up stuff oh yeah he
was setting up
stuff for a stream
that he was doing and
when you set up stuff you
have to be loud right you have to be
like testing like if your
Mike Peaks or if anything bad
happens stuff like that
Peaks or if anything bad happens stuff like that
Peaks or if anything bad happens stuff like that. So
we were all chilling there
stuff like that. So we were all chilling there. And
I remember. Before Melissa
decided to test his
mic. He looked at me
decided to test his mic. He looked at me and he
was like Hey
Mickey I'm going to test my
mic can you go
away there are other people there by
the way like he only asked me
to go away and I was like why
I was like do you hate me that
much like what the fuck
the fuck is happening okay he's like yeah you can
like go away a little bit and I
responded I was like you hate me
that much bro like what the fuck
that I do like do you want me to
be out of the room like away
from your presence okay Mr Big
famous guy. And I just said like
presence okay Mr Big famous guy. And I just said like
why you bitch I didn't say
that but somewhere in
somewhere in that lines. I miss us like no
somewhere in that lines. I miss us like no
I don't hate you it's just I'm
going to be loud so
you it's just I'm going to be loud so. If you
don't want to hear
you it's just I'm going to be loud so. If you
don't want to hear it like you
have to be in the other
room so it's not
like you hear peeking sounds and
I was like oh I don't think he
meant to do that but he took into
consideration
that but he took into consideration that's sweet
cuz the thing is I
hate it's not hate but it's
somewhat trigger something in my
brain like it makes me so anxious
there are two things the first
thing is loud like silence
loudness silence like if it's
like this and then suddenly
I just start yelling and then I go
like this and then I
saw yelling again that for some reason it
triggers my anxiety in my
brain like. I don't know I grew up
my anxiety in my brain like. I don't know I grew up
with a very like my
family's argue a lot okay like when
I was younger my family argued
almost every day and they're the
yelling throwing things Until
It Breaks kind of people so it
trigger something and gets me
very anxious
something and gets me very anxious. And another thing
that makes me weird is
when people go like
no no no like that
I can't even do that like they go
from soft to slowly loud like
that like they go from soft to slowly loud because
that like they go from soft to slowly loud because
slowly loud because. So I don't know why
slowly loud because. So I don't know why that one
I don't know why
know why that one I don't know why. But it also
triggers my anxiety
a lot like I'm not even saying
like it triggers
me chat I get sad no like I will
just be at a catatonic State like
I'm shut down you know
it's like approaching sound oh my
God maybe it's ancient
thing like for my Asian people
do you know the fear of
your like laying down in bed and you can
hear your mom's footsteps
slowly coming closer and
it's like really loud so you
know she's upset and then
you're just like oh I have to be
not in bed standing up pretending
like I'm doing something
doing something. That's me when she does that
it's like a 3 second moment where
I'm like
it's like a 3 second moment where I'm like. Did
I defrost the chicken did I
cook the rice that I put the
rice cooker on cooking
mode or did I just leave it on
heating mode that I clean the
dishes that I that I mopped the
floor that I do enough and I
think about all that in like 3
seconds because you just
hear like. The foot
because you just hear like. The footstep
because you just hear like. The footsteps coming
footsteps coming like thugging closer and closer and
you know you can feel
the door opening before it even
happened yeah it's like an
instant panic mode like I would
stand up for my bed and pretend
like I'm reading a book or like
cleaning something I don't
like like slowly like
slowly like approaching sounds when it gets louder
and louder dude it freaks me out
I think the worst that it's
ever happened was I was I was
like paralyzed I
paralyzed I couldn't say anything I couldn't do
anything like I was just my
eyes are wide open and I wasn't
crying but because I didn't
blink for so long I start like
tearing up because I just
couldn't blink like I just
couldn't bring myself to move
anything in my body and it feels like
I just couldn't breathe
couldn't breathe you know like you stop whatever
you're doing you forgot how to
breathe you forgot how to Blink so
then everything looks really
weird like it can reach to
that point it doesn't
it doesn't usually but it can if it's that bad
and it's so consistent right so
they know it and they're like
and they're like. Oh until today they're still
they're still like that like. They tried to keep
their
they're still like that like. They tried to keep
their voice calmer and
they tried to keep a
calm tone even if
calm tone even if. Even if they're like feeling
upset they usually don't
show it to me and stuff
it's I feel bad because I can be
there for them but I it's sweet
it's sweet that they like try
to look out for this it's like a
weird thing imagine having kids
noise 12 hours per day I was a
very I wasn't energetic kid
but. I stopped talking so
much when I was like in preschool
was like in preschool. Forgot to BL
was like in preschool. Forgot to Blink it's more
to like I don't know how to
explain it it feels like
you are frozen you know like it
feels like the world around you
kind of. Stops. But you
world around you kind of. Stops. But you also stop
with it. I don't
But you also stop with it. Like you can't
But you also stop with it. Like you can't like
let's say you
want to stand up
and leave you can't
you want to stand up and leave you can't. You know
you want to stand up and leave you can't. You know
like you want to Blink you
can't and like you think
about like am I
breathing and the best I can explain
it is it feels like
the best I can explain it is it feels like. It's
like you're going to die
the best I can explain it is it feels like. It's
like you're going to die
going to die. That's how it feels like
going to die. That's how it feels like I don't
know explain
know explain it. Is it I don't know nothing about
it I'm sorry if I was
driving up into
know nothing about it I'm sorry if I was
driving up into I don't
know anything about these terms bro
no one tells me these things
these terms bro no one tells me these things. Hi bro
it's the Asian thing
these things. Hi bro it's the Asian thing. The pan
these things. Hi bro it's the Asian thing. The
Panic at The yeah it's like it
feels like if I
don't do anything I am going to
die in that exact moment and
for some reason I don't want
to die like. I joke about
reason I don't want to die like. I joke about
like Chad I want to die but when I have
those moments I'm like I want
to survive what can I do
I'm going to die it's like
that it's so odd it is so so
odd. I I still don't explain it it
feels like the world stops but
it's not stopping
and you stop but you're also
not stopping. Bro
but you're also not stopping. Bro. I can explain
but you're also not stopping. Bro. I can explain
it in a sound in a sound effect
sound effect it's not if it feels like this
feels like this. That's also not good it
feels like this. That's also not good how I explain
how I feel. Like that
good how I explain how I feel. Like that
explain how I feel. Like that. Is
explain how I feel. Like that. You
explain how I feel. Like that. Do you
explain how I feel. Like that. You
explain how I feel. Like that. Do you get one
explain how I feel. Like that. Do you get to say
explain how I feel. Like that. Do you get to say
I'd be one of the best therapist
ever
it's like
the best therapist ever it's like. Oh I see
the best therapist ever it's like. Oh I see I
understand your problem do you feel
like or do you feel like
problem do you feel like or do you feel like. Or is
problem do you feel like or do you feel like. Or is
it perhaps more of a
you feel like. Or is it perhaps more of a. H yes
you feel like. Or is it perhaps more of a. H yes
classic state of
you feel like. Or is it perhaps more of a. H yes
classic state of everywhere
instead of my cock
Or is it perhaps more of a. H yes classic state of
everywhere instead of my cock it's my entire soul
it's my entire soul. As an Asian I just
it's my entire soul. As an Asian I just feel like
it sounds like a normal asian life
story
sounds like a normal asian life story. I don't
sounds like a normal asian life story. I don't
know if you guys have experienced
have experienced this but. I remember
experienced this but. I remembered I was told to
cook the rice and like this
is like the most generalizing
but this is what I remembered
so hard so I was told to cook
the rice but I forgot to put it
on cooking mode so a rice cooker
usually have a heating mode
like a warming mode or a cooking
mode and I forgot to put it
on the cooking mode so when
my parents came back and shit
and they wanted to eat they open
the rice cooker and the rice
is not cooked yet
cooker and the rice is not cooked yet. And I was
cooker and the rice is not cooked yet. And I was so
scared I was like what
I put. It in and then my
mom's like did you
click the button and I was
like oh no I guess I
didn't bro. Yeah I guess
like oh no I guess I didn't bro. Yeah you guys been
like oh no I guess I didn't bro. Yeah you guys been
there is this a common experience
it's like a can an event
it's like. The Canon as
can an event it's like. The Canon Asian event
you know ever since that day you
always triple check the rice
cooking button
triple check the rice cooking button. You made por
triple check the rice cooking button. You made
porridge I made sand and water bro
adorable welcome
back Mika I'm Mr
strings even though it's
though it's Gremlin sounds you make
though it's Gremlin sounds you make. Those
make. Those aren't Gremlin sounds that's me
but that's my effort on
being an ASMR
artist do you think I'll make it
chat no I think I will
think I'll make it chat no I think I will. Oh
Oh. Well
Oh. Well I swear
I have found out a lot about myself on
stream which is nuts I found out
is nuts I found out. I found out that I was color
blind apparently apparently chat I
am slightly color
blind I have a hard time noticing
greens and reds if it's so
faded. So the fact that someone
clipped that moment for me bro
everyone was laughing they
were like hahaha chat
was laughing they were like hahaha chat. At that
was laughing they were like hahaha chat. At that
moment I felt like I did not
know who I was I was like
oh my God
not know who I was I was like oh my God. I thought I
not know who I was I was like oh my God. I thought I
was in color blind but apparently
I was like that's
hilarious chat I
was I was having an existential
crisis I was like
having an existential crisis I was like. Bitch
having an existential crisis I was like. Bitch. 4
years I was like I'm normal I
just have bad eyesight
but I'm
not colored blind
not colored blind. That happened. I found out
not colored blind. That happened. I found out about
all my bad habits
because of streaming I
found out that I have
apparently a trauma response
what the fuck. I thought I
a trauma response what the fuck. I thought I knew
myself well. What the fuck
I thought I knew myself well. What the fuck
I thought I knew myself well. What the fuck. For
I thought I knew myself well. What the fuck. Or
I thought I knew myself well. What the fuck. For us
What the fuck. Or else it was fun
I thought I knew myself well. What the fuck. Or else
it was fun you know that one
person that I think was
pick up a capo I don't
think they clipped me as much
anymore but. That one cl
clipped me as much anymore but. That one clip of me
having an existential crisis
existential crisis because I found out I was color
blind on stream has a million
views. One million
stream has a million views. One million. View
stream has a million views. One million. Views
stream has a million views. One million. Views. Even
I don't get 1 million bro a
million views of people
just
being like holy shit
million views of people just being like holy shit. BL
being like holy shit. I'm out. A million a million
million a million. Ing I'm gonna make it you can
Google you
can search it right
now it's my pickup
Acapulco it's about me being
color blind and they have one million
views I was having an
existential crisis I was like oh my
color blind am I what else am I you
know like am I am I actually
insane like what's going on
what's going on. People just watch
what's going on. People just watching and went
like. Funny. There are other
stream
watching and went like. Funny. There are other
streamers react there
are who. Wait you
need to
streamers react there are who. Wait you
need to
there are who. Wait you need to. Hate
there are who. Wait you need to. Hate. What the fuck
there are who. Wait you need to. Hate. What the fuck
did they laugh at me love
that clip fuck
chat
thank you good playlist
yeah that was the first thing
of you I ever
saw
the first thing of you I ever saw. Up early
the first thing of you I ever saw. It it's
because of OverWatch
saw. It's because of OverWatch. Literally
saw. It's because of OverWatch. Literally. I would
saw. It's because of OverWatch. Literally. I would
have lived fine I would have
lived a happy content life
not knowing I was
color blind by the way
not knowing I was color blind by the way. Fuck
not knowing I was color blind by the way. Fuck. Dude
not knowing I was color blind by the way. Fuck. The
fact that I found
not knowing I was color blind by the way. Fuck. The
fact that I found out I was color
blind because I had
OverWatch on color blind
mode and people are like oh
my God you're
and people are like oh my God you're. That
you're. That you're like overwatches color
overwatches color blind are you color blind
and I was like no
Man
Man. Wait
Man. Wait nags and flesh tubers
or
Man. Wait nags and flesh tubers or what or are they
color blind or
something
or are they color blind or something. Thank you high
or are they color blind or something. Thank you hi-te
or are they color blind or something. Thank you
Hi-Tech Aztec fuck you
something. Thank you high tech Aztec fuck you
something. Thank you high tech Aztec fuck you. Okay
it made sense in my
brain it was
supposed to be in the
same wavelength
it was supposed to be in the same wavelength. God
damn chats. To be fair I use
same wavelength. God damn chats. To be fair I use
color blind mode too because I
like those
colors that's what I
thought too I was like I like
purple and I like the color purple
and I like the color yellow it
made more sense to me than red
and blue. But it's also
sense to me than red and blue. But it's also
because red does blend in with the
background a bit more for me
blend in with the background a bit more for me. They
reacted to it
blend in with the background a bit more for me. They
reacted to it
bit more for me. They reacted to it. What's fuck
bit more for me. They reacted to it. What's
bit more for me. They reacted to it. Fucking l
They reacted to it. Fucking l. Uck
Oh oh. I
Oh oh. I should take this
Oh oh. I
Oh oh. I should take this
opportunity
to
I should take this opportunity to take a piss let me
just type this
to take a piss let me just type this. Sorry stream
died again. I'm a
this. Sorry stream died again. I'm a piece
this. Sorry stream died again. I'm a piece. Okay
I'm a piece. Okay. Is it back off fuck
I'm a piece. Okay. Is it back off fuck
awesome not to take
this chance to
piss
okay pretend like the
stream is dead because I need to
take a big girl piss fuck
because I need to take a big girl piss fuck. Okay
just pretend
because I need to take a big girl piss fuck. Okay
I
I am
I am back
I
I am
I am back
I am back stop being hot
I am back
I am back. I took a big
I am back. I took a big girl
piss
I am back. I took a big girl piss also when I took a
big old piss I wanted
to tell you guys that
when I was away Rumi decided to
revamp some things by the way
things by the way. Yeah she added some things and
she bought this new room
freshener oh my God this the
first
freshener oh my God this the first time I actually
really really fell in love with
the smell
really fell in love with the smell. It's not
really fell in love with the smell. It's nuts but I
really fell in love with the smell. It's nuts but I
don't know if you can
get it in your own
country she put it in the
toilet so
country she put it in the toilet so. Toilet so when I
enter the toilet just now I
could smell it and I I fell in love
with it since yesterday
and I I fell in love with it since yesterday. Did you
wash your hand
since yesterday. Did you wash your hands
and I I fell in love with it since yesterday. Did you
wash your hands yes I did
your hands yes I did. Did you even I did it's my
Dahlia this sounds
like such a sponsored stream
Dahlia this sounds like such a sponsored stream. Fuck
you ziply. Fuck you're
really sir. God damn it
ziply. Fuck you're really sir. God damn it why is
it me blue
supers you think my pisses
it why is it me blue super you think my piss is blue
super you think my piss is blue. Okay it's
super you think my piss is blue. Okay
super you think my piss is blue. It's the
super you think my piss is blue. Okay it's the
brand is Dahlia I know that I'm
supposed to say Brands but bro
I'm not going to keep good smell if
you like good smell I really
recommend it it's. The brand
smell I really recommend it it's. The brand is
Dahlia and the smell is
Spectrum. I don't know if
you can
the smell is Spectrum. I don't know if
you can get it
if you can get it. Outside of IND
if you can get it. Outside of Indo because I think
it's like a
special thing because of Indonesian
Independence Day
because of Indonesian Independence Day. I came back
because of Indonesian Independence Day. I came back
to the movies said it
because of Indonesian Independence Day. I came back
oh she's so based
it
smells
I came back oh she's so based it smells so good I
have never smelled something that
good. Say key
Say key. Say
Say key. Say. Say I
Say key. Say. Say icky
Say key. Say. Say icky. Hol
Say key. Say. Say icky. Holy
Say. Say icky. ? if you're
Indonesian
Say. Say icky. ? if you're Indonesian I'll say
this in Indonesian so
my
Indonesian viewers will
Indonesian viewers will. Really get
Indonesian viewers will. Really gets it I don't
Indonesian viewers will. Really gets it I don't
think you can get outside of Indo
just because I think this is
like a new smell that
they've been releasing recently
releasing recently. Because of Indonesian
Indonesian Independence Day so I think it's just
Indonesian
just Indonesian but for maybe it's not the brand
is Dahlia the smell is a book
freshener American Delia
smell is a book freshener America
smell is a book freshener America. Is I actually
smell is a book freshener America. Is
America. Is I actually have never
smell is a book freshener America. I've never
smell is a book freshener America. I've never
like. Had it bleeding no
matter
I've never like. Had it bleeding no matter. No I
I've never like. Had it bleeding no matter. No I
thought you believe online
thought you believe online. I think they have
thought you believe online. I think
No I thought you believe online. I think they have
the spray option but my roomie
just got the hanging version
it's so good just a hanging
one the one where you cut open the
plastic a little bit and hang it it
smells so good I am so
obsessed like I'm asking
so good I am so obsessed like I'm asking. I'm
asking roomie to buy me more just
like and hang it in my
room. It's so good
just like and hang it in my room. It's so good
you should try it they have to
one is the other
one is green
I don't know what it is but she
bought two the green one is okay I
don't I don't Vibe with it
100% but this time is so good
like if they stop releasing it I will
cry they have to make this
permanent or I will cry
they have to make this permanent or I will cry. I Rec
or I will cry. I recommend if you
they have to make this permanent or I will cry. I
recommend if you like the smell the
best I can explain it is
if you've had
Indonesian tea like Indonesian
like Indonesian sweet warm tea right I'm pretty
sure a lot of like my Indo people
have known this experience
this experience it's raining outside and you
decide to get like a bowl of warm
indomie and then you want to
have like a warm sweet tea to
accompany that. And you know when
you drink
warm sweet tea to accompany that. And you know when
you drink the warm sweet tea
for the first
time and you're like
oh like call Lucky Plaza
time and you're like oh like call Lucky Bossa you
time and you're like oh like call Lucky bossa
time and you're like oh like call Lucky Bossa
time and you're like oh like call Lucky bossa
time and you're like oh like call Lucky Bossa
time and you're like oh like call Lucky bossa
time and you're like oh like call Lucky Bossa
no more money. It's so
call Lucky Bossa no more money. It's so good I
have never had a smell like I
don't usually like tea smell if
it's not like tea leaves but this one
is so. Oh. But as
leaves but this one is so. Oh. But Esther
leaves but this one is so. Oh. But Esther is above
all yeah but it's like those
kind of things
where it's like it's raining and you're like
you're like feeling a bit cold. And also you want
you're like feeling a bit cold. And also you want
to drink something warm
And also you want to drink something warm. I'm
telling you to Monica is
awesome Google Assistant. Good luck tomorrow again I
have to say this this is not a
sponsored statement this
is just something that my
roomie bought. And I have
something that my roomie bought. And I have fallen
in love with it and I'm not
going to get keep. The Google
it and I'm not going to get keep. The Google info
that I've been getting
keep. The Google info that I've been getting. Girl
getting. Girl. When you're fasting and when you
want to eat you get a
tea and
it smells like that
yeah it's so good
smells like that yeah it's so good. Summer book on
smells like that yeah it's so good. Summer
good. Summer buccane salad I don't like bow jerk I
don't I don't like
lemon smell I
don't like orange smell because
of like you guys know but I hate
citrusy smells ever since of
that like I got that stomach
surgery thingy thingy the camera
shoved up my ass and the Lacks
thingy the camera shoved up my ass and the lacks
tasting like lemon never again
lemon never again. Yeah here's the thing
lemon never again. Yeah here's the thing. Just it
is now I can say I can safely
say that starting from
now chat I don't
think I will ever get sponsored
but if I am sponsored about
sponsored about something I will say it obviously but
this is just like random chance
encounter
just like random chance encounter I am super happy
with the product and I
will speak about it
the product and I will speak about it. D
the product and I will speak about it. Dal
the product and I will speak about it. Dalia I should
have say this again in
public streams. D
say this again in public streams. Dah
say this again in public streams. Dahlia
call
say this again in public streams. Dahlia
say this again in public streams. Dalia
again in public streams. Dahlia call Lup
again in public streams. Dahlia call Lupe
again in public streams. Dahlia call Lopez
again in public streams. Dahlia call Lupe and
Spencer Casino. I feel like
when I have strong em
Casino. I feel like when I have strong emotions I
have
I feel like when I have strong emotions I have weird
Indo English words
emotions I have weird Indo English words
Words
Words. Yeah that's
Words. Electric
Words. Electrical
Words. Yeah that's okay
Words. Yeah that's okay. Because
this
Words. Yeah that's okay. Because
this
Words. Yeah that's okay. Because this Dallas is
like a brand and the
smell is that
Croton right that's
the one I've been talking
been talking about the room freshener thing and the
thing is I think it's like
a limited edition product that
they make because it was
Independence Day so now I am so
scared. That they are going to
so now I am so scared. That they are going to
discontinue it like. I'm so scared
are going to discontinue it like. I'm so scared
that they're
going to discontinue the
smell because like maybe August is
going to end and they're
going to stop producing it
end and they're going to stop producing it. So
good like why do I have to fall
in love with something that
is a limited edition
is a limited edition. Just by the entire stock
that's a plan I've been telling
Rumi I'm like let's
buy a couple of boxes
I'm like let's buy a couple of boxes. If you
I'm like let's buy a couple of boxes. If you
hurt that no you didn't answer cuz I
didn't either
didn't cuz I didn't either. Listen chat
didn't cuz I didn't either. Listen chat
no slack
no slack notification is going to stop me from
getting my
dolliest sponsor Delia
from getting my dolly a sponsor Delia
from getting my dolly a sponsor Delia. Call
from getting my dolly a sponsor Delia. College
from getting my dolly a sponsor Delia. Call of Duty
from getting my dolly a sponsor Delia. See
from getting my dolly a sponsor Delia. Go
What
What should
What Soph
What should be life
What
What should be life
What should be life. Go
What should be life. Wish
What should be life. In
What should be life. But
What should be life. If you disc
What should be life. If you
If you discontinue the smell I
will
If you discontinue the smell I will cry I will cancel
you too. Say this in a public
will cry I will cancel you too. Say this in a public
screen on pivot clip it and send
it to the company I
company I swear it's so so good if they
if they discontinued I will actually like it will be
a whole stream I will tie it
I'll be like Dahlia stop
producing and I want to cry
like Dahlia stop producing and I want to cry. I'm
want to cry. I don't think it'll be a sud
want to cry. I don't think it'll be a sudden
want to cry. I don't think it'll be a sudden
sales bike. I should add them
on Twitter
sales bike. I should add them on Twitter. I should be
sales bike. I should add them on Twitter. I should be
like at Dalia
Twitter. I should be like at Dalia. How
long
Twitter. I should be like at Dalia. How
long john discontinued
me about thanks sign
influencer. I'll do
about thanks sign influencer. All the shopping local
about thanks sign influencer. All the shopping list
yeah that's exactly what
I was going to do
that's exactly what I was going to do. That's
going to be a good strip
to do. That's going to be a good strip. I I
to do. That's going to be a good strip. I I am
a I love good smell
right I don't like
I I am I love good smell right I don't like
I I am I love good smell right I don't like. I
don't know I have a specific I
have a sensitive sense of
smell. So I've
have a sensitive sense of smell. So I've bought a
lot I bought candles I have
bought. Incense stick I keep calling
it incestic which is horrible
but that's it's
incestic which is horrible but it's because
incestic which is horrible but it's because. In
Indo it's called
incestic which is horrible but it's because. In
Indo it's called incense right
okay incense because of the
way you pronounce
it and I keep saying incestic
whatever incense sticks I have
bought three with candles
to one week candles room freshener
room sprays I love good
smelling rooms this is the first
one I fell in love with
rooms this is the first one I fell in love with. Try
actually what is the Raton is
that an actual beverage
is that an actual beverage. It's a smell
is that an actual beverage. I don't know actually
is that an actual beverage. I don't know actually
I don't
have
I don't know actually I don't have experience
have experience with this on ironically so bad
actually I don't I don't think
that actual thing but if you
Google text on the first thing you
see is Dahlia the one I
was talking about the rooms fresh
nursing it's so good if
they fucking stop producing it I
will. I'm about to
stop producing it I will. I'm about to buy like an
ironically a box
about to buy like an ironically a box. I mean call
about to buy like an ironically a box. I mean
call me sponsors
sponsors are you getting. Better. It is I think
sponsors are you getting. Better. Unken
sponsors are you getting. Better. Monkey
sponsors are you getting. Better. Monkey. I saw
some reviews
getting. Better. Monkey. I saw some reviews since
2022 I think it's not
it's not
limited
okay
think it's not it's not limited okay. Just
okay. Just bought two girl. If you like
okay. Just bought two girl. If you like warm sweet
tea smell like
taste you
would like to smell it I only use one
in my bathroom at the moment
and my whole bathroom
whole bathroom smells like that hope you got that
sponsorship
smells like that hope you got that sponsorship. Girl
I don't think
that sponsorship. Girl I don't think. You know
that sponsorship. Girl I don't think. You know
what actually you can contact my
roomie
what actually you can contact my roomie. You can
contact
what actually you can contact my roomie. You can
contact me if you're
ever interested in getting a
shelter
ever interested in getting a shelter. You don't
even have to pay
ever interested in getting a shelter. You don't
even have to pay me like just
send me a box you can
just send me like a
box with like I don't know
like 10 of them
like I don't know like 10 of them. And you
like I don't know like 10 of them. And you
don't even have to pay me I will
promote your content
like I'll promote
your product every single day
for the next like month
every single day for the next like month. I see
every single day for the next like month. I think
every single day for the next like month. S people
that get sponsored they will
say this shit about like
literally anything the
thing is because I don't
get sponsored to a degree you can
trust what I'm recommending cuz
recommending cuz no one is paying me to say this shit
also if one day I do
miraculously miraculously somehow I
get sponsored
miraculously somehow I get sponsored. I will have
miraculously somehow I get sponsored. I will have you
guys know but being
completely honest my first
sponsor I will
probably not be picky but afterwards I
will pick like I'm not
going to promote something that
something that I don't personally think is good
personally think is good. But I'm going to be dead
on a chat my first sponsor I
will take whatever like fuck
it free shut up
I have seen streamers with like what one
freezers with like what one viewer
freezers with like what one viewer. And they have
freezers with like what one viewer. And they have
like sponsored by Ray Shadow
Legends like what
the fuck
Ray Shadow Legends like what the fuck. I will throw
Ray Shadow Legends like what the fuck. I will throw
the script and make one better
and make one better. Okay. They said
that it's not
and make one better. Okay. They said
that it's not limited
it's been there for
a while
okay that calmed me
down cuz I thought it was limited
because the packaging looks
different. Make a mess
the packaging looks different. Make a
the packaging looks different. Makeup
the packaging looks different. I don't even
the packaging looks different. I don't even get
sponsored by the people that
sponsors other smaller creators why
smaller creators why. Like this man
smaller creators why. Like this manscape
manscape there's Rachel Legends I don't know
what else but
I don't
but I don't. I'm an actual nobody what the fuck
nobody what the fuck. Some Ninja mem
nobody what the fuck. Some needy members got
sponsors you can ask
them. From Ray
sponsors you can ask them. From right I
mean yeah we both know
damn well that's not how it
works bitch if it
was that easy. This dream is spons
works bitch if it was that easy. This dream is
sponsored by race bitch it if it was
that easy to get a sponsor in
this in the place that I'm in in
the situation that I am
provided. Bet
situation that I am provided. Bitch everyday is
situation that I am provided. Bitch everyday is a
Bitch everyday is a. Thank you man
Bitch everyday is a. Thank you mascape for guys I
have bad news today literally the
title is going to
be like. I kill
the title is going to be like. I killed a man or some
shit like I'm going to prison
or something and I'll be like
guys. I have horrible news
and I'll be like guys. I have horrible news. But
firstly a word from our sponsored
have you guys
sponsored have you guys. Do you know as a streamer
right your your privacy is one of
the biggest concerns you
can ever get
biggest concerns you can ever get. And when
biggest concerns you can ever get. And when I stream
sometimes I'm scared that
scared that suddenly out of nowhere my IP address is
going to pop up on the on
big text in the center of my
screen well thankfully I have VPN
thankfully I have VPN. Introducing
thankfully I have VPN. Introducing. And then after
it's like
thankfully I have VPN. Introducing. And then after
it's like okay back
to the Stream. I was just
like okay back to the Stream. I was respons
back to the Stream. I was just sponsor
like okay back to the Stream. I was
just sponsor you I've got
like 15 bucks left in my
streamer budget until next
Wednesday
streamer budget until next Wednesday I don't even
know I'm at that point
where I would take a sponsor that
isn't even paying me I just want
to feel like an influencer with a
sponsor. You know
influencer with a sponsor. You know. She's pract
influencer with a sponsor. You know. She's practic
influencer with a sponsor. You know. She's
know. She's practiced this before you are not a sad
truths yet I have
are not a sad truth yet I have when
are not a sad truth yet I have when. During the times
are not a sad truth yet I have when. During the times
where I had like my growth
spurt like I remembered I had a
hundred case subs and then the
next month I was celebrating like
my 200k so I was like doubling
my Subs in like a month right
I was like doubling my Subs in like a month right. I
was growing
I was like doubling my Subs in like a month right. I
was growing clips of me were
like everywhere shit like
that I was like somewhat I
had my little taste of relevancy
I was so so sure that I
was going to get a sponsor like
y'all know why I really wanted
one it's not because like the
money or whatever I just wants to
feel cool and like an
influence or some shit like that
cool and like an influencer or some shit like that
some shit like that. Well thank you them
some shit like that. Well thank you them please keep
your 15 bucks
you them please keep your 15 bucks. Please take care
of
you them please keep your 15 bucks. Please take care
of yourself don't
spend your money on fucking
stupid the fuck
but yeah it's like I was
so sure cuz in my head right I
was like I am booming and relevancy
I am growing so fast there are
so many people talking
about me and I get hate that is
literally like the Holy Trinity of
relevancy
like the Holy Trinity of relevancy. Gro
like the Holy Trinity of relevancy. Gross
like the Holy Trinity of relevancy. Gross. Talk
like the Holy Trinity of relevancy. Gross. Talks and
hate I got it all baby so
I was so sure that I
was
going to get my first
ever sponsor and in my head I
was like
sponsor and in my head I was like. Yes I
sponsor and in my head I was like. Yes I work so hard
to get here I'll finally
get it so when I
was growing I would
look at myself in the mirror and
pretend like if this was a
sponsored stream I'm going to
have a sponsor voice right
stream I'm going to have a sponsor voice
sponsor voice right like I was so cringe I was like
stream I'm going to have a sponsor voice
so cringe I was like okay this is how I usually talk
no cursing right no cursing so
I'll just be like
cursing so I'll just be like. So guys today
guys today we're going to be okay now that is that
is too casual I have to sound
more enthusiastic hi everyone
oh no no that's to try
hard like I would do that in front
of the mirror
would do that in front of the mirror. You know and
would do that in front of the mirror. You know and
I'd be like okay what do I
say next how do I word
it
what do I say next how do I word it. But it never
what do I say next how do I word it. But it never
came. Practice. No
it. But it never came. Practice. It's
it. But it never came. Practice. Have a good
it. But it never came. Practice. Have a
good the time at
Have a good time at work be safe. Yes
Practice. Have a good time at work be safe. Yes
Practice. Have a good time at work be safe. Yes. I
will. Well
safe. Yes. I will. Well. I don't care about
safe. Yes. I will. Well. I don't care about you
about you how about that Infinity
marriage
but yes
have a fun time at
work please be safe on your
commute and stuff
be safe on your commute and stuff. This is why
be safe on your commute and stuff. This is why they
never came shut the fuck up
oh my god did they
know it's because my
community was so fucking chat
we made a pinky promise if I
ever managed to somehow get a
sponsor y'all better Act
to somehow get a sponsor y'all better act correct
better act correct. I'm going to mute TTS
better act correct. I'm going to mute TTS. If I get
better act correct. I'm going to mute TTS. If I get
a sponsored stream I am going
to disabled Super Chat
I'm going to disable
donations I'm going to hide all
my alert notification and I will I
would like to limit chat
like to limit chat. Seven fuck no promises imagine I
get my first sponsor and then
try to just like Mika
this is so good
try to just like Mika this is so good. Yeah you guys
try to just like Mika this is so good. Yeah you guys
suck. I will literally
good. Yeah you guys suck. I will literally. I will
good. Yeah you guys suck. I will literally. I will
have like to chat in my stream you
have to be at least
stream you have to be at least. We at least 3 years
subscribed. Fuck it out yeah you
We at least 3 years subscribed. Fuck it out yeah you
have to be the paid actor chat
the paid actor chat. You don't when I said like I
know I said I really really wanted
a sponsor I used
to really wanted it that was
one of my biggest
my biggest motivations back then it's like I'm
going to grow I'm going to
going to finally get a sponsor I'm going to finally
get invited to events getting
invited to events doing a meet and
greet and sponsorship where
my top three biggest motivation
because. If
three biggest motivation because. If I go
three biggest motivation because. If I go to events I
thought
because. If I go to events I thought it'll be cool
to meet you guys me
and greets
would also be cool because I'll meet
you guys and sponsors because in
my head if I get a sponsor that
means I am important enough
important enough hahaha. I got well at least I got
into one event and I got invited
to do a video with Alpha
so that's nice I'm not
going to complain about that I had I
had a IRL convention experience
convention experience one time and I got invited to
do a video with a convention
one time so that's good
Hon
Honestly
Honestly. If that happens
Honestly. If that happens yet
it'd be
Honestly. If that happens yet it'd be so fucking
funny cuz in my head if
fucking funny cuz in my head if. I have
fucking funny cuz in my head if. I have practice so
hard I'd be like if there's
anything bad I will laugh at I'd
be like oh haha it's glitching
oh no chat it's just my
technology of course but my stream
is doing fine no it's
because I have a bad computer the
game is perfect. I'm practice
bad computer the game is perfect. I'm practice man
I even watched I
watched I watched a lot of needy liver
sponsored streams
sponsored streams because I thought like oh I'm
going to learn what they do and
learn what they say so I can
emulate The Professional
what they say so I can emulate the professional
the professional experience I watched like so many
Ian sponsored videos
watched like so many Ian sponsored videos. For no
watched like so many Ian sponsored videos. For no
reason just so that I can
practice how to act and speak
I was trying the good
old times and then now I just
stop. Now I stop that's just
sad shut the fuck up chat okay
that was my motivation
the fuck up chat okay that was my motivation. It cat
the fuck up chat okay that was my motivation. It kept
the fuck up chat okay that was my motivation. It kept
me enthusiastic it kept me
alive you know put the youth
back in my old dying
crippled bones God damn shit at
least you practice yeah maybe
one day chat right surely one day
we're going to get a friend
here and I'm going to be
to get a friendship and I'm going to be amazing
going to be amazing. Girl I will cry it's not that
bad I'm so ready
cry it's not that bad I'm sorry Dad why does
it feel like those
things where it's like hi so like
hi Facebook so today my
child celebrated their 10th birthday they
were so excited but no one
came it's not like it feels
like that now it's not that sad
it's funny. Posit
now it's not that sad it's funny. Positive like
now it's not that sad it's funny. Positive like
let's think about positively
about positively chat one day when I
get a sponsor and the
sponsors like Mika we want to
sponsor you have to do it
tomorrow I am prepared I am ready okay
I have my sponsor only
voice and my sponsor action I
won't even curse I won't say
any bad word I am ready mentally
physically spiritually
am ready mentally physically spiritually. That's
spiritually. That's that kind of sad
spiritually. That's kind of sad. I don't
spiritually. That's kind of sad. I don't
spiritually. That's kind of sad. I don't. Fuck
Fuck you chat that's why I'm going to stop TTS
I'm not even
going to show alert
don't know donation
donation notifications. Be positive
Be positive. Man
Be positive. Man. See this is
why
Be positive. Man. See this is why I don't
Be positive. Man. See this is
why
Be positive. Man. See this is why I don't get
Shut
Shut the
Shut the fuck
Shut
Shut the
Shut the fuck I shut the
You
You are
You are the reason
You
You are
You are the reason for my family
hours
You are the reason for my family hours fuck you
You are the reason for my fingers fuck you
You are the reason for my fingers fuck you. Not this
is why I don't get
anything you know something I am
more convinced that
you guys. That you guys as my
viewers will get sponsored
get sponsored compared to me like I can see someone
just TT asking me being like
hi Mika so this TTS is
sponsored by. Like fuck use
this TTS is sponsored by. Like fuck use code make a
boss man. I'll never get as
fuck use code make a boss man. I'll never get as
fast they're fuck you
guys no one day. Event
fuck you guys no one day. Eventually I
fuck you guys no one day. Eventually I will and
I'll do so damn good y'all
know my strug out I seriously feel
like I'm your child that's
through a birthday party and no
one came and now you're like
blasting the internet you're
internet you're like the internet no one came to
my child's birthday party
they were so excited they
prepared all day and they they
couldn't stop talking about it last
night too it's so sad wait
and I'm just sitting there and
my little party had being like
I'm ready I'm ready
anymore
being like I'm ready I'm ready anymore. I know
it's going to happen
being like I'm ready I'm ready anymore. I know
it's going to happen chat I know
I know it I have not completely lost hope you know I
know one day I will
experience it. You can't give
day I will experience it. You can't give up now
chats we've gone so far thank
you eyebrow. P
we've gone so far thank you eyebrow. Punk welcome
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know what maybe it's good
that I don't get sponsored
right now because chat
will literally fucking destroy my
contract I will do my sponsored
and they will never want to
work with me again because chat
is roasting the shit out of them
the shit out of them. Maybe it's good maybe it is
a good choice thank you Travis will
come to your 10
months thank you to the sponsor
of this dream the memories
do you know that there's a
stream but xqc I think I've
think I've talked about this I found it so funny
but back then I found it funny now
I'm like holy shit this is
going to be my chat
holy shit this is going to be my chat. On iron
holy shit this is going to be my chat. On ironically
holy shit this is going to be my chat. On ironically
this is going to be my chat like
X you see how to
stream like a
sponsored stream of a game right
stream like a sponsored stream of a game right. You
did. I did promote them I
retweeted I even commented I
promoted on
Twitter I didn't know
if I was allowed to promote
it on YouTube though cuz
allowed to promote it on YouTube though cuz. I
don't know I wasn't told to but I
wasn't told to retweet
either but I did
Retreat it I'm glad you watched
it though I actually was very very
happy doing that video because
a lot of the things that I
was promoting I was also like
wow like my reaction of
being like whoa really like
that's actually genuine I did not
know about these places I was
actually quite happy I took notes
of it even I was like if I
go to Japan again I'll go here
it's so cool I thought it was
cool. But we're not as bad as
I thought it was cool. But we're not as bad as xucc
chat please I saw the clip of
XTC doing a sponsored
stream for a game and he was
playing with his viewers right and
his whole chat was spamming
like this like what the fuck is
this garbage game like they were
cheating some people were sending
him don't know message
with the TTS on and they were
like this game is so garbage
actually she's playing with Bots
like. You're so right
playing with Bots like. You're so right to Dougie
you know how bad it was it was so
like I found it so
fucking funny cuz people like
excuse you was trying to make it be
like fun and stuff right he was
like oh chat I heard someone I
heard someone I found it nice
nice good kill good kill and
chat was like X you see kill
the butt good job
like X you see kill the butt good job. Like
like X you see kill the butt good job. It was so fuck
like X you see kill the butt good job. It was so
fucking funny but eventually the
sponsors
funny but eventually the sponsors didn't even
want to like
pay him I think allegedly I
don't know that's what I heard
but he got some he got some
problems with that one cuz the chat
was just so as hollering
that one cuz the chat was just so as hollering. So
funny though that was how I found
out of it excuse me
imagine like you're
trying to promote and he was
trying his best he was in
character the whole stream
best he was in character the whole stream. What ch
best he was in character the whole stream. What chat
best he was in character the whole stream. What chat
was just relentlessly shit
relentlessly shit talking the kids
relentlessly shit talking the kids. Now I
think it's
relentlessly shit talking the kids. Now I
think it's going to
be my community
think it's going to be my community. Not my face
think it's going to be my community. Not my face
hurts from laughing
community. Not my face hurts from laughing. I know
community. Not my face hurts from laughing. I know
right the
Not my face hurts from laughing. I know right the. I
don't I feel like my Donuts
have never been that that bad and
I never got
sponsored so I didn't give a shit
but. But that was so funny
he doesn't view it too it's
horrible if like if you put
yourself in his shoes but I ain't
going to do that fuck I'm
going to laugh. We would never
that fuck I'm going to laugh. We would never chat
you would never behave that's a
truth. I would not even
never behave that's a truth. I would not even have
chat on if I did a
I did a sponsored straight with that but that point
I don't trust any of you I
ain't going to lie I love you
guys but I will not trust
you
you guys but I will not trust you. I got friends
you guys but I will not trust you. I got friends
you're so smart sponsor me if
you want do you
want a competing
company to fail well I am the person
for you. True you guys
well I am the person for you. True you guys are my
sponsor. That is
True you guys are my sponsor. That is true chat
sponsors my whole entire
whole entire livelihood at this point
whole entire livelihood at this point. Absol
whole entire livelihood at this point. Absolutely
haven't seen me for 4 hours no wonder I've been
feeling a bit sleepy
wonder I've been feeling a bit sleepy. Hol
wonder I've been feeling a bit sleepy. Holy
wonder I've been feeling a bit sleepy. Holy. What
the fuck outside
sleepy. Holy. What the fuck outside. That sounds
sleepy. Holy. What the fuck outside. That sounds
like a lawsuit is
going we
do it now think
later. I feel so
going we do it now think later. I feel so bad
going we do it now think later. I feel so bad. Hon
I feel so bad. Honestly. I thought I
I feel so bad. Honestly. I thought I mean if I was
that game company I would
do the same
like and that was
such horrible that was such a
horrible sponsor Street what the fuck
Street what the fuck. It's already mid
Street what the fuck. It's already midnight
Street what the fuck. It's already midnight
Street what the fuck. It's already good for 4
hours I miss streaming the thing
is chat I said Miss dreaming
but I won't be able to
stream. Until like next week
be able to stream. Until like next week cuz
be able to stream. Until like next week cuz. I'm
going to be very transparent
let's open our
calendars Mister is graduating on
Sunday right what is he doing
tomorrow or technically later today
I remember it was something
like. Big
remember it was something like. Big. For
remember it was something like. Big. Forgot what it
remember it was something like. Big. Forgot what it
was though but it was something
big and then
he's going to talk
before he leaves I don't want to
overlap with that like
don't want to overlap with that like. I know one
don't want to overlap with that like. I know one
time I accidentally overlapped with
like
accidentally overlapped with like I'll meet
you just
you just graduation which I still feel bad about but
I'll be honest
honest let me just very very sweet I completely
forgot like I was stupid and I
scheduled like a stream where I was
reading chat stuff and I
didn't want to disappoint chat
disappoint chat either but with Miss
disappoint chat either but with Miss. I mean
disappoint chat either but with Miss. I mean he's
been there for me for a good
amount of time so I
will try to never
forget these things ever again like
I promise I will never forget
these things. But God
I will never forget these things. But God damn
graduations are happening less
than the right it
is nuts
happening less than the right it is nuts. That Cur
happening less than the right it is nuts. That curse
happening less than the right it is nuts. That curse
Henry Stickman stream
is nuts. That curse Henry Stickman stream. Ing oh
is nuts. That curse Henry Stickman stream. Ing oh
yeah it was because I
kept
rescheduling a Henry Stickman
scream I forgot
what the fuck I did
Stickman scream I forgot what the fuck I did. But I
still feel bad till this day
for that man. But yeah he's
bad till this day for that man. But yeah he's
going to be
graduating Sunday so I'm just
going to take
graduating Sunday so I'm just going to take. To
the rest of the week off and next
week I'm going to be
posting a new animated
video. And then I'm
posting a new animated video. And then I'm going
to do a unarchived karaoke
unarchived karaoke because. I want to do that
unarchived karaoke because. I want to do that so
actual content next week
want to do that so actual content next week. But
I'll just say like a break
until the end of the week just
to be like us
until the end of the week just to be like us. Was
until the end of the week just to be like us. West
until the end of the week just to be like us. Was to
until the end of the week just to be like us. Was tot
until the end of the week just to be like us. Was
until the end of the week just to be like us. Respons
to be like us. Was totalities what is that a word
to be like us. Response. What about your
to be like us. Response. What about your son oh wait
actually I texted Eden
wait actually I texted Eden. Oh they
resp
actually I texted Eden. Oh they respond
actually I texted Eden. Oh they responded
wait actually I texted Eden. Oh they
responded
actually I texted Eden. Oh they responded. Young and
actually I texted Eden. Oh they responded. Young and
responded. Young and. Odin's working on it
responded. Young and. Odin's working on it
that's the only update I
can get I asked
Odin if I could like
tease the song but they said
what are you and trying to tease
the song is not even that long
so we didn't have the point
I'm not going to tease it it's
have the point I'm not going to tease it it's. I
already have everything
have the point I'm not going to tease it it's. I
already have everything done
everything done I'm literally just waiting on
Odin fuck you Odin
Odin fuck you Odin. Fuck yeah. But
Odin fuck you Odin. Fuck yeah. But. I will say
Odin fuck you Odin. Fuck yeah. But. I will say though
this I don't know how the
song even
sounds
like
know how the song even sounds like. But I don't
know how the song even sounds like. But I don't
think it's going to be good
or serious like it's
not going to be like
going to be like. Oh my God she's spitting bars I
wrote it when I was medicated
as fuck I should just I
don't know how to title it
even I'll just be like I wrote
this song when I was medicated an
original song by Mika featuring Odin
by Mika featuring Odin. Was it the one you
by Mika featuring Odin. Was it the one you teach
the one you teach. Was it the one you teach the
lyrics for No
the one you teach the lyrics for No. This is
the one you teach the lyrics for No. This is brand
new no one has you guys
have not even heard the
instrumental you guys
have never even heard the
lyrics it is brand brand new it is so
new even that I forgot how
it sounds like
even that I forgot how it sounds like. Yeah it does
even that I forgot how it sounds like. Yeah it does
like a song I wrote when I was
absolutely buzzed
out of my mind original
by Mika melodica
of my mind original by Mika melodica. I'm going to
of my mind original by Mika melodica. In
melodica. I'm going to get in trouble for that
melodica. I'm going to get in trouble for that
song I'm going to be very
honest like
that song I'm going to be very honest like. I think
that song I'm going to be very honest like. I think
I will get into some trouble
with that song but
into some trouble with that song but. It's
okay I'll
into some trouble with that song but. It's
okay I'll be
funny. It'll be a funny little
Endeavor chat you know
it'll be good. Indom
chat you know it'll be good. Indomit
chat you know it'll be good. Indomites
chat you know it'll be good. Endo Maritza you
chat you know it'll be good. Endo Maritza you
sure you wrote it I did I think and
I woke up with the lyrics on my
phone so. I hope I
with the lyrics on my phone so. I hope I did
with the lyrics on my phone so. I hope I did. Canc
I hope I did. Cancellations yeah this song will give
me canceled original
it's okay chat I do
have some good news that I
want to tease before I end the
stream because it's late
before I end the stream because it's late. Not
anytime soon but. Now original
Now original song whenever fucking Odin
is done with it I
don't know when but
whenever Odin's done
Odin's done original song. Aside from that
Odin's done original song. Aside from that
from that. August September October November
from that. August September October November. Okay
wait. No
September October November. Okay wait. November maybe
earlier I
don't know actually
maybe earlier I don't know actually. Sept
earlier I don't know actually. September
maybe earlier I don't know actually. What
month is it
maybe earlier I don't know actually. What
month is it
it's August
know actually. What month is it it's August. Okay
maybe sometime soon there
will be new things
will be new things. But it is in the works there
is something in the works and I
think it'll be very
exciting smile but something
is in the work but it might take
a couple of months
work but it might take a couple of months. Yeah you
work but it might take a couple of months. Yeah you
are great. Fuck
of months. Yeah you are great. It's a good thing
it's a good thing
of months. Yeah you are great. It's a good thing
it's a good thing
of months. Yeah you are great. Something cool
of months. Yeah you are great. Something cool I'm
not going to say now
because it's
still in a couple of months
and I don't want to tease it
this early on. But I'm very
want to tease it this early on. But I'm very
excited. Yes. Yes yes thank you jail
how's your two months Ayo is
that my
most favorite ghosty
goo streaming
most favorite ghosty goo streaming. Heck yeah caught
most favorite ghosty goo streaming. Heck yeah caught
her life let's go
to jail I have bad news I
was about to end my
stream I'm sorry I was here for 4
hours and. I I'm having I still
have a little bit of jet lag
I don't know why
little bit of jet lag I don't know why. 3
little bit of jet lag I don't know why. 3.
little bit of jet lag I don't know why. 3.0 oh
fuck no kidding anyways chats
anyways chats that's all you get for
today I do miss you
guys I might consider becoming an
ASM artist okay it depends if
life keeps giving me shit I will
purchase a 3DO
giving me shit I will purchase a 3DO. Expect
giving me shit I will purchase a 3DO. Expecting big
giving me shit I will purchase a 3DO. Expecting big
kids oh Fonzie actually was kind
enough to
recommend me a keyboard
a piano keyboard and I'm
about to buy it fancy told me to
try and test it out like go to a
music store try a bunch of keyboards
out the issue is I do not have a
music store nearby
issue is I do not have a music store nearby. So
I might just purchase one I
haven't bought a keyboard but
I'm going to
haven't bought a keyboard but I'm going to. Like
Fonzie recommended one I forgot
what it was but it's in
our chat so I can
just click it they sent me a
shopping link. They didn't
they sent me a shopping link. They don't even
they sent me a shopping link. They didn't even go
they sent me a shopping link. They didn't even go
like oh this is the brand I
recommend they send me a whole
shopping link so. I might get
send me a whole shopping link so. I might get a
keyboard soon it depends because
depends because. Yeah. But I hope super soon the
moment I get paid
hope super soon the moment I get paid. I got
hope super soon the moment I get paid. I got fun
when no
one's got me I know
Fonzie's got me also the
moment I got my
keyboard Fonzie you are going to be
banned until I become an expert
just just so you know
I become an expert just just so you know. If any
I become an expert just just so you know. If anyone
I become an expert just just so you know. If anyone
in chat can play the piano or
can play any music
instruments really well
you guys will be banned from
chat until I become better
will be banned from chat until I become better. This
isn't me being petty or
anything. I swear. Thank you
being petty or anything. I swear. Thank you red
and blue for the
last time I talked to a
friend
counting months she
was pregnant I'm just saying
I'm just saying. Chats. In like. Oh my God guys
I'm just saying. Chats. In like. Oh my God guys in
6 months I won't be able to
stream
for a
couple of months
because I will be giving birth
be giving birth. Imagine if I'm streaming on when
I'm giving birth
streaming on when I'm giving birth. God
I'm giving birth. God. Everything is
I'm giving birth. God. Everything is content these
days funds are getting
bad banned
for 5 years I'll learn
I learn music instruments fast I
think. Girl I know you
instruments fast I think. Girl I know you single
don't even shut the fuck up
texture okay. Fuck
okay. Fuck a picture okay I'm looking
okay. Fuck a picture okay I'm looking. I'm
looking. I'm looking at the chat to see
who the fuck
ass fuck you. Fuck you I'm not single
you I'm not single. Mika said it. She has a lover
it's true oh my God I can
do this again
it's true oh my God I can do this again. A fuck
it's true oh my God I can do this again. A fuck
I haven't routed
God I can do this again. A fucked it properly
God I can do this again. A fucked it properly. I am
God I can do this again. A fucked it properly. I am
not single I am dating
somebody even true
single I am dating somebody even true. She finally
said
single I am dating somebody even true. She finally
said it it's
it's happening it's true
I'm getting the fuck all
right real quick how is Tinder been
going. What the fuck up
how is Tinder been going. What the fuck up chat
actually I use bumble
the fuck up chat actually I use bumble. I don't
the fuck up chat actually I use bumble. I don't
use that I use her
use bumble. I don't use that I use her. Get your
use bumble. I don't use that I use her. Get your
facts right. Anyway
use her. Get your facts right. Anyways I
use her. Get your facts right. Anyways I
have an ulcer in my mouth
as well and it's so
annoying it's not to
the point where it's like
where it's like. I can't talk but I can't eat
anything spicy and ever since I
came back I really
want to eat like spicy there's
this one that. American music
like spicy there's this one that. American Museum
like spicy there's this one that. American Museum
it's like instant noodle but
it's tomato flavor it's like
tomato spicy soup I want to eat
that I've been craving it
Cravings pregnant real
been craving it Cravings pregnant real. And I
can't eat it
been craving it Cravings pregnant real. And I
can't eat it because
pregnant real. And I can't eat it because. I want
pregnant real. And I can't eat it because. I want
to eat potato I want to eat
them I miss indoor
food but my ulcer is
stopping me. God damn not carry but
my ulcer is stopping me. Goddamn not forget
damn not carry but it was like tomato
God damn not carry but it was like tomato
God damn not carry but it was like tomato. The
God damn not carry but it was like tomato. Baby
God damn not carry but it was like tomato. If we had
God damn not carry but it was like tomato. Baby Ann
God damn not carry but it was like tomato. The van
like tomato. If we had knocked what
God damn not carry but it was like tomato. I'm CR
God damn not carry but it was like tomato. I'm
craving instant noodles bro
like tomato. I'm craving instant noodles bro. Oh
wait thank you for the
super ninja night thank
you so much everybody like lag
loading. But I'm probably
everybody like lag loading. But I'm probably
I'm probably going to end the Stream
I'm probably going to end the Stream. Like
I'm probably going to end the Stream. Like. After
the Super renders but
thank you for coming to my
members
dream sorry for
disappearing
members dream sorry for disappearing for like 5 days
without
disappearing for like 5 days without any news or any
updates or anything I am
dead I was dying death thing right
dying death thing right. Yeah everything is
dying death thing right. Yeah everything is good
everything is a okay good
everything is good everything is a okay good. The
everything is good everything is a okay good. Lima
African I
everything is good everything is a okay good. Lima
African I will be
doing that again just so you know
I'll be disappearing
be disappearing until the start of next week
be disappearing until the start of next week. Thank
you need your night for the super
Thank you need your night for the super. How the
How the fuck
How
How the
How the fuck
How the fuck. Do you know how to
How the fuck. Do you know how to
How the fuck. Do you know how to. Answer that
How the fuck. Do you know how to. Answer that. Yeah
goodbye DJ die fuck you I
don't care every
time you talk
about your hubby
like your hubby sounds like the most
sweetest person on Earth and I
person on Earth and I. You know what
person on Earth and I. You know what. I'm happy
person on Earth and I. You know what. I'm happy
for you but that's a lie fuck
you that should have
been me
lie fuck you that should have been me. People
lie fuck you that should have been me. Why
been me. People in chat me angry not the community I
been me. Chat me angry not the community I want Ben
community I want Ben. I know right jail
thank you for the
super. I am distracting
the super. I am distracting. And thank
the super. I am distracting. I think
the super. I am distracting. And thank you Jeff
the super. I am distracting. And thank you Jeffrey
Jeffrey art over there thank you Jeffrey welcome
to your 8 months I
swear if I see any more talented
people in chat I am going to
you know what. If I
chat I am going to you know what. If I see anyone
else that is talented in chat
I am going to
talented in chat I am going to. Delete my
talented in chat I am going to. Delete my channel
Delete my channel. I'm so sick and tired of
people with skills showing up in my
chat you're doing
this out of malice I know it
malice I know it. You're doing this to purposely
spite me. Close this
this to purposely spite me. Close this clip Studio
spite me. Close this clip Studio. What count
spite me. Close this clip Studio. What counts
spite me. Close this clip Studio. What counts as
Talent. I am oh my
Studio. What counts as Talent. I am oh my God
you're right we
have so many artists and
musicians and you know what
musicians and you know what. Chat look
musicians and you know what. Chat look behind you is
that. Is that the
Chat look behind you is that. Is that the ban button
holy shit. Oh wait fuck
that the ban button holy shit. Oh wait fuck I
haven't did my. Anyway
shit. Oh wait fuck I haven't did my. Anyways
shit. Oh wait fuck I haven't did my. Anyway shut
shit. Oh wait fuck I haven't did my. Anyways chat
thank you so much
for
shit. Oh wait fuck I haven't did my. Anyways chat
thank you so much
for coming to
today's membership stream I hope you
guys have a good day don't
forget to drink and take care of
yourself. I'm not an in
and take care of yourself. I'm not an English
and take care of yourself. I'm not in the Stream
because I am bitter or anything no
it's just it's so late
you know I I would never end a
stream just because I am so
painfully jealous of how happy and
content and talented my chat